Confronting My Sanity, My Religion, and My Innocence

(or rather, the loss of all 3)

If you had asked me 10 years ago, ‘where would you be in 10 years’, I never would have thought it’d involve me developing a website dedicated to exposing corruption and preaching about Love and Forgiveness, and speaking about Jesus Christ.

I was off in my own blissful bubble; appreciating the life around me, raising my child, enjoying my job, delving into my hobbies – not a care in the world.

I was happy.

Now don’t get me wrong, I still appreciate my life. I feel happiness during certain times. I enjoy those little moments that we shouldn’t take advantage of but some do anyway.

But there is a stark difference between how I used to fall asleep at night – with what used to be a peaceful slight small smile on my lips, to praying every single night for Jesus Christ to return, sometimes crying myself to sleep.

Recently I’ve had to confront the fact that my life is not the way it used to be before. Not just from a normal part of aging, or growing up, or experience… but from the realization that everything I once thought was real/true, may not be true after all. And the fact that my eyes have been opened into seeing all of the atrocities going on in the world, and it has forced me to come to terms that I need to question everything – even things that were so deeply ingrained in me, but now I realize that it may be at the heart of the matter after all.

Questioning my sanity

As I go deep into some of these rabbit holes – CIA’s Operation Mockingbird, the vaccine/pharma agenda, religion vs. atheism vs. spirituality, freemasons/illuminati, Bilderberg group, the Holocaust, the “great reset”, nwo, etc., etc., etc., it’s made me address the very real possibility that most of what I “KNOW”, is merely all lies and falsehoods.

With a governmental agenda to literally get all Americans to believe that everything is a lie, how do we know, FOR SURE, what is real and what is propagandized?

Whether it’s due to hyper-paranoidism, or perhaps just a better understanding now of how “the world” works, I have come to the point where I actually don’t know what to believe anymore, and I doubt that most of what we are taught through history, in schools, etc. is true. I have come to the point where I honestly think that most of our lives is built on lies – ESPECIALLY when it comes to the government, religion, economics, wars, education…

As I have dug deeper into several institutions and what I DO believe is our actual history, there is only one thing really that connects everything.

And that’s our origins, our beginnings, our belief systems, religion, spirituality, the idea of a God or several gods. This is, as it seems, the core of all of our struggles today.

We may not realize it. In fact, I think billions of people DON’T realize it. They are still in the blissful, and/or unacknowledged matrix that I found myself in 10 years ago. They may know, instinctively, that something is wrong. But they can’t put their finger on it and they dismiss this feeling as an uncomfortable sensation that is better to just tune out than to confront it.

But due to certain circumstances that was actually out of my control, I ended up choosing to confront this uncomfortable awareness. Or rather, I was FORCED to do it.

Thus it led me on a downward spiral that revealed what may be the truth of the matter after all. And as such, my mind has a hard time comprehending it all and sometimes I even question myself on what if everything I’m researching is false. What if my own thoughts is false and I’m feeding into the misinformation campaign? I have actually been GASLIGHTING myself that what I am now coming to believe may not be true after all.

I think it’s an attempt at trying to rationalize all of this information away. What if I’M the one being misled and the world isn’t the way I have come to understand it? But I know that this is just a cop-out and a way of trying to lead me back “into the world”.

And this, ladies and gentlemen, is the source of our problems.

Losing (changing?) my religion…

“18 If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.”John 15:18-19

This verse seems to be the core of what’s going on in the world. “The world” in this context, I believe, is referring to the worldly system set up – not the world as in the planet Earth. It is the whole societal structure that has been set up in an attempt to keep us all in line, and chasing the all-mighty dollar.

It involves the educational institutions, the medical/health industries, politics, economics, financial institutions, trade, stock market… and yes, most of all, RELIGION.

To understand this in better context, you HAVE to come to terms with the idea that there are, indeed, secret societies that exist. Once you can understand this concept, this notion not only becomes believable, but it practically leads all roads down this path and everything starts making sense.

I have touched upon this subject before, but imagine our beginnings, our ancestors, our ACTUAL history. Where did we come from? Imagine if there was a group of people that retained their knowledge of our actual heritage… And what if some of these very same people described in these texts, are still deadset in their ways – and refuse to acknowledge The One, True, Supreme Creator? What if, they are exactly what the Bible describes as those “of the world”?

