Genesis 1: The Beginning

Earnest Examination

To start, I’ve realized that I have never read the Bible front to back, and so would like to remedy that. On some of my posts, I quote from the Bible, which I feel is a little insincere if I’m not going to study the whole Bible. So this is my chance to get closer to the Word and really understand the book that I occasionally quote from.
Originally, I was going to start with the New Testament as a friend has advised me to do, since when I started on the Old Testament I kept getting hung up on what I saw at the time were contradictions, and baseless wickedness and corruption. It repelled me from the Bible. She mentioned that that is exactly why Jesus Christ came. To do away with the “old” ways and bring about a new, better way of living. Which is to love and care about one another. The reason the Old Testament is so important is so that we know the conditions of how the world used to be, before Jesus Christ arrived to show us a more peaceful and loving way to be.
Now that I feel I may have a better understanding of this, I am compelled to start from “The Beginning“, both literally and figuratively. After having attempted Matthew 3, I realize that I am constantly having the urge to go back through the Bible to check references and names, etc. Since my desire is to take this one step at a time and build upon the knowledge based upon the timeline laid out before us in the Bible, I have decided to revisit the time I tried to read the Bible front to back, and see if my old views still stand.
Make no mistake, I will still have questions and ponderings about why God decided to do the things He’s done (and of course more questions on top of that), but I have learned not to condemn or judge such actions since I do feel some things are beyond our understandings and it is not my place to judge. I will try my best to look at it from an unbiased and simply curious, thoughtful mind.

To lay it out in a way that I can manage, I have highlighted the texts of verses that I either don’t understand or have a comment or question about in yellow. And the comments I’ve left beneath it will be of a smaller font and using brown text.

I would love it if you’d join me in this journey and if you have any insights and/or knowledge of these chapters/verses etc., please feel free to share with me and the other readers. Any chance to get a clearer understanding of the Bible and Jesus Christ would be welcomed with open arms.

All verses used are from (NIV) Genesis 1

The Beginning

1 In the beginning God created the heavens (I noticed this is plural – upon investigating realized that the Bible describes 3 different heavens, but on this particular verse, it seems to imply that it is used to describe “sky”, not “The Heaven” in which the angels/God/Heavenly hosts reside in. Which begs the questions, did God create The Heavens as well, or is it a construct that we as physical beings can’t quite comprehend?) and the earth.
2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.
3 And God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light.

In my mind, this is obviously alluding to the sun. However, when reading a few more verses beneath this one, verse 16, it clearly seems to depict the makings of the sun and the moon (the greater light to govern the day, and the lesser light to govern the night) on the fourth day, so my obvious conclusion is incorrect. So what was this “light”?
4 God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness.
Now here we can see the deliberate separation of the light from the darkness. It reminds me of the allegory of the candle that I read somewhere. I can’t remember where, but if I come across it I will give credit to where it’s due. But it mentions that you can put light into a dark room, such as using a candle, lamp, light bulb, etc., but you can’t put darkness into a room that’s already lit. It was meant to signify the spiritual side of things. I might have heard this allegory from a near death experience, where I believe someone mentioned that when they were initially heading towards hell or the darkness, they could see a pinpoint of light that was coming towards him and it radiated through the darkness and reached him. Then he mentioned that it was impossible for the darkness to be allowed into the light because the light would just completely engulf it. Darkness simply can’t exist in the light. So if one’s heart or soul is completely dark and cold, there’s no way it could get to Heaven. But as long as there’s light within, you can shine even in the darkness and go to Heaven.
I liked this rendition and it has stuck with me ever since I read it.
Now with this verse, it doesn’t seem to have spiritual connotations, but it makes sense physically and scientifically when thinking about the candle story. If there was light, there wouldn’t be darkness. So God made the means to separate the two.

5 God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day.
So since God has not made the sun yet, I can only surmise that this light was, as of yet, an un-contained amount of energy that simply obeyed God’s will.
6 And God said, “Let there be a vault between the waters to separate water from water.”
7 So God made the vault and separated the water under the vault from the water above it. And it was so.

