What is the Divine Council?

Angels? Spirits? Men? All (none) of the above?

Throughout my earnest search and study to learn more about the Bible and God, and the origins of where it all began, the concept of the “divine council” caught my attention and is an interesting subject that I wanted to delve into a little bit more.

When I first began my search, it was almost overwhelming because of so many different views by so many different people, about what the Bible could have meant by all the different terminologies used. “Elohim”, holy, divine, angel, heavenly, host, council, god, gods, God, sons of God, etc., etc., etc… What I was left with, was a whole plethora of multiple interpretations without a clear answer and instead simply led me back into a circle to the beginning again. It’s honestly unlikely that I will find a satisfactory answer to the question, “What is the Divine Council?” Although it’s not for a lack of trying.

Taking an Objective Look at the Bible

Now, with that being said, and which I’m sure might offend some readers, I have to state the most obvious reason that some people might stick fast to the thought that the Bible and God, as it is written, is infallible. It is their belief structure and their headstrong desire that they have something fool-proof to cling to so that their life and their thoughts have a stable dependency. Which is why I think some people will hold fast to a certain belief or religion without looking at all the information or the wide-picture to make sense of it. Again, I don’t mean to offend or blaspheme, because I do love God and Jesus and the Holy host with my whole heart, and it is because I love Them that I am on this quest for Truth.

Knowing how “man” (and perhaps these “supernatural rulers”) will oftentimes corrupt and twist a particular event to suit their needs, or even if there was simply an honest mistake, one has to wonder if the Bible itself is not compromised. What was I’m sure a legitimate piece of writing from God could have been misinterpreted/mistranslated throughout the ages or simply purposefully edited/altered. Anyone who knows even just a little bit of the history of Jesus (that we read and/or were told) will have some kind of understanding about the opposition and trials he endured by others who were intimidated by His being. What better way to throw His followers off the trail than by infiltrating His church and/or the Bible?

I say the above only to give awareness that what we’re currently reading in the Bible may not be the whole Truth/account of what really happened. As we’ve seen in current times, our news and media stations, indeed, some of our churches and other corporations we’ve been conditioned to trust, have been corrupted and infiltrated to lead us on the wrong path. The awareness or possibility that this is even feasible must run through people’s minds to give them a certain careful discernment about the life-long pursuit of some of these corrupted individuals to erase spirituality from people’s minds. It sounds far-fetched, but throughout my experiences and research into some strange phenomena and the facts surrounding them, the conclusion it boils down to is this: “We are indeed in the middle of a spiritual warfare.”

Back to the Divine Council

Now, instead of giving my (or anyone else’s) interpretation of what the Divine Council is, I want to select a few of these occurrences from the Bible (assuming that it has not been corrupted or altered/mistranslated in anyway) to provide some background that this term and the concept is written about and lends credence to the possibility of other “supernatural” beings.

Speaking about false prophets:

18 But which of them has stood in the council of the Lord to see or to hear his word?
Who has listened and heard his word?”


21 I did not send these prophets, yet they have run with their message; I did not speak to them, yet they have prophesied.
22 But if they had stood in my council, they would have proclaimed my words to my people and would have turned them from their evil ways and from their evil deeds.”

– Jeremiah 23:18 & 23:21-22

19 Micaiah continued, “Therefore hear the word of the Lord: I saw the Lord sitting on his throne with all the multitudes of heaven standing around him on his right and on his left.
20 And the Lord said, ‘Who will entice Ahab into attacking Ramoth Gilead and going to his death there?’ “One suggested this, and another that.
21 Finally, a spirit came forward, stood before the Lord and said, ‘I will entice him.’
22 “‘By what means?’ the Lord asked.
“‘I will go out and be a deceiving spirit in the mouths of all his prophets,’ he said.
“‘You will succeed in enticing him,’ said the Lord. ‘Go and do it.’
23 “So now the Lord has put a deceiving spirit in the mouths of all these prophets of yours. The Lord has decreed disaster for you.”

– 1 Kings 22:18-23

Speaking of other “gods” / evil entities:

3 But the angel of the Lord said to Elijah the Tishbite, “Go up and meet the messengers of the king of Samaria and ask them, ‘Is it because there is no God in Israel that you are going off to consult Baal-Zebub, the god of Ekron?’
4 Therefore this is what the Lord says: ‘You will not leave the bed you are lying on. You will certainly die!’” So Elijah went.