“23 And He said to them, “You are from beneath; I am from above. You are of this world; I am not of this world. 24 Therefore I said to you that you will die in your sins; for if you do not believe that I am He, you will die in your sins.”John 8:23-24

“43 Why do you not understand My speech? Because you are not able to listen to My word. 44 You are of your father the devil, and the desires of your father you want to do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it. 45 But because I tell the truth, you do not believe Me. 46 Which of you convicts Me of sin? And if I tell the truth, why do you not believe Me? 47 He who is of God hears God’s words; therefore you do not hear, because you are not of God.” – John 8:43-47

Now, this is where things get tricky. I usually say something like the following, “I am not religious. But I am spiritual.”

And it’s been something that I’ve actually come to terms with that I don’t belong to one set religion. And that the battle we’re facing is a spiritual warfare. I still hold to that mindset. I also subscribe to the belief that the things of the material world are meant to lead us astray. The “world” that we should be following is Jesus Christ and the teachings of Love and Forgiveness; a divine/holy way of living. Not of things “of the world”. And that includes this whole societal construct most of us are living in right now.

And during my studies through Genesis, couldn’t help but notice the focus that the Lord is making towards wealth, land, nations, kingdoms, etc. …In my view of God, this does not fit. Now, I don’t want to be presumptuous and say that I know who/what God is, but in my heart, I feel as if the God that I am familiar with would not care about material wealth/possessions. It has rather been hard for me to get through this doctrine. So after doing some more research on this matter, came across a group known as the Cathars.

“Of themselves they say: “We are the poor of Christ, who have no fixed abode and flee from city to city like sheep amidst wolves, are persecuted as were the apostles and the martyrs, despite the fact that we lead a most strict and holy life, persevering day and night in fasts and abstinence, in prayers, and in labour from which we seek only the necessities of life. We undergo this because we are not of this world. But you, lovers of the world, have peace with it because you are of the world. False apostles, who pollute the word of Christ, who seek after their own interest, have led you and your fathers astray from the true path. We and our fathers, of apostolic descent, have continued in the Grace of God and shall so remain to the end of time. To distinguish between us and you Christ said “By their fruits you shall know them”. Our fruits consist in following the footsteps of Christ.”

– Source: Cathars and Cathar Beliefs in the Languedoc | Cathar Beliefs

“Cathar theology was essentially Gnostic in nature. They believed that there were two “gods”—one malevolent and one good. The former was in charge of all visible and material things and was held responsible for all the atrocities in the Old Testament. The benevolent god, on the other hand, was the one the Cathars worshipped and was responsible for the message of Jesus. Accordingly, they made every effort to follow the teachings of Jesus as closely as possible.”

– Source: Cathars & Albigenses: What Was Catharism?

This is fascinating to me. While I was researching Genesis, the incredible focus on land, wealth, material possessions, the aroma of burnt offerings pleasing the Lord… just did not resonate with me. I entertained the idea, “What if the God of the Old Testament is different than the God of the New Testament?” I know this is seen as highly blasphemous by a lot of those following Christianity, and again, I am not Christian, per se, but I do whole-heartedly believe in and love Jesus Christ.

So seeing a group known as the Cathars – who were “all” wiped out, incidently – referring to the Old Testament as having a God different than that of the New Testament, blew my mind. And that their stance about the material world being one of evil inclinations and temptations, and the way to divinity is to live in pure, kind compassion with each other and nature – COMPLETELY resonated with me.

Am I a Cathar and am just now learning about it?

Even more interesting, is coming across a prophecy that the very last Cathar made before he was burned alive (since all the Cathars were considered heretics – albeit, to cover up a different reason why they were genocided…)

“In 700 years, when the laurel grows green again” – Guilhem de Belibaste

Historical documentations point to Guilhem de Belibaste being burned allegedy on August 21, 1321 – although that specific date has been debated. But 1321 has been widely accepted and not contested. So if this date is correct, then of course the prophecy points to the year 2021 as being “when the laurel grows green again”.

But what does that mean, exactly? Again, that is up for debate. And no one really knows if this prophecy will come true as it is, and even if it does, what it will entail. So perhaps it is an obscure statement that could apply to a wide variety of possibilities, and it may not even be noticeable at the moment. But if it means what many people think it does, then it would seem a worldwide revival of the Cathar belief system, whether they consciously realize it or not, may be in effect.

Once you lose your innocence, you can’t get it back.

(Or can you?)

When I went down the rabbit hole and started questioning my own sanity and my religion, I realized something that really struck me at what was wrong with how I intrinsically felt inside.