8 God called the vault “sky.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the second day.
Okay, I’m just going to say it. I am very confused. Here is another reason why I was so reluctant to read the Bible, because there are so many different versions, so many different translations, and even with the slightest change could end up with a completely different result or meaning.
Take these verses, for instance. I remember reading that it wasn’t a “vault”, but a “firmament”; which, okay, very slight difference and of no real significance. They mean the same thing, right? I am okay with that. However, in verse 8, I remember it specifically saying “heaven” and not “sky”. And yes, we’ve already covered that there are 3 different types of “heavens”, so that doesn’t quite phase me either. What does absolutely confuse me, though, is that when looking at the KJV, the verse is this: “And God called the firmament Heaven.”
This is a huge difference to me because not only is the word “Heaven” capitalized, but it is also singular. Then, when looking at the very first verse of the KJV, it states this, “In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth.” In this sentence, “heaven” is not plural or capitalized. Then, to make matters even worse, when looking at a 1980’s NKJV book that was passed down from my family, the first verse is a lower case “heavens”, yet verse 8 writes “Heaven”. What am I to make with all these differences? To me, they aren’t just slight, insignificant differences. They are large ones that can give a completely new meaning depending on how one looks at it.
For that matter, how do we know which translation is the most correct? Other than actually learning Hebrew, Greek, and Aramaic and studying the very first original documentations of the Bible, not to mention the other languages that could benefit from these ancient writings?
(I will leave this particular rant here, because I am sure there’s more to come.)
Getting back to the separation of water from water, I have gathered that to mean the clouds/sky/”heaven”, from the waters of the Earth.

9 And God said, “Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear.” And it was so.
10 God called the dry ground “land,” and the gathered waters he called “seas.” And God saw that it was good.
11 Then God said, “Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds.” And it was so.
12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.
13 And there was evening, and there was morning—the third day.

14 And God said, “Let there be lights in the vault of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark sacred times, and days and years,
15 and let them be lights in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth.” And it was so.
16 God made two great lights—the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars.

So here we see the creations of the sun, moon and stars, perhaps the constellations as well, but does this include the other planets? The other galaxies? After all, the motion of the planets have helped people determine special days and times, along with solar and lunar cycles, so I would surmise that these were created as well. The Bible also alludes to some significance in regards to the planetary alignments and of course the “morning star”, which has been considered as Venus on numerous occasions.
17 God set them in the vault of the sky to give light on the earth,
18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good.
19 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fourth day.

20 And God said, “Let the water teem with living creatures, and let birds fly above the earth across the vault of the sky.”
21 So God created the great creatures of the sea and every living thing with which the water teems and that moves about in it, according to their kinds, and every winged bird according to its kind. And God saw that it was good.
22 God blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and increase in number and fill the water in the seas, and let the birds increase on the earth.”
23 And there was evening, and there was morning—the fifth day.
24 And God said, “Let the land produce living creatures according to their kinds: the livestock, the creatures that move along the ground, and the wild animals, each according to its kind.” And it was so.

25 God made the wild animals according to their kinds, the livestock according to their kinds, and all the creatures that move along the ground according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good.
I want to mention, these verses as well as verse 21 mentions “kind(s)” numerous times. Enough times to make it quite significant. Why would these verses be so specific in this regard? Perhaps it’s because these verses attempt to drive home the importance of not interbreeding these species and instead let natural reproduction occur. As we know in today’s time (and, to be honest, who knows how long it’s been going on for) the practice of interbreeding and hybridization has been on the increase and there are many attempts at cross-breeding and dna-altering, genetic manipulation, etc., etc. going on. Quite so that it’s actually pretty terrifying. I think these verses were specifically referring to let each kind be it’s kind, and to interfere with that could lead to unexpected consequences.
26 Then God said, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
This is a very interesting verse to me.
For one, who was God speaking to?
“Let us”
(Who else? Who’s “us”?)
“in our image”
“in our likeness”
This would imply that there are others that are of God’s image as well. Not just God Himself, or humankind, apparently, but other beings. Are these the angels? Separate Heavenly host members? A kind of “counsel”, if you will? Surely He did not mean “other gods”, correct?
Secondly, who actually wrote Genesis? Many Bible scholars attribute Genesis to being written by Moses, perhaps under divine revelation. But this has not been confirmed. Only speculated and theorized upon. So no one really knows for sure.

27 So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.
I won’t quite get into this verse just yet, since I know the particular issue I want to raise stems from Genesis 6, but wanted to point out the dichotomy between the male/female human being. Angels themselves, at least biblically, are more often than not considered to be of a masculine form.
28 God blessed them and said to them, “Be fruitful and increase in number; fill the earth and subdue it. Rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky and over every living creature that moves on the ground.”
This verse makes me sad because it sets up the world to be a blissful utopia in which humankind and animalkind can live side by side in peace and harmony, yet before even the first human child is to be born (Cain), that perfect world has been tainted. Even though at that time animals were still peaceful, the fact that from the very beginning, “we” lived in sin, makes my heart sad.
29 Then God said, “I give you every seed-bearing plant on the face of the whole earth and every tree that has fruit with seed in it. They will be yours for food.
30 And to all the beasts of the earth and all the birds in the sky and all the creatures that move along the ground—everything that has the breath of life in it—I give every green plant for food.” And it was so.

