Demoralization: What Happens When We Feel Like Giving Up

Sometimes the world seems so dark – it almost feels hopeless…

I don’t write opinionated reflections a lot. Most of the time I try to give readers real videos, transcripts, documents about what was said by either those in charge of certain projects, or whistleblowers exposing plans, or testimonies from others who describe their experience that people need to be aware about.

While I do have my opinions and share them throughout my posts, I very rarely spend a whole post describing my emotions as I go through them.

However, admittedly, the disheartening news all around us can sometimes be overwhelming and the future extremely bleak, which casts a dark shadow of pointlessness to even pursuing these subjects any longer. Sometimes, knowing all of the atrocities going on around us, it’s easy to get lost amid a sea of hopelessness.

We see those responsible for heinous crimes constantly getting away with it, and not only that, celebrating vacations, weddings, and get-togethers with their cohorts and their ilk; while the rest of us remain under the oppressive regime of mandates, vaccine/mask narratives, and constant scrutiny if we show the littlest bit of hesitancy towards these agendas.

Seeing the people who should be behind bars living it up and able to travel freely on their private yachts and/or jets, while those simply trying to make an honest living are left either quitting their jobs/careers to refuse the vaccine mandate, or getting fired for refusing to comply – or they cave into the demands of the system and get the vaccine unwillingly to keep their job or just so that they can travel – which has ultimately sadly led to many unnecessary and tragic adverse events.

Seeing pictures of the “elite” group gathering around in large festivities and celebrations/meetings without any social distancing or masks to speak of, while the workers and camera crew catering to them are wearing masks. Clearly indicating that the “elites” are not worried about contracting ANYTHING, much less COVID, but yet they demand that the useless eaterstheir slaves… their employees wear a mask around them.

Seeing countless videos of politicians, celebrities, diplomatic leaders faking a vaccine, while encouraging, bribing and/or berating others to get it. Calling those who refuse to get it a “selfish fool” who doesn’t care about grandma.

Watching as hundreds and thousands of doctors, nurses, healthcare workers, scientists, etc. speak up against the vaccine – yet people are still refusing to listen to them, and instead continue to listen to the mainstream media and government funded doctors – like Anthony Fauci.

Seeing doctors and heads of the vaccine group (NIH, CDC, FDA, Pfizer, etc.) continuously lie to the public about the vaccine’s efficacy, or lack thereof, and the completely inane push to administer even more of the vaccine that didn’t work the first, second or third time around.

Learning about the terrible situation involving the suppression of Ivermectin – meanwhile hundreds of those in Congress are allegedly secretly getting treated with this medication – while those in charge of the coronavirus task force prevent its use in pharmacies worldwide and hospitals refuse to treat patients with it, at the same time the MSM continues to ridicule the concept by labeling it a “horsepaste”…

All of this outrageous deception and manipulation and utter clown show – within the span of less than 2 years – because a large group of people still can’t wake up to the obvious lies and endless dictatorship that’s edging ever closer to becoming a normality because people would rather continue to believe the lie and a modicum of comfort, compared to opening their eyes and seeing the huge, dystopian overhaul that tptsb have planned for us.

All of it is not only discouraging, it’s also downright depressing.

So sometimes I find myself sitting down in exhaustion, hard to find myself even moving because that would mean the reality around us is still in full effect, so by choosing to not move perhaps I can take myself out of this reality for a little bit and just exist without participating in the world that I have grown increasingly more disappointed in.

I just sit there, contemplating life, or even not thinking at all – wondering how no matter how much proof is around us, some people will still refuse to see it. It doesn’t mean it’s not there, it’s that people will refuse to connect the dots and insist that it’s just happenstance, a coincidence, nothing to be alarmed about, and so on and so forth. Their refusal to believe it doesn’t mean that it’s a ridiculous concept, but it’s more that they can’t handle it if they were to find out what the world is REALLY about, because it would mean their whole lives (all of ours) is one giant lie built on a foundation of horror and wickedness.