It was the dawning awareness that my naivete, my innocence, my open-eyed wonder of the world, had come to an abrupt halt, and I was now looking at the grim reality around me. The reality that the world that most people strive to be a part of, one that I used to want to be a part of, is one full of traps, pitfalls, wicked deeds that are now being passed off as “good”, and a systematic powerhouse of leading us away from our true purpose.

Once my eyes opened to all of this deception, the lies, the fraud – most of it pointing to a huge spiritual upset – the sorrow that I felt since I knew that my life would never be the same and I would never get back that child-like innocence, swallowed me and left me feeling alone and desolate, and a yearning for the ways that it used to be.

But then, after struggling with this inner turmoil, I came to the resolution that I wouldn’t have it any other way. Now, at least, I am awakening to the horrible atrocities that are committed just to keep the rest of us in the dark. I can step off of this worldly platform and fully dedicate myself to Jesus Christ and His teachings, knowing that I’m doing the right thing. Perhaps this is what must be done in order to raise people’s awareness and spread the message that the spiritual warfare is real, and goes deeper and darker than we think.

Maybe by putting aside this naive gullibility and innocent outlook towards the world, thinking that all of these material enhancements are for our benefit, we can shift our focus onto nature and our true roots – our soul and connection to the Creator.

Although I lost my innocence as a blissfully unaware human, just living my life as best as I can, I have gained an understanding and desire to strive for the Truth, and step out of this harmful paradigm of perpetuating division and materialistic pursuits.

I have asked myself, even though my innocence has been shattered, is there a way I can piece it back together? Not by ignoring all of the situations around us, but by slowly picking up all of these pieces and acknowledging that I can still enjoy the small things in life? The soothing sound of rain falling… A genuine smile from a loved one or stranger… A sweet video of a random act of kindness – or especially initiating the act of kindness ourself…

Maybe I’ve lost my sanity 😛 , maybe even changed my “religion” (although I’m not sure about that yet), and lost my innocence, but I do still have hope and the belief that things will work out in the end anyway. My motto, besides “Love and Forgive”, is “Jesus wins”. So no matter how much darkness seems to surround us, I have faith that “the world” will come to terms to its reality eventually and get back on the right track.

With that being said, my life may not be the same as it was before. And I may miss it at times, but to me, this just means that I’m heading in the right direction.

“20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned 21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” – Ephesians 4:20-24

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WWJD: Would Jesus Reject a Vaccinated/Unvaccinated Person?

Follow in His footsteps.

After really thinking about the state of the world we’re in right now, especially with the excessive division that tptsb are implementing in every aspect of our lives:

left vs. right
black vs. white
millenials vs. boomers
vaccinated vs. unvaccinated
masked vs. unmasked
spirituality vs. atheism vs. religion
liberals vs. conservatives
men vs. women vs. nonbinary etc.
racism, segregation, hatred, riots, cancel culture, woke culture, gender identity culture, etc., etc., etc.

we HAVE to take a step back and realize that all of these labels are created for the sole purpose of separating us and generating as much chaos as possible.

I can’t even begin to describe why this is such an important ideology for the societies/organizations that live for the motto “Order out of Chaos” / “Ordo ab Chao” – you would have to ask them…

Nevertheless, regardless of how many people keep denying the reality of this issue, it is there, and its history goes back centuries/millenia.

So deny all we want, but it is just letting it be easier for these organizations to keep implementing these divisions, this anger and hatred among humankind, this ever-growing philosophy of “Everyone is against you. Everyone is your enemy.

Thankfully, even if this IS true (which it’s NOT), Jesus Christ taught us the way to interact with our enemies.

Love Your Enemies

43 “You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’
44 But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you,
45 that you may be sons of your Father in heaven; for He makes His sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.
46 For if you love those who love you, what reward have you? Do not even the tax collectors do the same?
47 And if you greet your brethren only, what do you do more than others? Do not even the tax collectors do so?
48 Therefore you shall be perfect, just as your Father in heaven is perfect.
Matthew 5:43-48

Let me get one thing “perfect”ly clear. I’m not perfect. But I’m trying to live my life to the best of my ability and learn to look to God and Jesus Christ in all ways of my life. There are many days I feel like I should do more, and I don’t want to wait until it’s too late and be considered a “lukewarm” Christian. So my efforts first and foremost is learning how to develop and grow the way that Jesus would want all of us to.

He taught us so many things – but it all boiled down to the most important commandment He left us with:

34 A new commandment I give to you, that you love one another; as I have loved you, that you also love one another.
35 By this all will know that you are My disciples, if you have love for one another.”
John 13:34-35

This was the number one thing that Jesus Christ was trying to teach us in order to show us the holy way to live our life.

