Let me start off, point blank, that to be completely honest, there’s just some people that I don’t want to forgive.
I know in the bible, the one unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Holy Spirit.
But on a personal level, I’ve forgiven absolutely everyone in my life; even if they didn’t ask, even if they don’t know, even if they hurt me deeply – I’ve forgiven them all.
But there’s just one class of people that I’m having an extremely hard time forgiving:
Those that abuse children.
Physically abuse. Mentally. Sexually. Verbally. It doesn’t matter which one. (Of course some are more deplorable than others…)
It takes SO much out of me to come to terms that they need forgiveness too. But it’s quite possibly the hardest thing for me to do. And sometimes I can’t even come to terms with it. But let me tell you a story (a true story) on why I think forgiveness is absolutely necessary in order to break out of this corrupted society.
If you’ve read my testimony then you’ll see that I’ve had some interesting experiences in my life that I couldn’t explain. (And this testimony didn’t even cover all of them.)
One of them pertains to this very subject. I feel as if it is so important, but it’s so hard for me to do, even 10 years after the event happened.
To excerpt that part of the testimony, I will put it here:
Well, I was lying in bed and I had just woken up. As in, my mind woke up. I was still laying peacefully in bed, my eyelids haven’t even had a chance to open. Well, out of nowhere (in my head?) I heard this voice speaking to me.
Now, I know what dreams are. (Well, not REALLY, but I AM familiar with them. Written down 2,000+.. not to mention the many, MANY dreams I haven’t written down.) I am also familiar with hypnagogic/hypnopompic hallucinations and have experienced several different dream states (lucid dreams/OBEs/false awakenings/consciously entered a dream, etc.).
THIS didn’t seem like a dream to me. Again, I was very conscious. But before I could even open my eyes, I heard the voice. Clearly a male voice. It couldn’t have been my own thoughts in my head. I could also feel vibrations along with his voice. (I’m also familiar with the vibrations when trying to induce OBEs/lucid dreams. Had a few, but not nearly as many as I’d like.) And this event was very clear, concise, and not hallucinatory at all.
Anyway, this voice was asking me a very specific question(s). He was asking me if I could forgive *insert name here*. Some of these people I knew, and some I didn’t (at least, I don’t believe I did..). Each name that the voice gave me, I automatically knew insights into them. As to what they have done – the sins they committed, what kind of person they were. I responded each time with my answer. Some I would forgive, some I wouldn’t. I had to contemplate on a couple.
Well, here’s the interesting part. Each time I replied with a forgiving answer, I would feel the vibrations getting stronger. When I wouldn’t forgive the person, the vibrations would fade away. Each time this happened. I would forgive a person, the vibrations would come back, and grow stronger with each forgiving answer. If I felt like ‘no, I wouldn’t forgive them’ these vibrations would fade, get weaker. He must have asked me at least 5 or 6 different people, and my answers were about 2/3 in favor of forgiveness. Maybe even half.
Finally after the last person, the voice diminished/faded as well as the vibrations. My last answer must have been a negative. I realized after this experience that I was supposed to answer with all forgiveness. NO MATTER WHAT. It seems so inconceivable to me to forgive a murderer, rapist, etc. It’s against human morals, right? But this “test”, I call it, clearly wanted my answers to be all forgiving.
For some reason, I was being tested. This voice, whoever it was, seemed to be monitoring my answers and showing me, through vibrations, what path I was supposed to take.
I’ve had to research further into what these vibrations mean. I mean, I don’t need scientific evidence to back all these claims up. I figure a multitude of people’s testimony is sufficient enough for me, especially when I’ve experienced first-hand similar things. So up until my research into vibrations, I figured it was only a prelude to lucid dreams/OBEs. It’s what our spirit bodies experience when exitting our physical one. Seemed plausible enough to me. But when reading more into it, come to realize that the higher vibration you are, the more spiritually sound you are. (Metaphysically speaking.)
We should be striving for the highest vibration there is. Which essentially means bettering ourselves in our lifetime(s). Not with physical/materialistic needs. But how we treat each other, how forgiving we are.
Now I cannot say for certain who this entity/voice belonged to. I’m not going to come right out and say, “It’s Jesus!” or “It’s God!” or “It’s Elvis Presley coming back to give me a message beyond the grave!” Because I honestly don’t know. I didn’t have any visual experiences with this. Only auditory and vibrations.
I liken the being to the Holy Spirit, perhaps; but again, I cannot say for certain.
Now, I realize I may receive some push back from this, with people declaring, “Well, you didn’t test this spirit. You didn’t ask if it came in Jesus’s name.”
And you’re right. I didn’t. Forgive me, (no pun intended) but I literally had just woken up and hadn’t had coffee yet, so I hope you can understand.
But I did think about that afterwards. And the only other recourse I could’ve taken, was to compare my experience with the Bible. (That’s if I even wanted to explain it biblically.)
Agnostic Childhood
And I want to mention, I didn’t grow up in a typical Christian household. We never really went to church, never really prayed, I think we gave a blessing at meal times sometimes, but when America slowly started to remove God/Jesus from the schools and the “normal” way of life, we, too stopped our meal time prayers.