This verse and the one above it implies that at this time there were no carnivorous beings. Yes, humans had dominion over the animals, but there is nothing to implicate that they were given to us for food. But verse 29 specifically mentions that all plants and fruits are given to us for food. And then in verse 30, all green plants are given to animals to eat. There is no mention that animals or humans are to eat one another.
31 God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning—the sixth day.
“God saw all that he had made, and it was very good.” – I have to repeat that line because as most of us know, the drama that enfolds on the following pages shows us the dark turn that the world gets thrusted in due to certain specific decisions of God’s creations. Now, while I love God’s creations, and it is due to the actions of a small handful of characters that pivots us into a world of chaos, I must still admit that my understanding of His sovereign plan is out of my reach. Thankfully, I have the faith and trust in the Lord to see me through, and I am, as always, searching for the Truth.

That concludes the first chapter of Genesis, and I am interested to see what my reaction will be when I finally get to the chapter that initially made me give up on the Old Testament. (I didn’t even finish Genesis originally…)

But now that I have a more patient outlook and understanding of what I’m reading, I feel more encouraged and determined to gain further insights and knowledge into the Holy Bible.

And again, if you have further revelations/knowledge about this chapter, please feel free to share. I enjoy bouncing off theories and theology off of each other. Thank you for reading and I look forward to hearing from you!

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Earnest Examination

Genesis 12: The Call of Abram - Earnest Examination
Genesis 11: The Tower of Babel - Earnest Examination
Genesis 10: The Table of Nations - Earnest Examination
Genesis 8: Noah’s Deliverance - Earnest Examination
Genesis 7: The Flood Begins - Earnest Examination
Genesis 6: Wickedness in the World - Earnest Examination
Genesis 5: From Adam to Noah - Earnest Examination
Genesis 4: Cain and Abel - Earnest Examination
Genesis 3: The Fall Genesis 3: The Fall - Earnest Examination

The Time to Choose God is NOW

If you’re on the fence on what to believe, then believe this: we need kindness and compassion more than anything. The best way to get there is to pray to God and believe in Jesus Christ.

With the unclear direction of where the world is headed, no matter who is elected as the next president, I have to voice my sentiment on what we should ultimately look to rather than stressing about which side (left / right) is going to win. I know there are others in the world outside of the US watching the elections as well, and this pertains to EVERYONE, not just the United States.

As the title of this post says, we need to look to God / Jesus Christ instead of man to save us.

This whole dichotomy of choosing between two (probably equally corrupt) politicians to decide the fate of the States and its relations to other countries for the next 4 years, seems, to be honest, an arbitrarily useless endeavor.

We the people are subject between basically choosing two (seemingly) opposing factions that we don’t necessarily have control over anyway. Can we rise up and elect who we want as our candidates for president? Or is it already predetermined by the “powers that shouldn’t be”? Ultimately, it seems, we get the illusion of being able to choose our own president.

Now, with that being said, and with my belief that most politicians are corrupt (not all, because I honestly believe there are those fighting the good fight and are sincerely trying their best to do what’s right for the people – then there are those who genuinely think they are doing what’s best but are sadly misled by their parties) I have to bring people back to what really matters.

That is love, unity, compassion, understanding, tolerance, sympathy… these are so lacking in the world today and we have become so distracted by this division and by hate, contempt, derision for each other… one would think that we have reverted back to our primal instincts to just loot and plunder and cause chaos and destruction if things don’t go our way. I know we are better than that.

But yet, for some reason, we still see so much hostility and separation when we should be working together. If there is a disagreement, some will resort to baseless name calling and vitriolic responses instead of even trying to be understanding of other’s opinions and differences. Where did the love go? Where did human decency go? Is it because being faceless behind the computer screen gives us the safety net of being more cruel than we would in real life? If that’s the case, how does that explain the people confronting others face to face with so much scorn and bitterness? Do people really have so much hatred and anger towards their fellow man?