– 2 Kings 1:3-4

12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
– Ephesians 6:12

(fourth beast/kingdom)
25 He will speak against the Most High and oppress his holy people and try to change the set times and the laws. The holy people will be delivered into his hands for a time, times and half a time.
26 “‘But the court will sit, and his power will be taken away and completely destroyed forever.

– Daniel 7:25-26

Speaking about the elders/divine hosts:

2 At once I was in the Spirit, and there before me was a throne in heaven with someone sitting on it.
3 And the one who sat there had the appearance of jasper and ruby. A rainbow that shone like an emerald encircled the throne.
4 Surrounding the throne were twenty-four other thrones, and seated on them were twenty-four elders. They were dressed in white and had crowns of gold on their heads.
5 From the throne came flashes of lightning, rumblings and peals of thunder. In front of the throne, seven lamps were blazing. These are the seven spirits of God.

9 Whenever the living creatures give glory, honor and thanks to him who sits on the throne and who lives for ever and ever,
10 the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne and worship him who lives for ever and ever.

– Revelation 4:2-5 & 4:9-10

9 “As I looked, “thrones were set in place, and the Ancient of Days took his seat. His clothing was as white as snow; the hair of his head was white like wool. His throne was flaming with fire, and its wheels were all ablaze.
10 A river of fire was flowing, coming out from before him. Thousands upon thousands attended him; ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him. The court was seated, and the books were opened.

– Daniel 7:9-10

5 The heavens praise your wonders, Lord, your faithfulness too, in the assembly of the holy ones.
6 For who in the skies above can compare with the Lord? Who is like the Lord among the heavenly beings?
7 In the council of the holy ones God is greatly feared; he is more awesome than all who surround him.

Psalm 89:5-7

These are just a few references about other “gods” and the concept of a “divine” council/counsel – if you will.

There are countless debates about the term “elohim” and “god”/”gods” in relation to this council. Some will say that the term “god” is not to infer an actual “divine” or angelic/heavenly being, rather that what was meant by the author was a ruler, king, or leader. Fully human, of course. But when we look at the actual context of these verses, this reasoning does not stand. There are clear indications that these other entities being referred to are indeed of a spiritual/supernatural (as we define it) nature. Whether it be divine/heavenly/angelic, or a lying spirit, to a wicked spiritual force of evil in the heavenly realms.

If one were to take the Bible at heart, they would have to come to terms with the likelihood that there are a multitude of different spiritual beings, both of the good/holy kind, and those of the wicked/evil type. The many references that the Bible itself lends to other “gods” cannot be lost on us. That is not to say that they are “real” gods in the sense that they are an all-powerful being overseeing the universe like the one true God, but it could be saying that they are a deity of sorts in that they were created as a supernatural, or a “divine” force.

(DIVINE – according to etymonline.com: “pertaining to, of the nature of, or proceeding from God or a god; addressed to God,” from Old French divin, devin (12c.), from Latin divinus “of a god,” from divus “of or belonging to a god, inspired, prophetic,” related to deus “god, deity” (from PIE root *dyeu- “to shine,” in derivatives “sky, heaven, god”)

There is another interesting chapter that I wanted to address here when looking at the “divine council” theology. And as we can see depending on which version we use, the implications of these verses can be vastly different.

Psalm 82
A Psalm of Asaph

1 God presides in the great assembly;
he renders judgment among the “gods”
:

2 “How long will you[plural] defend the unjust and show partiality to the wicked?

3 Defend the weak and the fatherless; uphold the cause of the poor and the oppressed.

4 Rescue the weak and the needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked.

5 “The ‘gods’ know nothing, they understand nothing. They walk about in darkness;
all the foundations of the earth are shaken.

6 “I said, ‘You are “gods”;
you are all sons of the Most High.’

7 But you will die like mere mortals; you will fall like every other ruler.”

8 Rise up, O God, judge the earth, for all the nations are your inheritance.

– Psalm 82:1-8 (NIV)

A Plea for Justice
A Psalm of Asaph

1 God stands in the congregation of the mighty;
He judges among the gods
.

2 How long will you judge unjustly,
And show partiality to the wicked? Selah

3 Defend the poor and fatherless;
Do justice to the afflicted and needy.

4 Deliver the poor and needy;
Free them from the hand of the wicked.

5 They do not know, nor do they understand;
They walk about in darkness;
All the foundations of the earth are unstable.

6 I said, “You are gods,
And all of you are children of the Most High.

7 But you shall die like men,
And fall like one of the princes.”

8 Arise, O God, judge the earth;
For You shall inherit all nations.

– Psalm 82:1-8 (NKJV)

Depending on how one interprets the following chapters, and which version they are using, we can see how the context can be extremely different from each other. While the version on the left (NIV) surrounds the term “gods” in quotation marks, the NKJV does not. Also, the NKJV seems to follow in line with the other psalms of Asaph, in that Asaph is the one crying out to God as to why He seems to be showing partiality to the wicked. The NKJV seems to imply that it is Asaph wondering why God is judging unjustly, and is pleading to Him to do what is right and show mercy to those who are good and righteous.