Or, they simply don’t care. They are so comfortable in the system, that to question it would upset their whole way of life and they rather enjoy living under governmental rule, because it allows someone else to think for them. They are indoctrinated into the system so badly that anyone resisting this type of regime is automatically seen as the “bad guy”. The plot to The Matrix playing out in real time.

So once in a while, I catch myself in utter despair, not wanting to continue on in my attempts at waking others up. They will either see the truth for what it is, or they will continue to ignore the “world” for what it really is. The Lord will call on those He chooses, while those who remain in the dark may forever be lost.

But then I remember how God did indeed call me out of this world. He led me to Him, because I was not the most pristine of followers – or a follower at all, at that point. I was a lost soul like so many others. I did not pray. I did not go to church. I did not read the Bible. As a matter of fact, I shunned the Bible. So to say that He literally called me out of this world would not be an exaggeration.

And who was there when I was questioning what was happening to me? When I went to search for an answer as to what these signs and synchronicities were, how did I finally find my answer that I wasn’t just a crazy person who heard God’s voice – but actually heard Him and He’s the one we are supposed to seek if we want to find Truth?

I found this out by other people, on their own journey, and reading/listening about their own testimonies, and their walk that brought them to the same conclusion. Even though they were at risk of ridicule, scorn, derision, etc., they still came forth to share their experiences on how they got called out of this world – perhaps on their own quest to also wake up others and help them when they choose to seek these answers out for themselves.

And so I am utterly grateful for these people who went against the grain and spoke up to help others who are on their own individual journey – those who may be slowly waking up out of this stupor created solely to keep us from seeking our true purpose – and it reminds me that even if people do not wake up NOW, then the trajectory that we are heading – with God at the helm, will indeed slowly but surely reach out to others, waking them up in their own time, until every single one of us experiences a conscious awakening – and we collectively realize who we really are and take the necessary steps to ensure a future of peace and happiness, instead of the chaos and panic that the “global elites” are trying to dictate upon the world.

I remind myself that I was as lost as many others not so long ago – and I wonder at how those who were already awake at the time felt about people like me. Perhaps growing frustrated that while they could see the evil overtaking the world, people like me at the time were still blissfully unaware in our own little bubble – happily going on about our own lives without a care in the world. Enjoying movies, hanging out with friends, gossiping, going to work, etc., etc., etc. Fully asleep, fully ignorant to the wickedness growing increasingly more brazen as time rolls on.

Perhaps this is part of the “plan”. As the depravity grows, those who are even deep asleep have no choice but to wake up, otherwise they are knowingly participating in the corruption and immorality that has been surrounding us and deceptively trying to get the population to be an active part of. Trying to normalize mandatory drugs/vaccines, transgenderism, transhumanism, pedophilia, critical race theory, satanism, abortions, genetically modifying everything – including humans, reverse aging by transfusing “young blood”, etc., etc., etc…

There is no doubt in my mind that evil has a stranglehold in the world. And time is running out for people to wake up. Perhaps this is why I sometimes have fear strike in my heart – seeing the amount of godlessness pervading practically every aspect of our society – but then I remember that God IS ultimately in control, and I remember my faith, and I remember how lost and clueless I was before waking up to this depravity, and I remember all of the people who have helped me along the way to make sense of our reality and who were awake for years and years and years before I was.

And all I can say is, thank GOD for them.

So when I feel like giving up, and find myself asking, “What’s the point?”, I remember God and all those who were awake long before I was, who had the patience and endurance to continue on, planting the seeds and graciously helping others who haven’t quite woken up out of the matrix yet. While they may have had similar feelings of hopelessness at points, their love for God and for humanity kept them going. I remember Jesus Christ, who literally spread the gospel of love and forgiveness, even up to the point of his persecution and death, by the very same people He was trying to save.