It makes you wonder what kind of lifestyle and childhood they must have had. Sadly, there are people that push separation and bigotry onto their children (and onto other people’s children, as some schools and educators/establishments have been accused of). So it’s no wonder that some will grow into those ideologies as they get older.

So how do we get past this? How do we learn to love one another when we can’t even accept others and their differing opinions? More importantly, why does it seem as if certain factions are deadset into turning us against each other?

Some may not believe this is actually happening, but if one were to really open their eyes, they would see this in abundance not just in the US, but in other countries as well. And as I’m sure some people are aware of now, even the big tech companies are working on dividing and censoring those with dissenting opinions.

And we have to ask ourselves, “Why?” What is their purpose? Why silence certain people who have these different opinions? It’s almost as if they don’t want people to persuade others with their beliefs. Again… why would big tech companies be so worried about this? To have a platform for others to speak on and connect, it seems as if there is an underlying agenda to silence certain people who have an opinion that they don’t agree with. Again, one has to question their motive.

Now for me, personally, I make no bones about being a pro-life supporter. So you must understand how it took me by such surprise to learn that a pro-life activist group:, as well as other Christian terms, was censored on Pinterest – being labeled as “brand unsafe”.

Project Veritas: Whistleblower Says Pinterest Censored Pro-Life Site as ‘Pornography’

Their reason for banning from their platform was this excuse:

The Pinterest insider explained that the company removes conspiratorial content that they deem to be “harmful” from the platform.

So… in the same context, are we to assume that Bible verses are “conspiratorial content” that is “harmful” to the platform also? Or is there a different reason for that purpose?

This isn’t the only group seemingly attacking Christianity. As I wrote on “Mysteries at Cern”, we can see how Air Force Maj. Steve Lewis was attacked for having an open Bible on his desk.

God forbid (no pun intended) that a man shows his love for Christ and tries to walk in His footsteps. Those footsteps, by the way, who tried to show us to love God and our neighbors as Jesus Christ Himself loved us. We wouldn’t want people developing compassion and unconditional love for our fellow man now, would we…

And apparently one airman was so distraught over this biblical display, that he even took a picture of the Bible pages that were opened on the desk, with some claiming that the Bible pages never change. Let’s see how horrific this obvious agenda to brainwash the other airmen is (these are the highlighted verses of the pages) :

7 But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. 8 What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ 9 and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith.
Philippians 3:7-9
8 Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable--if anything is excellent or praiseworthy--think about such things.
Philippians 4:8
11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do everything through him who gives me strength.
Philippians 4:11-13
Open Bible that was seen on Air Force Maj. Steve Lewis' desk.

Huh… it seems to me as if these verses just really appeal to Maj. Steve Lewis and he perhaps uses them as a reminder to stay true to his humanity and to remain humble in the Lord. Some could liken it to the “Hang in there.” kitty poster that was all the rage back in the day (maybe still is) to get one through the day. Or how about when one displays photos of their family around to lift their spirits up during a long and stressful work day?

But no. I guess since it is such a front to Michael Weinstein and the alleged 33 airmen who complained, that he had to call Steve Lewis out and demand him to put his Bible away, decrying it as a public display of defiance and an agenda to infiltrate the minds of these young recruits. Even though the institution of the MRFF is supposedly about religious freedom to begin with. At least, if we can trust the foundation’s name. (Which, if this proves anything, we can’t.)

(Again, my opinion. Are we not allowed to state our opinions anymore? Am I dishing out “hate speech”? Am I encouraging violence? Am I writing about “conspiratorial content”? Or simply a person who sees through unnecessary condemnation and voicing my disagreement into these institutions’ actions?)

And yes, some may argue that if Steve Lewis is allowed to display the Bible on his desk, then aren’t people who are into satanism (which, please, research into this further instead of believing the sugar-coated belief that satanism is not about satan at all…) or paganism, voodoo, etc. allowed to display their beliefs in the same manner? For that I say, it has already been happening. And, unironically, they seem to be getting much more freedom to their displays than the Christians, with the military even endorsing and encouraging it:

Just a couple of sites depicting some of the going-ons into the military institution:

The Satanic Subversion of the United States Military –
The Air Force is Full of Satanists, Rapists & Child Molesters –

And we have so many more examples of infiltration of the satanic influences surrounding us, that I believe a lot of us have just become immune to it or desensitized.

Here is Blucifer, for one:

Blucifer, standing outside the Denver International Airport

And of course you can’t mention Blucifer without bringing up all the interesting murals of the Denver International Airport.