The NIV, on the other hand, is indicating that it is God addressing the other “lesser gods” to do their duty right. To stop showing favor with the wicked and instead rule and judge amongst the people in the way that He has decreed them to.

There are so many examples like the one above that differ depending on how one reads it or interprets it. How do we know, for sure, which is the correct one version? (Out of many.) Or if both interpretations are incorrect? Would it be hubris to declare that one is more correct than the other? Or is there a level of discernment one must take in order to find the Truth? If something comes to light eventually that proves to be fact and is undeniable that we might not agree with, would we be willing to set aside our false belief? Or is our belief system so ingrained and conditioned within us that we will fight tooth and nail to hold on to what may possibly be heretical ideas?

Conclusion: Is the Divine Council biblical?

If we are to take the Bible at heart, even if there are supposed errors/mistranslations in its midst, the conclusion from all of these verses and other contextual evidence is that a divine council does exist. Even if we bypass all of the quotes above, we have from the very beginning (literally) in the first chapter of Genesis where God declares, “Let us make mankind in our image, in our likeness, so that they may rule over the fish in the sea and the birds in the sky, over the livestock and all the wild animals, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.

This is unmistakably expressing that there are other beings like God before He created mankind.

There are also other allusions to the possibility that the “divine council” may even be a general term to include even the wicked spirits.

Take Job 1:6-12, into account:

6 One day the angels came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came with them. 7 The Lord said to Satan, “Where have you come from?”

Satan answered the Lord, “From roaming throughout the earth, going back and forth on it.”

8 Then the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job? There is no one on earth like him; he is blameless and upright, a man who fears God and shuns evil.”

9 “Does Job fear God for nothing?” Satan replied. 10 “Have you not put a hedge around him and his household and everything he has? You have blessed the work of his hands, so that his flocks and herds are spread throughout the land. 11 But now stretch out your hand and strike everything he has, and he will surely curse you to your face.”

12 The Lord said to Satan, “Very well, then, everything he has is in your power, but on the man himself do not lay a finger.”

Then Satan went out from the presence of the Lord.”

Now while these verses don’t specify if this was a formal hearing or meeting of sorts with these angels, and it also doesn’t indicate that Satan was invited as a normal member of this “council”, it does show, in this instance, that God at least humors Satan, whether it was part of His sovereign will or not. Whether or not Satan or other less savory beings regularly attend these divine/heavenly meetings is still up for debate. (Along with the terminology of “gods” actually referring to human rulers/leaders in a mocking way – perhaps in some situations it is the case.)

During this research, one name that kept popping up in regards to the divine council and its meaning is Michael Heiser. I provide the following links for more information should you wish to delve into this further:

Michael Heiser: The Divine Council and gods of the bible

What Is The Divine Council And Is It Biblical?

The Divine Council of Yahweh

And I don’t believe I can mention “divine council” without at least mentioning “aliens”, in some way shape or form. Some people attribute heavenly beings to possibly being aliens. The Pleiadians/Arcturians come to mind, since there have allegedly been messages channeled from these beings to help us on this planet. Or even from the Ra/Law of One material. Others might be familiar with the term Galactic Federation. Then there’s the theory that these beings are vibrational/energy frequencies, perhaps of the Christ consciousness. Too many different terminologies and speculations abound without a solid (no pun intended), clear answer.

As always, if you have further insights or questions/comments about this material, I would love to hear them. God bless.

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Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde Syndrome

Are there times we step out of our “regular personality”?

Are you one of those people that can stay true to yourself no matter if you’re all by yourself or in a group of people? Or do you find yourself adjusting your personality to fit the mold of others?

Have you ever changed your personality to deliberately goad others? Some people change their personality to try and please others. The “people pleaser”. And then others change from a relatively shy person to an outgoing one if the need arises. Once the particular event is over, they revert back to their withdrawn, quiet persona. The same can be said with a person who’s normally outgoing, but shows a timid, quiet side depending on the situation.