Do we see “Love” in abundance in today’s society? Maybe we could, if we look in the right place, but more often than not, I see turmoil and strife and hostility. Of course the mainstream media is a prime source of showing a lot of the negativity and animosity towards divided classes, perhaps built upon the phrase: “If it bleeds, it leads.”

And even just hearing people’s experiences with being alienated and ostracized from their own family for their political views, or religious ideologies, or the current situation with the pervasive agenda to get everyone vaccinated.

It’s heartbreaking, being shunned by those who have loved you and who you have loved, and it goes against everything that Jesus Christ stood for.

Or does it?

There are multiple things to consider here. The following verses seem to show some contradictions, but are they really? “Hate” and “Love” are seen sometimes as a real dichotomy, even if one believes that the opposite of love is apathy, or fear.

18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love.
19 We love Him because He first loved us.
1 John 4:18-19

I will come back to this verse in a minute, but for now I want to focus on the hate/love dichotomy.

Throughout the Bible, there are some interesting correlations between these two conflicting emotions. As we can see, some of the verses interconnect between love and hate, and seemingly even of the same topics in a contradictory manner, but the messages become quite clear within the context of it all:

9 He who says he is in the light, and hates his brother, is in darkness until now.
10 He who loves his brother abides in the light, and there is no cause for stumbling in him.
11 But he who hates his brother is in darkness and walks in darkness, and does not know where he is going, because the darkness has blinded his eyes.
1 John 2:9-11
15 Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him.
16 For all that is in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—is not of the Father but is of the world.
17 And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever.
1 John 2:15-17
18 “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you.
19 If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.
John 15:18-19
25 Now great multitudes went with Him. And He turned and said to them,
26 “If anyone comes to Me and does not hate his father and mother, wife and children, brothers and sisters, yes, and his own life also, he cannot be My disciple.
27 And whoever does not bear his cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple.
Luke 14:25-27

There are many references about “the world” and to not love the world, and if the world hates you, then know that it hated Jesus first. And this seems to be a contrast to one of the most popular verses in the Bible:

16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.
John 3:16

Why does God love the world, but we’re expected not to? It seems to all boil down to the meaning and conditions of these verses. God loves the world (us), and because of this, is why Jesus Christ came in order to show us (the world) how to love and treat each other with respect and compassion.

However, since the worldly system was already put in place before Jesus Christ came, there are some who are still heavily indoctrinated into this system and rebuke this new, holy way of living. They would rather continue their life living in sin and wickedness than turn to Christ and grow in love and forgiveness.

How do we change the world? We love one another. True, genuine, unconditional love.

That brings us to the verse about hating your own family, and that whoever doesn’t hate them cannot be Christ’s disciple.

Wouldn’t this be contradictory? He tells us to love one another, as He has loved us. But He also says that we can’t be His disciples unless we forsake our own family…

Within the context of everything, considering that this world is under the rule of satan, it makes sense that there are those that will be called to Jesus/God, and actually respond, in comparison to those that don’t.

That’s not to say that we should hate them in the visceral sense. But that we should always be looking to God/Jesus Christ FIRST and follow HIS ways, rather than the ways of our family or friends. And if our family/friends are set apart from God and continue living a lifestyle “of the world”, then we must set ourselves apart from them and follow God.

Of course we should still pray for them and love them, but we MUST NOT let them take the lead and let them dictate the way we should live our lives.

It has, sadly, been a great upheaval in our current situation with the coronavirus agenda, with our friends and family strongly adhering to worldly, governmental control and unethical procedures in order to get as many people as possible to take this immoral vaccine, and to shame and ostracize anyone who doesn’t. I honestly have never seen such a corrupt propaganda to enforce any initiative in my life. And it astonishes me that there are those who still don’t see it.

Even considering if coronavirus was a REAL pandemic (which, if one takes a little bit of time to research this outside of the mainstream media and dubious “fact-checking” websites, can see that this virus has been greatly exaggerated and unfairly/untruthfully propagated), the measures that are being taken to “save the world” has crossed the ethical boundaries into tyrannical control. I would even say that the vaccines themselves have crossed the ethical boundaries a long time ago when they started their experiments into stem cell research, not to mention the other harmful substances that are in these injections.

Now, all of this is based on the foundation that “save the world” is actually the main end goal to begin with. Which I can safely theorize it is not, with the amount of evidence stacking up against the global leaders.