This article shows some as well as some other interesting facts about this strange building:

Sadly, signs of “illuminati”, satanism, freemasons, etc. are everywhere. They’ve been in our children’s cartoons/shows/video games/toys, all over the place in the media in general, and has only gotten even more bold as people continue to dismiss these coincidences as just a joke, or a mocking derision for “conspiracy theorists”.

But forgive me if I don’t think Bill Gates being friends and/or partners with Jeffrey Epstein and Marina Abramovic is “funny”. Forgive me if I don’t think his funding to organizations such as Planned Parenthood and the WHO is “funny”. Forgive me if I don’t find the names of these patents and its “ingredients” as “funny”: Luciferase/Luciferin / WO 2020 060606/HR 6666

Forgive me if I don’t think the fact that the one person practically demanding the whole world to get a mandatory vaccine otherwise they won’t be able to travel, work, etc., etc. and who has been accused of heinous crimes against humanity:

‘A Mass Sterilization Exercise’: Kenyan Doctors Find Anti-Fertility Agent in UN Tetanus Vaccines
List of crimes Bill Gates has been accused of: Bill Gates Crimes Against Humanity

is “funny”.

Forgive me (if all of this is true, of course) that I don’t find the following information “funny” in the slightest:

Bill Gates Funds Pharmaceutical Companies Using Aborted Baby Parts to Make Coronavirus Vaccines
Pentagon Vaccine to Kill Religious Center of Brain

There is also an artitcle floating about titled: “They’ve Killed God; I Can’t Feel God, My Soul is Dead“; however, all of the sources for this article can be traced to this website which the information has yet to be verified. If this information is true, it adds an even darker spin to this sordid agenda.

We also have these interesting and laughable coincidences, right? Devil Companies, Devil Products, Devil Logos?

Yep. It’s SO funny how the main, major evil character from the Bible, who was deadset against God and humanity and everything that Jesus stood for, seems to be the main inspiration behind the major corporations running the world. Hilarious.

And if we think that’s bad enough… no. It gets worse.

You see, the satanists and luciferians have also infiltrated the Vatican. My opinion? Or is it fact? Well, just take a look at some of the below pictures and let me know what you think.

The Vatican Hall undeniably resembles the face of a snake.
Personal opinion that this is an incredibly unholy statue.

They also, apparently, have no problems placing a statue of Molech (or Moloch – known for child sacrifices) in front of the Colosseum entrance to “greet” visitors. The Vatican Places Giant Statue of Molech at Colosseum Entrance

Statue at colosseum, which people allege was placed by the Vatican.

No, people, I don’t think these “coincidences” and “pranks” are funny at all. In fact, I think these are all signs trying to warn us to get prepared and decide which side we’re on. If you’re an atheist, then I would suggest you re-read and research all of this until it hits you squarely in the face.

Why is all of this happening? Well, one reason could be that EVERYTHING in the Bible is TRUE, and that these immoral civilizations never stopped their idolatry and corruption or their hate of Jesus Christ. And now with things already in the open anyway, they have become even more brazen in their blatant worship and depraved behavior since they realize that some people will STILL NOT BELIEVE IT.

I believe in God. And I believe in Jesus Christ. I know who wins in the end, and anyone who’s read the Bible knows this as well. The people that are trying to usher this darkness in knows this too, and still remain on the losing side. They are the ones whose hearts have grown cold. If this is all they’ve known and done all these years is carry on the wicked traditions of their ancestors, and still don’t heed the call of Jesus Christ to repent, then they will answer to His judgement.

If you feel, even the tiniest inkling that you are on the wrong side, then please pray and ask for forgiveness and repent, and ask for His guidance. God and Jesus loves everyone, and it is His will that none shall perish. But if you continue not believing and not loving and still remain in the wicked lifestyle, then you will be cast out. Unholiness cannot enter in Heaven. We are not expected to be perfect. But I believe that all Jesus asks of us is that we try our best to be kind, loving, compassionate human beings. Love one another as He has loved us. Believe in Him and have faith. If we do this, then we will not want to sin anymore and we will want to be holy and do things that honor Him and each other.

The Lord is merciful and He only wants His lost sheep back. Is our desire for self-gratification and greed so consuming that we would give up ever-lasting life for just a few years on Earth? Why would a being solely asking for humanity to be forgiving and loving be held with such hostility from those who wish to remain in their sordid immorality? Are you okay throwing away 20,30,40…80 years just to be told that you did not earn your way into Heaven?

The good news is that it’s not too late.