And so knowing all of this, there’s no way I can give up. While despair sometimes strikes, I am reminded of the many good people in the world, working hard to wake others and/or planting the seed for those who were lost but are now seeking the right path. I am reminded of my own shortcomings and my own dismissal of certain “conspiracy theories”, that after an honest look at it objectively, found myself to be completely in the wrong.

I take heart knowing that just because someone is lost now, that doesn’t mean that they aren’t on their own journey into waking up; and I take heart knowing that there are brave and caring souls speaking up on others behalf, helping to spread awareness to reach others.

And I am thankful for all of my readers, whether they have stumbled across here by accident, or are actively seeking the truth as well. You are a blessing, whether you realize it or not. We are all in this together, and try as the corrupt establishment might to demoralize us, I have faith in God and humanity’s will to persevere.

I love you all. God bless.

Is God calling out to you? | If not, are you SURE?

And if so, are you heeding His call?

“For many are called, but few are chosen.”
Matthew 22:14

For those of you who aren’t aware of The Parable of the Wedding Feast (Matthew 22:1-14), it gives the readers a tale of a king inviting people to a huge wedding banquet (meant to depict the Lord inviting people to the kingdom of Heaven) and while the people who were invited were called upon to attend, none of them responded. Some were even indignant at the servants who were trying to give them the message to attend; so much so that these incensed people even killed the messenger. Literally.

After finding none of the people who were invited worthy to attend the banquet, the king then had his servants call to anybody and everybody who was willing to attend, both the bad and the good, and see who graciously came.

So the hall was filled with guests, yet there was one man who did not have the proper attire (a metaphor for not attending the kingdom with a pure intention), and so he was cast out.

Now throughout my life, and I would surmise yours too, there have been random encounters with “messengers” who have tried to steer me in the direction of the Lord. Yes, it included several different religions, including but definitely not limited to: Jehovah’s Witness, Catholic Church, other different non-denominational and denominational factions, etc. There have even been individuals who have asked if they could pray over me, not under any certain religious motivation, just from an honest perspective of wanting to pray for someone in the name of the Lord.

And again, I wonder if the same applies to everyone at least once in their life. (Of course, implying when one grows up into teen/adulthood and can understand this concept –  not indicating babies and young children that won’t quite understand this subject matter.)

My point is, I think we’re ALL called, whether some people realize it or not. Perhaps some will be called by others doing their brotherly/sisterly duties as a fellow human being, wanting to give people the “good news” that the Lord saves. Perhaps the call will be more personal, like a “divine” encounter of some sort, or even a strange “coincidental” incident that would be too hard to explain logically. Maybe the call will be more prominent, like a near death experience that jolts people into realizing the true purpose of life.

Has any of the below “callings” happened to you?

Fellow Messengers:

There are many testimonies of people who have been called to Jesus Christ through other people. And this heartfelt ministering (even if caught completely off-guard in a twisted turn of events) can have a life-altering effect.

Take the events surrounding Denzil Moses, an ex-gang leader who, after attempting to hijack a car, ended up being ministered to by the driver of the car.

The driver of the car, even in the face of a dangerous criminal, was able to look past that and see him as a fellow human being. It was this compassionate view, instead of showing fear, and his trust and faith in Jesus Christ, that startled Denzil so much that he wanted to know who this person was and why he wasn’t afraid of a tough gang leader. The driver stated that he was a child of Christ, and that God loves Denzil – no matter who he is, and this compelled Denzil to pray with the driver to be forgiven and to turn to Christ; even while he was pointing a gun at the driver’s head.

After this moment, Denzil states that he was a changed man, and he now works to bring light and truth to the drug dealers and gang leaders/members in his community, to try and help them find God and walk away from the dark corruption they were living in.

Saved by the young messenger in the car, Denzil is now a messenger himself; calling out to more fellow people to follow the ways of Jesus Christ.

Divine Encounter

In Elaine’s testimony, she describes her spiritual beliefs and how hard it was for her to overcome the New Age teachings in order to fully embrace the teachings of Christ.