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But a large part of the population has just been following orders, because it’s what the “experts” say, or the “scientists” say, or their parents, their teachers, their friends, their boss, etc., etc. There’s even a huge push to bribe (tempt) people to getting the vaccine. Beer. Food. Money. Concerts. Travel. etc., etc., etc. Very worldly things… I think I’m starting to see what Jesus meant when He said that one cannot be His disciple if we choose the “world” instead of choosing to follow Him. He meant it quite literally.

Now, getting back to the acronym: WWJD – What Would Jesus Do?

Let’s take a look at what He’d do in these current times. Well… rather, let’s instead look at what He did.

Instead of shunning sick people, or demanding that they get a vaccine, or quarantining them – isolating them until they pass away all alone out of fear that they will spread a disease, let’s see what Jesus actually did…

Instead of staying “6 feet away” or “social distancing”, or locking virus infected individuals away or shunning them service, etc. – Jesus reached out to them, touched them, healed them, showed them love and compassion. There was never any fear of them because He loves God and loves us and has exceptional faith.

Some may argue that since Jesus knew that he could heal the afflicted and would not get sick, and is the Son of God, then it’s not really putting Him in danger. But perhaps that is just speaking to His incredible faith and trust in the Lord – He knows things that we have yet to understand or believe.

He is the PERFECT example that we all should be emulating in our lives. Imagine if we all had this kind of faith and trust in God.

40 Now a leper came to Him, imploring Him, kneeling down to Him and saying to Him, “If You are willing, You can make me clean.”

41 Then Jesus, moved with compassion, stretched out His hand and touched him, and said to him, “I am willing; be cleansed.”
42 As soon as He had spoken, immediately the leprosy left him, and he was cleansed.
Mark 1:40-42

Leprosy was a regarded as a spiritual affliction back in those days, that many believed manifested as sores, baldness, other skin disorders; and those individuals were shunned and outcasted from the rest of society, and who even had to announce their status as “unclean”.

45 “Now the leper on whom the sore is, his clothes shall be torn and his head bare; and he shall cover his mustache, and cry, ‘Unclean! Unclean!’
46 He shall be unclean. All the days he has the sore he shall be unclean. He is unclean, and he shall dwell alone; his dwelling shall be outside the camp.
Leviticus 13:45-46
Luke 17:11–19 records an account of ten men who had infectious skin diseases, commonly translated as “leprosy.” In the Israelite community, when a person discovered a rash or skin disorder, he or she had to go to the priest for examination. The priest then determined whether this was a contagious disease and whether the person was to be declared ceremonially unclean (Leviticus 13:1). Jewish law prohibited anyone with such a disease from associating with the general community. They had to be isolated and many times lived as outcasts until they died (Leviticus 13:45–46). This was necessary in order to keep infectious diseases from becoming an epidemic. But, for those afflicted, it could be a life sentence.” – What is the story of the ten lepers in the Bible?

Yet, according to the Bible, even just the faith in Jesus Christ has a huge impact on whether someone gets healed. Take the following account, for example:

11 Now it happened as He went to Jerusalem that He passed through the midst of Samaria and Galilee.
12 Then as He entered a certain village, there met Him ten men who were lepers, who stood afar off.
13 And they lifted up their voices and said, “Jesus, Master, have mercy on us!”

14 So when He saw them, He said to them, “Go, show yourselves to the priests.” And so it was that as they went, they were cleansed.

15 And one of them, when he saw that he was healed, returned, and with a loud voice glorified God,
16 and fell down on his face at His feet, giving Him thanks. And he was a Samaritan.

17 So Jesus answered and said, “Were there not ten cleansed? But where are the nine?
18 Were there not any found who returned to give glory to God except this foreigner?”
19 And He said to him, “Arise, go your way. Your faith has made you well.”
Luke 17:11-19

Sadly, in this account, out of the ten lepers who were healed, ONLY ONE returned to give thanks and glory to God.

Now, this brings me to some touchy and debatable subjects about faith and mercy – I can already imagine someone who may get angry and frustrated/disappointed if their illness doesn’t get healed, or if their loved ones illness doesn’t get healed, although in their heart and soul they believed and had faith that the healing will happen. If it doesn’t, then it can bring back bitter thoughts of, “well, did I not believe hard enough?” “did I not pray enough?” “does God not love me enough to answer my prayers?”, etc., etc., etc.

I don’t have a certain answer for these. But from what I understand, we are under the grace of God, and if we truly believe in Him and have faith in Him, then no matter what the outcome, we have to trust Him that things are how they are for a purpose. I know the saying “God works in mysterious ways.” is extremely cliché, but I think part of our misunderstanding comes from us not knowing the complexity of the universe or our consciousness/conscience being.