Is this simply attributed to the mood we’re in? Perhaps it is still our natural personality, and the mood we’re in dictates what kind of personality trait we’re experiencing at the time. It doesn’t mean our personality is different or has changed, right?

I think there are different factors we have to consider when going into this subject. After all, are any of us truly ourselves at all times? And what does this particular question mean? How do we know our “true personality” to begin with?

Most of the times I like to consider myself a sweet, caring person. Am I like that all the time? Certainly not! I wish I was, but the fact of the matter is that I (as do us all) have a darker, more cynical side that once in awhile comes out. I try to learn after I have these outbursts or thoughts that I’d rather not have, and I think that’s the key. Knowing that we’re not “perfect” but striving to do better each time anyway. Own up to the mishaps, learn from them, but don’t dwell on them. Forgive yourself, and work towards a kinder, more compassionate response next time.

Now, the real Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde syndrome is deeper than our personalities just not jiving with how we “normally” are. People will have their good days and their bad days. That doesn’t make them a “bad person” or a “good person”. And it certainly doesn’t mean that they have a dissociative identity disorder.

Mr. Nice Guy Turned Bad Boy

My sister has seen the kindest customer day in and day out (a regular) turn into a rude, frustrated individual. She never would have expected this behavior from him, but can she hold it against him? “Normally” he’s kind and sweet, but after one too many orders being wrong and having to wait all the time because he’s the “nice customer”, and a company would rather a nice customer wait than an angry, bitter one, it must have finally crossed his threshold and he let it be known. Even my sister felt bad for him that he had to reach this limit. She didn’t hold it against him, and she even sympathized with him and understood his frustration.

Why do we take advantage of “nice people” in this way? Is it because we “know” that we won’t get retaliated against? That they would just put up with the bad behavior and we’d still have a nice person on our hands? Do people consider these nice, kind people as pushovers that we can just step all over?

Well, in this case, the unintentional neglect went too far and the normally nice customer finally unleashed his suppressed frustration that has undoubtedly accumulated for who knows how many months or even years.

My sister related to me how they were knowingly setting him aside so they could take care of other, more impatient customers. So his eventual outburst was sadly not so surprising. And she felt bad about being an unsuspecting catalyst to his brief transformation.

After his irritated display, he still remained a regular customer and was treated much better after his recent outburst. Sad that it had to come to that, but for some reason, this whole dichotomy of treating angry, bitter people better than polite, respectful ones still remains persistent. Sure some don’t give in to this “rule”, but the amount of “nice” people getting the short end of the stick can unfortunately still be seen in abundance in today’s society.

Has this happened to you? Have you seen a case of someone who is normally considered nice and respectful all of a sudden fly off the handle and tell people what they really think? It is a sight to behold, that is for sure, because one wouldn’t expect it coming from them. And that’s exactly why this situation comes as more of a shock than from someone we already know is rude and condescending.

Angel vs. Devil

Although the real Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde syndrome deals with the dissociative or split personality disorder, sometimes I feel as if everyone has days where they are not their “normal” selves. The allegory of the devil/angel on the shoulder has been depicted as one’s conscience being split into two parts. The devil, of course, trying to tempt the host to choose the wrong path. And the angel, trying to steer the host into doing the right thing.

Angel and devil depicted on Kronk's shoulders.

Disney’s Kronk’s New Groove

Angel and devil depicted on Ash's shoulders from Army of Darkness.

   Army of Darkness

Angel and devil depicted on a My Little Pony character.

My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic

Choosing between the angel and devil has been a running joke in and out of the media, from Disney movies to horror/comedy films to children’s TV shows, etc. But the message is a relatable recurring battle between choosing to do the right thing, or being tempted to do the wrong thing. The scary thing is, both of these urging seems to come from within.

An interesting thing to note, is certain religions believe that there is an evil spirit residing within, and a good one, who is always with the person and prompts them to do evil or good.

Take Islam, for example. Muslims believe that each person has two companions that are constantly with them, the evil jinn (qareen) and the good angel. Both of these beings are simultaneously working on each person to either lead them into sin (the qareen’s work) or lead them to follow Allah (the God of Muslims) which is the angel’s work. These are quite literally the “devil and angel” on one’s shoulder.

Another example within religion that believes that everyone has two beings (one good/one evil) that resides within each of us is Judaism. The yetzer hatov, an angel whose influence is toward the good and is depicted on the right side, and the yetzer hara, an angel whose influence is toward sin and wickedness and who is depicted on the left side.