My parents never urged us to read the Bible, never talked about God/Jesus (as a matter of fact, I was the one who had to breach that subject with my Mom – and even then, she was on the fence with her beliefs), so my experiences left me somewhat dumb-founded that I would have these.
I was also the type of person who, in my youth, was very bitter and angry – all the time. I didn’t know where all this animosity was coming from, but I could literally feel myself hating society with every fiber in my being. I hated how unjust it was, I hated the corruption, I hated the selfishness and greed that I saw. I hated it all. I was slowly but surely becoming a very violent person.
But with a few unexplainable experiences, coupled with the one I described above, I had to come to terms that there was something MORE to this universe. Beyond the physical, beyond the material, beyond what our eyes can see. And because of the experience above, and the one I had in 2014 where again, a voice (different this time) told me that Love is the reason we’re here, I went looking for it.
Bible References
At first, my research into this phenomena that happened to me didn’t even start with the Bible. I didn’t know where to begin.
After I had the “vibration” experience, I looked a little into it and concluded that it must have something to do with positive/higher energy. Something was testing me to guide me into being more forgiving. Since I wasn’t too into the metaphysical at that time, I tucked it away into my soul and dwelled on it inwardly at times. (Now, it absolutely overwhelms me – not necessarily in a bad way, but in an “Uh oh… they gave me clear instructions on what to do on this planet, and I’m not doing it. I should hop to it.” kind of urgent way.)
And then, when I had the “Love” experience in 2014, I realized, “Wow, something is really trying to drive this point home. First it was “forgiveness” and now it’s “love”. I should pay attention.”
And this is what sent me on a hyper-drive to research what was going on. Which eventually led me to the Bible, to Jesus Christ, and to near death experiences. It led me to these hard-hitting verses that really caused me to wake up and realize that there’s definitely something more going on in the world than meets the eye:
Calling / Choosing
Love
8 Love never fails.
Forgiveness
From just these verses (there is plenty more in the Bible), not only does it speak of asking for forgiveness from God, but it also tells us to forgive each other. So I believe my experience was biblically sound. You never hear of demons/the devil asking people to be forgiving. Or to love, for that matter.
But can we truly love someone, unconditionally, if we don’t forgive them of their actions first? Can we love like Jesus does, if we don’t first adhere to the forgive/mercy rule?
My struggle is against child abuses. I can forgive just about everyone on this planet for any number of horrible atrocities, but this one… I can only pray about it.
Children are the most innocent, vulnerable, helpless people on the planet. They look up to parents, adults, authority figures, for protection and leadership. But what happens when these “leaders” are pushing for something so obscene, so immoral and heinous, that it goes against the very core of human beings all over the planet?
I’m sorry to say, but this is a very real dilemma that we’re facing. I will not provide links, but if you wish to look into it, be warned, it’s very disturbing (but we NEED to know about it in order to protect our children) just look up “Monica Cline Planned Parenthood” / “World Health Organization 0-4” / “California sex ed”. These are just some examples of the sick, twisted, absolutely corrupted view that they’re trying to push on people and on our children.
THIS, is what I have a hard time forgiving. These depraved, perverted, wicked individuals are trying to normalize pedophilia and get our children (WHO CAN’T EVEN TALK YET!) to participate in these activities. To say that I am disgusted and shocked that it’s even gotten this far is a HUGE understatement.
Am I justified in my opinion of this matter? Every core in my being rejects the notion of wanting to forgive this CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY, because that’s what it is.
Sometimes though, I get this little voice in the back of my head saying, “What if those that are creating these laws were corrupted the very same way from birth? What if they never knew a true, unconditional, innocent childhood? They would be twisted and corrupted from the very beginning. And in their blindness, might try to push the same ideology on other people.”
It breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that a person can be so immoral and warped to subject a poor, defenseless child in this manner. And it does evoke in me a compassion for their soul and being and the possible “lifestyle” they must have had. Both for the perpetrator and the victim. I think, what if the perpetrator was subjected to this atrocity in the same manner? What if that’s why they have this unnatural view of the world?
Live in Light, Love and Forgiveness
20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned 21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Yes, I think forgiveness is key. I think prayer is another huge focus. Because I honestly cannot come to the holy decision to forgive these nefarious people on my own. I pray to God, to Jesus, to the Holy Spirit to not only help me come to terms with this difficulty, but I pray for their soul as well that they see the depravity and wickedness in their ways. The Bible even mentions their “hardened hearts”. Perhaps there are just some people that will never come around. But being kept in spiritual darkness is not the answer.
Unfortunately, as most of us know, there is immorality and unfairness in the world. It seems like corruption cloaks over us like a dark shadow, threatening to snuff out all light. But just remember that there are MANY more loving, kind, compassionate people than we realize. And yes, God/Higher Being/Creator, Jesus, Heavenly Host, are all real. Once people come to the conscious realization that we have the utmost highest power in our corner, the world will start to shift in their thoughts, and the corruption will be replaced by love, peace, joy and unity.
And I urge those who may be participating in sin and immoral activities, to please seek forgiveness and repentance. The Lord is very forgiving and I believe as long as we’re all trying to be better, to walk in God’s word, to truly repent of our wickedness, then we will persevere and start living and loving the way Jesus Christ has taught us.
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