We’re still here. But the time to start is NOW. We don’t know when the last days will be upon us. But as long as we’re breathing and have this physical life, we have a chance to turn from the darkness and seek the light.

32 But about that day or hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.
Mark 13:32

I pray for the whole world and hope more and more people will choose God and Love instead of following the “worldly” path. I hope you will too.

Fact checking is extremely important. I want to reiterate not to take everything at face value; no matter what you read, where you read it from, or who you hear it from. And to be clear, do not rely on “fact checking” websites to give you accurate information either. These are just as likely, (if not even more likely…), to feed false information and false debunking accounts to manipulate the reader. Please take everything into consideration before adhering to a certain narrative – and always keep your mind open to other possibilities.

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Forgiveness is Key

But are there some sins that are “unforgivable”?

Let me start off, point blank, that to be completely honest, there’s just some people that I don’t want to forgive.

I know in the bible, the one unpardonable sin is to blaspheme against the Holy Spirit.

But on a personal level, I’ve forgiven absolutely everyone in my life; even if they didn’t ask, even if they don’t know, even if they hurt me deeply – I’ve forgiven them all.

But there’s just one class of people that I’m having an extremely hard time forgiving:

Those that abuse children.

Physically abuse. Mentally. Sexually. Verbally. It doesn’t matter which one. (Of course some are more deplorable than others…)

It takes SO much out of me to come to terms that they need forgiveness too. But it’s quite possibly the hardest thing for me to do. And sometimes I can’t even come to terms with it. But let me tell you a story (a true story) on why I think forgiveness is absolutely necessary in order to break out of this corrupted society.

If you’ve read my testimony then you’ll see that I’ve had some interesting experiences in my life that I couldn’t explain. (And this testimony didn’t even cover all of them.)

One of them pertains to this very subject. I feel as if it is so important, but it’s so hard for me to do, even 10 years after the event happened.

To excerpt that part of the testimony, I will put it here:

Well, I was lying in bed and I had just woken up. As in, my mind woke up. I was still laying peacefully in bed, my eyelids haven’t even had a chance to open. Well, out of nowhere (in my head?) I heard this voice speaking to me.

Now, I know what dreams are. (Well, not REALLY, but I AM familiar with them. Written down 2,000+.. not to mention the many, MANY dreams I haven’t written down.) I am also familiar with hypnagogic/hypnopompic hallucinations and have experienced several different dream states (lucid dreams/OBEs/false awakenings/consciously entered a dream, etc.).

THIS didn’t seem like a dream to me. Again, I was very conscious. But before I could even open my eyes, I heard the voice. Clearly a male voice. It couldn’t have been my own thoughts in my head. I could also feel vibrations along with his voice. (I’m also familiar with the vibrations when trying to induce OBEs/lucid dreams. Had a few, but not nearly as many as I’d like.) And this event was very clear, concise, and not hallucinatory at all.

Anyway, this voice was asking me a very specific question(s). He was asking me if I could forgive *insert name here*. Some of these people I knew, and some I didn’t (at least, I don’t believe I did..). Each name that the voice gave me, I automatically knew insights into them. As to what they have done – the sins they committed, what kind of person they were. I responded each time with my answer. Some I would forgive, some I wouldn’t. I had to contemplate on a couple.

Well, here’s the interesting part. Each time I replied with a forgiving answer, I would feel the vibrations getting stronger. When I wouldn’t forgive the person, the vibrations would fade away. Each time this happened. I would forgive a person, the vibrations would come back, and grow stronger with each forgiving answer. If I felt like ‘no, I wouldn’t forgive them’ these vibrations would fade, get weaker. He must have asked me at least 5 or 6 different people, and my answers were about 2/3 in favor of forgiveness. Maybe even half.

Finally after the last person, the voice diminished/faded as well as the vibrations. My last answer must have been a negative. I realized after this experience that I was supposed to answer with all forgiveness. NO MATTER WHAT. It seems so inconceivable to me to forgive a murderer, rapist, etc. It’s against human morals, right? But this “test”, I call it, clearly wanted my answers to be all forgiving.

For some reason, I was being tested. This voice, whoever it was, seemed to be monitoring my answers and showing me, through vibrations, what path I was supposed to take.

I’ve had to research further into what these vibrations mean. I mean, I don’t need scientific evidence to back all these claims up. I figure a multitude of people’s testimony is sufficient enough for me, especially when I’ve experienced first-hand similar things. So up until my research into vibrations, I figured it was only a prelude to lucid dreams/OBEs. It’s what our spirit bodies experience when exitting our physical one. Seemed plausible enough to me. But when reading more into it, come to realize that the higher vibration you are, the more spiritually sound you are. (Metaphysically speaking.)