And that’s another thing to take into account. In a lot of religions and in the media examples I gave above, these angel and devil placements are usually always with the good inclination being on the “right side”, and the bad inclination on the “left side”.

Personal Battle with my Conscience and Inner Demon

A spooky and real tale that I’d like to relate to you all, is when I had my own inner battle with two opposing forces trying to lead me into making specific choices. I was very aware of this moment, which is why I can tell it pretty clearly.

I was at a gas station and going to withdraw some cash from the ATM. I had my 3 year old son with me at the time. As I reached the machine, before I even put my card in, I noticed 60 dollars sticking out of it that someone forgot to take.

Instantly I heard a voice inside my head say, “Woah, nice! Free 60 bucks.”

I kid you not when I say that this voice was coming from my left side.

Then, in a much quieter voice, and not condemning at all but just politely saying, I heard coming from my right side, “But it doesn’t belong to you.”

Sure enough, the voice on the left piped up and said, “Yeah, but imagine what you could do with that 60 bucks.”

I was literally listening to these two inner voices having a debate on why I should or should not take the money. I already knew what decision I was going to make, but it was fascinating to me that I could literally stand there while this inner dialogue was going on inside my head. And, to be honest, even though I knew I was going to turn the money in, I was tempted to keep it.

The “good voice” spoke up in opposition to the “bad voice”, “What if it was the last 60 dollars that the person has?”

The bad voice argued, “They couldn’t have needed it that much if they left it. Just take it. No one’s going to know.”

And again the good voice would chime in with a reason why I shouldn’t, “It’s wrong.”

I have to say, the good voice did not tell me outright to “not take it”. The good voice always came back with a reason or a statement why I shouldn’t. They did not command me to do anything. The bad voice, however, told me straight up to take the money.

Making the Right Choice

While the debate was raging on, again, I had already made up my mind to turn the money in. And I used this event as a teachable moment for my son and told him, “Uh oh. Someone left 60 dollars in the ATM machine. We need to turn this in.” So I went to the teller and turned in the 60 dollars and let them know that someone left it in the machine, so hopefully they come back for it.

Now, I knew the teller could have just pocketed the money. But I wanted to do the right thing and hoped for the benefit of the doubt that the teller would do the right thing as well. After all, they probably had security cameras around so it might be tough for them to just pocket it without getting caught. I really don’t know. But my conscience was clear and after I turned the money in, the voices went away.

It was the only clear moment I had where I could literally hear the good (right) side and the bad (left) side battle for what I should do. I found it incredible and have never forgotten that moment. And I have to remind you, the good voice was quiet. Almost inaudible. So imagine since the bad voice was so dominant, if people just don’t normally hear the good voice and so they are more prone to listening to the only voice they can hear. “Oh yeah! Taking the money does sound like a great idea! It’s a gift for being such a good person. Sweet!”

Different Online Personalities

Being behind a screen seems to offer some semblance of safety and anonymity. This relaxed, carefree attitude allows one to let go a bit of their personality, and delve into a persona that’s quite different than the one they would normally display in real life.

Take this website for instance.

On some posts, I advocate love, forgiveness, compassion, kindness, and so on. The “good” personality. The Dr. Jekyll. Polite, courteous, kind.

Then, on the other hand, while not completely off the rails as a Mr. Hyde personality, there is the cynic, sarcastic, not-so-polite trait that I sometimes embody to get certain points across in my posts. Am I cynical, sarcastic and impolite in real life? (sometimes…) But most of the time I’m learning and growing just like everybody else and trying to spread love and awareness wherever I go.

Certain posts that I make are a stark contrast to what I would like to represent in real life. (And make no mistake, once in a while I let a Mr. Hyde loose in real life as well, once I reach my certain limit. Again, of course not as drastic as the Mr. Hyde depicted in the novel.) Is this a one-off?

Nope. I make no bones about willingly continuing to showcase this other side of me. After all, I know this is not my “evil side”. It is simply a different point of view that I have that might not align perfectly with my “holy side”. And while our time here on Earth should lead us to make fewer and fewer mistakes, allowing ourselves to be human and show emotions is part and parcel to our life here as well. And I know I’m trying my best in most cases to take the high road and learn from my mistakes.

Also, these two different personalities I delve into on this website is a far cry from the characters that I used to partake in when I was younger.

Confessions of a Teenager

When I see others on the internet taking on the “troll” persona, I completely understand where they’re coming from. Before I changed from a violent, angry person into the person that I am today, I used to partake in all kinds of internet shenanigans. I’m not proud of them, but I know when to admit that I used to be just like the average troll you see today. Perhaps that’s why I can sympathize with them too.