Throughout all of her doubts and questions, and even living with a Christian husband and children, it wasn’t until the Holy Spirit came upon her that she was able to finally put her alternative beliefs aside.

“And remember that New Agers think that the world is evolving to perfection? Well, I also started to realize that the world was not getting better. That it is, in fact, really broken for some reason. In contrast to the brokenness of this world and the people in it, I started to see that God’s nature is holy and I started to realize that no one else is like him except Jesus.

At this time, the Holy Spirit was also getting through to me that I am not perfect and my concepts of perfection are not God’s concepts. Nice and good are not the same thing.

In the winter of 2008, my husband had to do extensive business travel, coming home only on weekends. It was during this time that the Holy Spirit led me through some good Christian books, one specifically on forgiveness. I was finally recognizing my own sin and I felt incredibly convicted.

It was at the Holy Spirit’s urging, a pressing not from me, that I was able to let go of the last “stronghold” of my New Age belief system, which was my belief in reincarnation.

I think it’s very interesting how she mentions “at the Holy Spirit’s urging, a pressing not from me” – I definitely understand how this feels as a similar occurrence happened to me when I was younger. Without wanting to sound “insane”, it is a very jarring experience when you have a sudden thought that you know is not your own. The only thing I could conclude is that it was a different entity trying to get my attention.

Needless to say, it worked. And I’m glad it worked for Elaine and cemented her belief and acceptance of Jesus Christ.

Quiet Reflection

Who said a calling to God has to be a huge affair or with extraordinary pomp and circumstance?

It could be something from within; a small, still voice or urge from your conscience that leads you to the right path.

So from 22 onward, I had begun searching for answers.

At first, I tried man-made solutions. I investigated various ideologies and pursued numerous ideas but nothing seemed perfect. There always seemed to be at least one aspect of each one that I didn’t agree with.

I became hazily aware that I was leaving religion on the table until other options had been exhausted. I eventually became suspicious as to why my brain seemed to be avoiding the topic. So, one day I took a walk down to the Fulham Road to browse through a bookshop. There, I found a King James Bible. I flicked through it for maybe 20 minutes or half an hour, then put it back. I remembered this book from my childhood, when I had received a portion of it at school. I then put it back on the shelf and left.

THAT WAS IT. That was the biggest defining moment of my life. It doesn’t sound like much, does it? However, Jesus has had a profound influence on my life since then.

A few weeks later, I went back to purchase that Bible. I took it home and attempted to read it but it was hard-going. I decided to focus on keeping the Ten Commandments. So, began my walk with the Lord.

The Day I Turned to God: How my faith changed my life.

This is incredible because it came from an unknown prompt – something compelled him to look towards the Bible as the possible solution, even after deliberately putting the idea on the back-burner as a last resort. And after that seed was planted, it grew and blossomed into the good fruit that’s pleasing to the Lord. And what ultimately led him to his path with Christ.

A Call From God

Not sure if this is an actual story or just a parable, but a very amusing tale none-the-less:

One Saturday night, a pastor was working late and decided to call his wife before he left for home. It was about 10:00 PM, but his wife didn’t answer the phone. The pastor let it ring many times. He thought it was odd that she didn’t answer but decided to wrap up a few things and try again in a few minutes. When he tried again, she answered right away. He asked her why she hadn’t answered before, and she said that it hadn’t rung at their house. They brushed it off as a fluke and went on their merry ways.

The following Monday, the pastor received a call at the church office, which was the phone that he’d used that Saturday night. The man that he spoke with wanted to know why he’d called on Saturday night. The pastor couldn’t figure out what the man was talking about.

Then the man said, “It rang and rang, but I didn’t answer.”

The pastor remembered the mishap and apologized for disturbing him, explaining that he’d intended to call his wife.

The man said, “That’s okay. Let me tell you my story. You see, I was planning to commit suicide on Saturday night, but before I did, I prayed, ‘God if you’re there, and you don’t want me to do this, give me a sign now.’ At that point, my phone started to ring. I looked at the caller ID, and it said, ‘Almighty God’. I was afraid to answer!”

