Hello Dear Readers,
If you’ve been to this site before, then you might realize a big focus that I address is that Love is the most important thing in the universe. I talk about it a lot. And it’s actually really hard for me to talk about on a day like today, for instance.
By the way, Happy Thanksgiving.
I’m not sure how everybody else is, but before, when I was still in my bitter, pessimistic days, it used to be really hard for me to say “I love you.” I might have gotten this reluctance to say it from my Mother. Don’t get me wrong, I adored her and loved her. But I think because she rarely ever said it, it must have rubbed off on me and I patterned myself after her in that regard.
It wasn’t until September 2007, that for some reason, while driving my Mom to work, I felt compelled to tell my Mom that I love her. I don’t even know where this sudden feeling came from. It just occurred to me that I couldn’t remember the last time I said, “I love you” to anyone. She looked shocked, because I think she realized it too, and she said “I love you” back. There was a feeling of imminent foreshadowing in that moment, and I instantly knew that something was different.
I remember it was September of 2007 very specifically, because, maybe ironically, the very next month she was diagnosed with cancer. And the next month after that, on Thanksgiving Day, she passed away.
I remember feeling lost, confused, hurt… losing someone on Thanksgiving Day; a day where family is traditionally supposed to come together and unite in a “happy” feast and reunion, and giving thanks to God for His blessings and of bountiful harvests.
It was a bitter reminder to me that practically during my whole life, I was ungrateful and unappreciative of the people in my life – or at least, I didn’t show my appreciation. Perhaps on the inside I knew how blessed I really was, but instead I chose to remain in the negativity and resentment of whatever teenage and early twenties angst I was focusing on at the time.
For what reason?
In my mind, I felt that the world was a lost cause. I saw injustices and hatred everywhere I turned. Selfishness, greediness, uncaring, hateful souls… My heart was turning black, cold, becoming “hardened”. It wasn’t until an event a few years earlier did a light suddenly go off in me and I started changing my ways. But even then, it still took more divine interventions to change my heart into following God and Love.
And although I did blame God for a time for taking my Mother from me just when I started to realize how little I was appreciating the people in my life, did it finally occur to me that it was my fault. I had the choice to appreciate my loved ones from the beginning or not. I had the choice to just assume they knew how much I loved them even though I didn’t tell them that or show them. It was my choice to be cold and distant instead of warm and loving.
Thankfully, with what I believe to be God’s help, He didn’t give up on me and He continued to work on me. I was the lost cause in this story. But He still saved me. He showed me that “Love is the Answer”.
And my heart goes out to anyone who has gone through life without Love. Sadly, some grow up in a household or living conditions without Love shown to them. And this is absolutely heartbreaking. The thing is, even though it may not seem like it, you are still loved. There are many people that have love and compassion for every being on this planet. And although there are atheists that don’t believe in God and there are pagan worshippers, idolaters, etc., it is my belief that God/Jesus still loves them. Regardless if one believes in them or not.
The only thing Jesus asks of us, is that we love God, love each other and ourselves, as Jesus Himself loves us.
And here’s the thing. If we did that, then we wouldn’t be living with hatred, division, greed, etc. If we all loved each other like we should, all of us would be happy and care about each other. And we would appreciate each other and not take each other for granted.
This is the world that I envision. I can see it and I can feel it in my heart. But we need to work on ourselves and work on the Love we have within. No, we cannot expect others to change. We can hope, love and pray for them, but we do have control over our own lives and our own emotions. We have the power to allow ourselves to realize that Unconditional Love is the most important thing in the universe and to act upon that and put it in motion. Love others, love your enemies, love everyone… and that will change the world.
Now, I’d like to say that I learned my lesson. I catch myself saying “I love you” to my son often. Not out of mindless habit, but simply because the love I feel for him is so overwhelming and I truly want him to know that I love him dearly. I say “I love you” to my friends and other members of my family. I say “I love you” to animals. I pray to God/Jesus and the Heavenly host and thank them all and tell them that I love them. I love the world and the beauty that it holds.
And on that note, I love you all, and I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving. If I may ask of you anything, it is to simply love others, and be thankful and show appreciation for the ones you have in your life. Don’t wait until it’s too late.
Love and blessings to you all.