We should be striving for the highest vibration there is. Which essentially means bettering ourselves in our lifetime(s). Not with physical/materialistic needs. But how we treat each other, how forgiving we are.

Now I cannot say for certain who this entity/voice belonged to. I’m not going to come right out and say, “It’s Jesus!” or “It’s God!” or “It’s Elvis Presley coming back to give me a message beyond the grave!” Because I honestly don’t know. I didn’t have any visual experiences with this. Only auditory and vibrations.

I liken the being to the Holy Spirit, perhaps; but again, I cannot say for certain.

Now, I realize I may receive some push back from this, with people declaring, “Well, you didn’t test this spirit. You didn’t ask if it came in Jesus’s name.”

And you’re right. I didn’t. Forgive me, (no pun intended) but I literally had just woken up and hadn’t had coffee yet, so I hope you can understand.

But I did think about that afterwards. And the only other recourse I could’ve taken, was to compare my experience with the Bible. (That’s if I even wanted to explain it biblically.)

Agnostic Childhood

And I want to mention, I didn’t grow up in a typical Christian household. We never really went to church, never really prayed, I think we gave a blessing at meal times sometimes, but when America slowly started to remove God/Jesus from the schools and the “normal” way of life, we, too stopped our meal time prayers.

My parents never urged us to read the Bible, never talked about God/Jesus (as a matter of fact, I was the one who had to breach that subject with my Mom – and even then, she was on the fence with her beliefs), so my experiences left me somewhat dumb-founded that I would have these.

I was also the type of person who, in my youth, was very bitter and angry – all the time. I didn’t know where all this animosity was coming from, but I could literally feel myself hating society with every fiber in my being. I hated how unjust it was, I hated the corruption, I hated the selfishness and greed that I saw. I hated it all. I was slowly but surely becoming a very violent person.

But with a few unexplainable experiences, coupled with the one I described above, I had to come to terms that there was something MORE to this universe. Beyond the physical, beyond the material, beyond what our eyes can see. And because of the experience above, and the one I had in 2014 where again, a voice (different this time) told me that Love is the reason we’re here, I went looking for it.

Bible References

At first, my research into this phenomena that happened to me didn’t even start with the Bible. I didn’t know where to begin.

After I had the “vibration” experience, I looked a little into it and concluded that it must have something to do with positive/higher energy. Something was testing me to guide me into being more forgiving. Since I wasn’t too into the metaphysical at that time, I tucked it away into my soul and dwelled on it inwardly at times. (Now, it absolutely overwhelms me – not necessarily in a bad way, but in an “Uh oh… they gave me clear instructions on what to do on this planet, and I’m not doing it. I should hop to it.” kind of urgent way.)

And then, when I had the “Love” experience in 2014, I realized, “Wow, something is really trying to drive this point home. First it was “forgiveness” and now it’s “love”. I should pay attention.”

And this is what sent me on a hyper-drive to research what was going on. Which eventually led me to the Bible, to Jesus Christ, and to near death experiences. It led me to these hard-hitting verses that really caused me to wake up and realize that there’s definitely something more going on in the world than meets the eye:

Calling / Choosing

9 But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 10 Once you were not a people, but now you are the people of God; once you had not received mercy, but now you have received mercy.
1 Peter 2:9-10
16 You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. 17 This is my command: Love each other. 18 “If the world hates you, keep in mind that it hated me first. 19 If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.
John 15:16-19
He has saved us and called us to a holy life — not because of anything we have done but because of his own purpose and grace. This grace was given us in Christ Jesus before the beginning of time, but it has now been revealed through the appearing of our Savior, Christ Jesus, who has destroyed death and has brought life and immortality to light through the gospel.
2 Timothy 1:10
26 Brothers and sisters, think of what you were when you were called. Not many of you were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. 27 But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28 God chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29 so that no one may boast before him. 30 It is because of him that you are in Christ Jesus, who has become for us wisdom from God—that is, our righteousness, holiness and redemption. 31 Therefore, as it is written: “Let the one who boasts boast in the Lord.”
1 Corinthians 1:26-31


9 “As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. 10 If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. 11 I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. 12 My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you.
John 15:9-12
1 If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. 3 If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
1 Corinthians 13:1-3
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:4-8
16 So we have come to know and to believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God abides in him.
1 John 4:16


Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.
Ephesians 4:6
7 Let the wicked forsake their ways and the unrighteous their thoughts. Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them, and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
Isaiah 55:7
Then Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”
Luke 23:34
13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.
Colossians 3:13
14 If my people, who are called by my name, will humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and I will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
2 Chronicles 7:14

From just these verses (there is plenty more in the Bible), not only does it speak of asking for forgiveness from God, but it also tells us to forgive each other. So I believe my experience was biblically sound. You never hear of demons/the devil asking people to be forgiving. Or to love, for that matter.