In fact, my internet shenanigans took me from all over the place – that of a sweet, caring, innocent, cute little girl, to a brutal, sailor-mouthed, sarcastic man-hater, to a man that didn’t give two craps about anyone else. I played all kinds of different personalities and definitely let my inner Hyde out on a few unsuspecting internet users. Poor people. What they must have thought of me.

Was this just a way for me to escape realism? Was it a way for me to release steam on people that I couldn’t see and therefore did not care about them as real people with feelings? Perhaps. Perhaps I was a troubled young teen and had no direction. My parents didn’t realize I had retreated into this unusual lifestyle. And I certainly didn’t tell them about it. Was it their fault I was like this? Not in the slightest. I don’t blame them at all. It was my choice to take on this different route, and I was the one pushing others away.

The Inner Hyde Tries to Unleash

Slowly but surely, my inner Hyde was taking over my life. With or without the internet, my real life was taking me on a stroll to the dark side. What was once normal journal entries were turning into rants, rages, wishes for severe violence inflicted upon people I thought deserved it. I was filled with such hatred and vehemence, that I couldn’t even recognize myself anymore. I am not even sure where all this anger and animosity came from. And although I had a relatively loving family, I could feel myself turning on them and withdrawing even further into my hostility towards everyone.

The weird part of it was, I didn’t even realize how dark I was turning until a moment of clarity (divine intervention, I call it) happened while I was at work. I was in my mid-20’s at this point, slowly heading towards a dark and violent spiral. I was working in retail and had a customer that was frustrating me to no end. She kept asking me the same questions over and over and over. She wasn’t remembering anything I was telling her and I was getting so irritated with her that I was just going to simply walk away. I was getting rude, abrupt, talking to her with such condescension, and honestly was just about to leave. I kept thinking to myself, “What the hell is wrong with this lady? I’m telling her over and over again and she’s not listening! Why is she so stupid!?”

Clarification

But then, out of nowhere, certainly not my thoughts because it was so clouded with bitterness and annoyance, I heard in the back of my mind, “She has early Alzheimer’s.”

The voice was not judgemental. It was not condemning. It was not angry. It simply stated it as a matter of fact. Not rude. Not sweet. Just was. Just telling this poor, clueless, lost clerk why this lady couldn’t understand what she was being told.

I was so shocked, and immediately changed my tune, taking care of her fully this time and was patient with her until we figured the situation out. She thanked me for being so kind to her even though I was so rude to her just minutes before, which only made me feel worse, because she was a really nice lady and I couldn’t believe the way I treated her. After she left, I went to the back room, and cried.

I probably cried and sobbed for a good fifteen minutes just wondering what it was that happened to me and how I became the way I was. I was ashamed at the way I treated the lady; I was ashamed that it took a voice from an unknown being telling me the situation because I was too dense to figure it out myself. It shook me to the core. Because even though I’ve had brief experiences before that I couldn’t explain, this was my first encounter with a voice that was not my own helping me to choose the right path.

This was the catalyst that switched me from a bitter, hateful, violent person into the person I am today. Advocating for kindness, love, compassion. Believing in God and Jesus Christ. The Hyde persona was no longer bubbling up, and ever since this event, I have been on the path to try my best to be a kinder, gentler person. (Sometimes, I still fail, and I highly regret it when I do, but I use those failures as learning lessons, and try my best for next time. That’s all we can do. And I believe the best life we can live is one in which we’re just trying to do better. Trying to love each other unconditionally. Trying to not let the dark side win.)

Which Side Will You Choose?

Inside of each person there is bound to be 2 different sides. The question is, do we know this, and do we know when to reign it in? Of course, if it is really the “jinn” or the “yetzer hara”, we won’t want it to even peak it’s way through. This side of us should be addressed as a part of us that we know exists, but that we should consciously learn to seek the good voice above all else. Suppressing these thoughts may be too hard, so I believe the best way to approach these situations is recognizing it when it happens, and knowing the correct path to take (and choosing it, of course).

If we allow ourselves, I think we truly can reach that part that wants the best for ourselves. Call it the Higher Self or the Soul or what have you. Are most of us ignoring this inner voice? Can we determine what’s in our best interest or what’s simply persuading us to make bad choices? When we can learn to be discerning and reign in our darker impulses, the choice to the right path becomes clearer.

All of us have a Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde inside. The key is acknowledging this and making the conscious decision to let the good one shine.

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