Fear or LOVE?

And that brings me back to fear, which has been perpetrated non-stop in the media to get everyone panicking and fearful of this virus (which is debatable in its severity to begin with) and warning everyone to stay away from others and social distance themselves – even going so far as preventing us from reaching our loved ones who are in the hospitals or in hospice, etc. Those who are at risk are fearful of others, suspicious of everyone in regards to their own life. Those who are following along with the medical/government mandates out of well-intentioned, although misguided, efforts to shield others from the virus are also acting out of fear.

I have had my own experience with this when my son was sick last year. This was during the beginning of the coronavirus outbreak, and my son was showing symptoms of it. (Flu-like symptoms. I know there have been scientific studies that state that this virus is different from the flu, but a lot of the symptoms are the same. And especially at the beginning, no one was sure of anything. Well, just look at the state now. There are still conflicting information on the origins of this virus.)

Although I was uncertain of the severity of this virus, and the recommendations were to quarantine, etc., with the expectations in some countries to quarantine even within one’s own home and to make NO CONTACT with the infected family members, there was NO WAY I was going to subject my son to absolute quarantine and no affection. That is heartbreaking. Even if it meant that I would get sick, I was willing to take that chance to make sure that he knows that he is loved and cared for; not shunned and suffering all alone. In fact, I probably showed him MORE love during this time, even waking up during the night to make sure he was okay. Leaving him alone to save my own health was the last thing on my mind. Perhaps some might see that as reckless. But I see it as an act of love and compassion.

And I was almost certain that I was going to get sick in return. I was actually expecting it. I still hugged him. I still gave him kisses. I still held him. I did everything I normally would even if he’s perfectly healthy, x3.

And I didn’t get sick. I was practically counting on getting sick and prepared myself for it. But it didn’t happen. My love for him overrode any kind of hesitancy or fear of this uncertain illness. Now, it could have been the normal flu rather than the coronavirus, which I would usually get sick from anyway.

So What Would Jesus Do?

Well, he showed us with his love and compassion for a complete stranger. Not just a complete stranger. A sick, “unclean”, complete stranger. Now imagine if we all did the same. Yes I can show this love with my son – he’s my own family member. But can we show the same love for an unknown stranger, even if they’re sick, dirty, and possibly contagious?

Jesus did.

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One thing I have to mention, when does saving our own lives, cross the border to doing, or accepting, inhumane, unethical things?

Even now, there are efforts to deliberately grow a human fetus for the sole purpose of killing it just to do studies and research on it.

Scientists Want to Grow Unborn Babies for 40 Days and Kill Them for Research

This is HORRIFIC! Their justification (which there isn’t any for this type of project) is to explore stem cell research to extend human life or reverse aging, etc., etc. I can’t believe this is even a proposal.

THERE. IS. NO! JUSTIFICATION. FOR. THIS.

I can say, with every fiber of my being, that I would rather DIE than to promote this kind of heinous study. If it ultimately came down to me having the choice between dying, or having a life-altering/life-saving medicine that was created by using aborted fetuses, I would choose death every time. No amount of someone trying to persuade me by saying that fetuses aren’t living beings and are instead just a huge amount of cells will have ANY sway in my decision.

I know what I know, and I know what I feel. This is WRONG in every sense of the word. And it is setting a dangerous precedent that people will be willing to do anything in order to save their own life or their family member’s life – even at the detriment of someone else’s well being.

And I am prepared to give up my life to refuse these atrocious agendas.

14 But even if you should suffer for righteousness’ sake, you are blessed. “And do not be afraid of their threats, nor be troubled.”
15 But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts, and always be ready to give a defense to everyone who asks you a reason for the hope that is in you, with meekness and fear;
16 having a good conscience, that when they defame you as evildoers, those who revile your good conduct in Christ may be ashamed.
17 For it is better, if it is the will of God, to suffer for doing good than for doing evil.
1 Peter 3:14-17
24 Then Jesus said to His disciples, “If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.
25 For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.
Matthew 16:24-25

Jesus is Love, and He has given us His teachings to follow Him and not the ways of the world. The ways of the world are falling into darkness, if not already enveloped in it. I refuse to be a part of this corrupt system. I don’t consent to it.

Jesus Christ is The Way, the Truth, and the Life. He is who we should follow.