But can we truly love someone, unconditionally, if we don’t forgive them of their actions first? Can we love like Jesus does, if we don’t first adhere to the forgive/mercy rule?

My struggle is against child abuses. I can forgive just about everyone on this planet for any number of horrible atrocities, but this one… I can only pray about it.

Children are the most innocent, vulnerable, helpless people on the planet. They look up to parents, adults, authority figures, for protection and leadership. But what happens when these “leaders” are pushing for something so obscene, so immoral and heinous, that it goes against the very core of human beings all over the planet?

I’m sorry to say, but this is a very real dilemma that we’re facing. I will not provide links, but if you wish to look into it, be warned, it’s very disturbing (but we NEED to know about it in order to protect our children) just look up “Monica Cline Planned Parenthood” / “World Health Organization 0-4” / “California sex ed”. These are just some examples of the sick, twisted, absolutely corrupted view that they’re trying to push on people and on our children.

THIS, is what I have a hard time forgiving. These depraved, perverted, wicked individuals are trying to normalize pedophilia and get our children (WHO CAN’T EVEN TALK YET!) to participate in these activities. To say that I am disgusted and shocked that it’s even gotten this far is a HUGE understatement.

1 Jesus said to his disciples: “Things that cause people to stumble are bound to come, but woe to anyone through whom they come. 2 It would be better for them to be thrown into the sea with a millstone tied around their neck than to cause one of these little ones to stumble. 3 So watch yourselves.
Luke 17:1-3

Am I justified in my opinion of this matter? Every core in my being rejects the notion of wanting to forgive this CRIME AGAINST HUMANITY, because that’s what it is.

Sometimes though, I get this little voice in the back of my head saying, “What if those that are creating these laws were corrupted the very same way from birth? What if they never knew a true, unconditional, innocent childhood? They would be twisted and corrupted from the very beginning. And in their blindness, might try to push the same ideology on other people.”

It breaks my heart. It breaks my heart that a person can be so immoral and warped to subject a poor, defenseless child in this manner. And it does evoke in me a compassion for their soul and being and the possible “lifestyle” they must have had. Both for the perpetrator and the victim. I think, what if the perpetrator was subjected to this atrocity in the same manner? What if that’s why they have this unnatural view of the world?

Live in Light, Love and Forgiveness

17 So I tell you this, and insist on it in the Lord, that you must no longer live as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their thinking. 18 They are darkened in their understanding and separated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them due to the hardening of their hearts. 19 Having lost all sensitivity, they have given themselves over to sensuality so as to indulge in every kind of impurity, and they are full of greed.

20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned 21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.
Ephesians 4:17-24

Yes, I think forgiveness is key. I think prayer is another huge focus. Because I honestly cannot come to the holy decision to forgive these nefarious people on my own. I pray to God, to Jesus, to the Holy Spirit to not only help me come to terms with this difficulty, but I pray for their soul as well that they see the depravity and wickedness in their ways. The Bible even mentions their “hardened hearts”. Perhaps there are just some people that will never come around. But being kept in spiritual darkness is not the answer.

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand.
Ephesians 6:10-13

Unfortunately, as most of us know, there is immorality and unfairness in the world. It seems like corruption cloaks over us like a dark shadow, threatening to snuff out all light. But just remember that there are MANY more loving, kind, compassionate people than we realize. And yes, God/Higher Being/Creator, Jesus, Heavenly Host, are all real. Once people come to the conscious realization that we have the utmost highest power in our corner, the world will start to shift in their thoughts, and the corruption will be replaced by love, peace, joy and unity.

And I urge those who may be participating in sin and immoral activities, to please seek forgiveness and repentance. The Lord is very forgiving and I believe as long as we’re all trying to be better, to walk in God’s word, to truly repent of our wickedness, then we will persevere and start living and loving the way Jesus Christ has taught us.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.
Ephesians 6:18

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