The church that the pastor attends is called Almighty God Tabernacle.

Multiple Callings

Sometimes (often?) God calls multiple times, in different ways.

David Sorenson writes in this post: My encounter with God… Amazing testimony! about his adoration, and then breakaway, from the Lord.

As a young child, he would often be found on his knees, praying to God, all by himself. He even ministered to his own mother, “You need to pray more.” At nine, he wanted to be a missionary and tell people all about God.

However, as he got older, hardships and turmoil began to take its toll on his love for God, and out of rebellion and a desire to be tougher than the environment around him, he turned to dark habits to fill the void in his life.

He relays how after one especially brutal encounter with a drug overdose, the panic reached him and, with his mother’s help, he was brought back to God.

This started a personal relationship with God, with actual audible callings from Him to lead David in how to serve the Lord. David was able to open himself to reject the harsh lifestyle he found himself in, and humble himself to accepting the Love and Forgiveness that Jesus Christ offers.

Glimpse of the Other Side

I have mentioned Howard Storm multiple times on this site, mostly because his near death experience is detailed and thorough, covering a lot of bases, and is also very enlightening and touching. His is a testimony worth repeating, with a lot of important insights into the human condition and spirit.

What starts out as an out of body experience after passing out from stomach perforation pain, Howard Storm soon finds himself following unfamiliar beings down a long, gray tunnel; which slowly turns into a harrowing, tortuous ordeal as Howard Storm realizes that he has been misled by terrible demonic creatures.

With nowhere left to turn, Howard hears a tiny voice within him telling him to “Pray to God”. Thus begins Howard Storm’s journey into really knowing and having a relationship with God. You can read about his incredible testimony here:

Howard Storm’s Near-Death Experience

or check out this video (I started the video at around 35 minutes in for a real pertinent part, but the whole video is relevant and emotionally stirring):

There are many more ways that the Lord calls out to us. In dreams/visions, a specific song or book – playing/displaying seemingly just for you, an answer to a prayer, random epiphany out of nowhere, etc.

Regardless of the method(s), my theory is that we’re ALL called at some point(s) in our life, and the question is, are we going to HEED this call, or ignore it?

Are we going to reply to God’s calling with, “Not now. Ask me later.” so that we can resume our life without guilt or shame and only respond when we’re “good and ready”? (If it’s not too late by then…) Are we going to reply at all?

Are we going to let “pride” win and harden our hearts to the belief that ‘there is no God’ and that whatever this “calling” is, is simply a coincidence and nothing significant behind it?

Lastly, if none of the above has ever applied to you: if you did not hear the voice of God calling out to you, if you have never had a near death experience or similar pointing you in the direction of Jesus Christ or God and Heaven, if you have never had a strange encounter or coincidence leading you to seek the kingdom of God, if you have never had someone individually ask to pray over you and ask you to respond with an open-heart to the possibility of Jesus Christ being the Way, the Truth, and the Life, then consider this post, me, calling out to you now and inviting you to be a part of Love and Compassion that Jesus Christ was trying to teach the world.

The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.
2 Peter 3:9

God does indeed love you and each and every one of us, and it is not His desire to see any of us perish. Which is why He has given us many chances to repent and turn away from sin. All we need to do is accept Him in our life and sincerely love Him and others – as was Jesus Christ’s last commandments:
“30 Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ 31 The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no commandment greater than these.”

This is the most important commandment because if we just followed these simple life rules, then we would not want to sin in our deeds or against our fellow people. And we would be able to raise our spiritual inclination and our vibration to reach that of Heaven; and hopefully bring others with us.

I have now, as a servant of God, officially called out to you to invite you to the kingdom of Heaven. Will you attend with a pure and humble heart? Or will you cast this message aside and resume your worldly life?

Love to you all, and I hope and pray that more and more people will heed His call.

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