Whether you are vaccinated or unvaccinated (even if there are concerns about the vaccinated shedding a spike protein and getting others sick; or the unvaccinated spreading the coronavirus) Jesus would love us all the same. Although He may not approve of some of the decisions that have been taken, the key message here is to repent of our errors, no matter which side we’re on, and learn to love one another and grow in compassion and faith.

Forgiveness is a huge factor as well. If we can forgive each other, we can work on rebuilding our connections and let go of any of the hostility we may be feeling towards each other. I forgive anyone and everyone who truly repents of their actions if they feel as if they may have made the wrong decisions.

God bless you all.

12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you.
13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.
John 15:12-13
Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.
2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor, and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing. 4 Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up;
5 does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil;
6 does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth;
7 bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
8 Love never fails.
1 Corinthians 13:1-8

Fact checking is extremely important. I want to reiterate not to take everything at face value; no matter what you read, where you read it from, or who you hear it from. And to be clear, do not rely on “fact checking” websites to give you accurate information either. These are just as likely, (if not even more likely…), to feed false information and false debunking accounts to manipulate the reader. Please take everything into consideration before adhering to a certain narrative – and always keep your mind open to other possibilities.

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Crystal Clear Learning

I Yelled at God the Other Day.

A rant. And a heartfelt plea.

I’m a believer in God/Jesus Christ.

Does that mean that I don’t get frustrated and angry when I feel as if things aren’t progressing as much as I’d like?

No, not at all. The other day was a prime example.

Now, I know the world doesn’t revolve around me and what I’d like. And I know I shouldn’t put expectations upon God/the Creator and what His plans are for the world. And I realize that I don’t understand all the intricacies that the universe has to offer.

But does that mean that I still won’t care and show emotions when there’s something that is so heart-wrenching, so terrible, so unfathomable, that the mere thought of it being possible makes me sick to my stomach and literally freezes me to the extent that I can’t move, and sends me down a spiral into depression and despair?

My heart physically hurts when I realize the true depths of evil and horror that some people will inflict on others, especially on children.

While researching the child-trafficking scandal and the new movie being released later this year, “The Sound of Freedom”, it really hit home for me the absolute deplorable actions that some people are engaged in, and the unbelievably depraved nature that certain individuals have been grown into and exposed to.

It ENRAGES me that God could allow something like this to happen. I have to reign myself in and reason that it’s not about God ALLOWING it, so much as it is, perhaps, God allowing us to make the choice on what we will do in such situations.

This goes back to the ideology of “free will”. And predetermination.

It’s largely believed that God is labeled as all-knowing and omnipotent. Which, as a lot of us have logically concluded, that God already KNOWS everything that is going to happen. He already KNOWS who’s going to Heaven and who’s going to Hell. He already KNOWS who will turn to Him and repent of their sinful, wicked ways. He already KNOWS whose names are written in the Book of Life.

So the whole prospect of us living this life already has a set conclusion.

At least, that’s what I always thought. In some cases, I still do. Again, I want to reiterate that I can’t know to understand the mysteries of the universe and the ultimate plan for our being. But I CAN continuously pray to have that understanding and enlightening revelation, and pray that God will speed up His supreme sovereignty and establish His presence so that PEACE can triumph upon the world.

I want the suffering to end.

While I, myself, have led a relatively painless life, my heart is literally torn when I contemplate upon the suffering and torture that others have had to endure. I want their suffering to end. The only way I see that happening is if Jesus returns. Or if there is a world-wide attempt of the public at large, changing/warming our hearts and treating each other better, and realizing that Love is the answer.

When I read about cults initiating a specific mind-control regime in order to produce loyal, obedient, equally as twisted individuals to perpetuate this on-going cycle and create even more corrupted subjects, thus spreading this mentality across the land, it’s no wonder that the world is in the state it’s in.

Svali Speaks (a dark, disturbing look into what cult-indoctrination looks like)
Svali Interview | Interview on Illuminati Bloodlines with Svali (shocking and horrific testimony about groups involved in ritual abuse – Vatican is indicated)

These cults and other disturbed individuals (perhaps having grown up in a highly dysfunctional environment in some cases), are raised into a perverted, immoral establishment that actually teaches sinful and unsympathetic behavior. They have fine-tuned this process over centuries, even millenia – as far back as ancient civilization times. The Bible mentions these groups, and while a lot of us believe that these wicked practices and rituals no longer exist, we couldn’t be further from the truth. They are just more hidden (in plain sight, I should add).

It brings some to wonder, if these ancient civilizations and cultures never ceased their evil ways (spanning generations from even during Jesus’ lifetime and beyond), and that they’ve held on to their resentment of God and Jesus Christ this whole time, it begins to paint the picture of the heinous activity going on today that these same people have preserved and passed down onto their own descendants, to carry out upon the rest of the population.

Which brings me to the only conclusions that can be done to overdo this activity. That of us fellow human beings breaking out of this dichotomy – especially those under the spell of this corrupt organization(s), and/or Jesus Christ’s return.

And so I pray. I pray for people to wake up, I pray for them to have a change of heart – that they will see the errors of their ways and repent.

And most of all, I pray, every single night and every opportunity I get, for Jesus Christ to return.

There is one particular Bible verse that I go back to over and over again, and cling onto in the hopes that it will come true, and SOON.

22 And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened.
Matthew 24:22

I don’t know who the “elect” are, but that’s not the word that intrigues me. I’m interested in the word “shortened”. This implies that the suffering of people will be cut short because of the elect’s sake. Which makes me beg the question, “When is enough, enough?”

How much more will people and young children suffer in order to get God’s attention?

And so, in a fit of frustration and rage, I demanded God/Jesus Christ to “GET DOWN HERE!
Repeatedly… So much so, that I could literally feel the static pounding in my head when getting really, really angry. Something I hadn’t felt in quite awhile.

I know. Rather blasphemous and condescending – to demand that Jesus Christ finally show Himself and heal people’s suffering and enact His judgment and justice upon the world. But I honestly don’t want anything else.

…Well, after my rude and arrogant outburst, I did beg for forgiveness and felt shameful and remorse for my audacity, but honestly, the sentiment still remains. I want Jesus Christ’s Second Coming to happen SOON, and by “soon”, I don’t mean 20 years from now. I mean NOW. Right NOW.

I’ve mentioned before about perhaps my will infringing upon other people’s free will (they don’t want a change of heart – they don’t want to change – they don’t want Jesus to return…), but for certain people to manipulate and torture/abuse others – therefore perhaps infringing upon their free will, I am working outside of this projected system and declaring that MY will, is God’s will. His will is just and divine, so ultimately His decision is what I want to happen. If free will is something that even God Himself cannot (or will not) interfere with, then to be fair, people will be responsible for their own demise.

If people are engaging in evil, sinful acts, even if they don’t realize that it’s evil/sinful – I truly believe that God gives them opportunities to turn away from this lifestyle, and into one of repentance and forgiveness. I believe He gives us all several opportunities to pursue a life of light and love. And if we don’t, then we essentially doom ourselves.

And as to why this life has been carried out so long if God knows the final outcome of everyone’s decisions and path that they lead, I honestly don’t have a good answer. The Bible always alludes to the fact that this divine plan needs to happen this way. I don’t know why; I don’t know to what purpose. Perhaps it’ll all be clear when I’m finally on my deathbed and glimpsing into the great beyond.

Until then, I will continue to pray and spread awareness. And continue this ever prevalent pursuit of Truth. And hope that Jesus Christ comes soon and helps to bring peace and justice upon the world.

If you’re on the wrong side, I pray for you and hope you come to see the light before it’s too late. I believe that God WILL forgive you, if you truly repent. God is Love and wants nothing more than for people to find this Love – pure, unconditional, untainted Love that cares for others. But hurting/abusing others is NOT pure Love and will not be able to co-exist with the holy divine. We make our own choices. A tragic, horror-filled darkness with excessive pain that we’ve inflicted upon others, come back to haunt us for eternity; or a free, joyful, glorious world that is filled with Love and happiness.

For those who have stepped out of this darkness and horrible indoctrination of ritual abuse, you are more courageous and radiant than you realize. You are the beacon of hope that shines in this world, and gives us the strength and virtue to look forward to a brighter future. God bless you.

Fact checking is extremely important. I want to reiterate not to take everything at face value; no matter what you read, where you read it from, or who you hear it from. And to be clear, do not rely on “fact checking” websites to give you accurate information either. These are just as likely, (if not even more likely…), to feed false information and false debunking accounts to manipulate the reader. Please take everything into consideration before adhering to a certain narrative – and always keep your mind open to other possibilities.

Fair use disclaimer: Some of the links from this article are provided from different sources/sites to give the reader extra information and cite the sources, but does not necessarily mean that I endorse the contents of the site itself. Additionally, I have tried to provide links to the contents that I used from other sites as an educational and/or entertainment means only; if you feel that any information deserves further citation or request to be clarified, please let me know through the contact page.

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