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Can People Have a Change of Heart?

And would we have the heart to forgive them?

There’s a quote in the Bible that states: “You have heard that it was said, ‘Love your neighbor’ and ‘Hate your enemy.’ But I tell you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you”. – Matthew 5:43-44

The reason, of course, is that anyone, even a cruel, horrible dictator, can love their own mother, spouse or child, or friend, for example, so how would that separate them from a “righteous” person? It is easy to love “one of our own”, is it not? But how much harder, how much holier, would it be to love someone who stands for everything you don’t?

I think this is the key that we need to realize when living our lives, since, especially this year, for some reason, the radical thoughts from all sides of the fence seem to hold one another in contempt, hostility, anger, hatred, scorn, derision. The act of compassion and kindness for fellow human beings has been on a decline and people are losing friendships, relationships with family, their common decency…

The amount of separation for all sorts of reasons has turned us against each other when we should be coming together. If you’re for Trump or against him. If you’re a mask-wearer or refuse to wear one. If you’re anti-vax or not. If you’re pro-life or pro-choice. If you’re black or white. If you’re male, female, lgbtq, etc., etc., etc., etc… What religion, if any, you follow…

There is so much division and we’ve lost sight of freedom of thought and speech and our tolerance and understanding for each other that instead of seeing us all as brothers and sisters lost in the same world and just trying to make sense of things, we’ve become each other’s enemy. Anyone that opposes our own views have now become our opponent and we reject and shun these people for being on the “wrong side”.

And honestly, no matter who is on the “right side” or the “wrong side”, I propose that if we’re taking part in this separation and intolerance of each other, then we are automatically on the wrong side, plain and simple. You might think you’re on the “right side”, but what does that mean, exactly? Does it mean shutting out those who oppose you and fighting them tooth and nail to try and see things your way? Or does it mean to open your arms and welcome them with love and sincerity and compassion?

Here is another quote to love our enemies, “But I say to you who hear, Love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, pray for those who abuse you.” – Luke 6:27-28

Now, when I see this verse, nowhere in it does it say to try and change their beliefs. It doesn’t say to mock or scorn them. It doesn’t say to hate them and cast them aside. It tells us to love them, pray for them, bless them, do good to them… This is what holiness is. Loving those who hate us and praying for them.

The title of this article is about a change of heart, though. Is this possible? Can we pray for our enemies to have a change of heart? Can we pray for anyone to have a change of heart? Wouldn’t this be infringing upon their free will? Or is it an example of us trying to intercede on behalf of those who “know not what they do”? “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.” – Luke 23:34

Perhaps the verse doesn’t mean to pray for a change of heart for them, but simply asking God to have mercy on them. Maybe even a prayer of both. Change of heart and forgiveness.

Below I have submitted 4 examples of a soul(s) experiencing a change of heart. The first one is debatable, of course, because it comes from a gnostic source, and may not be a change of heart so much as a response of fear, but I thought it was a fascinating entry into this article so wanted to submit it. Take it with a grain of salt, and the possibility of “what if?”

1. Fallen Angels Petition for Forgiveness

In the Book of Enoch, a Gnostic text that was not included in the canon Bible, it tells the story about Enoch and his relationship with “the Watchers”, a group of angels whose job it was to “watch over humans”. However, 200 of these Watchers became corrupted and came to Earth to procreate with the women and take upon themselves a wife and taught them the secrets of Heaven. The nephilim were born, and with that came evil spirits and, mainly due to the teachings of Azazyel, “taught every species of iniquity upon earth”.

This, of course, was a grievous sin and set in motion God’s decree to banish them away and inflict upon them punishment not only for themselves, but also their offspring.

Due to the fear of the Lord’s wrath, the Watchers appealed to Enoch and begged him to plead on their behalf to God for forgiveness.

5 And they all became terrified, and trembled;
6 Beseeching me to write for them a memorial of supplication, that they might obtain forgiveness; and that I might make the memorial of their prayer ascend up before the God of heaven; because they could not themselves thenceforwards address him, nor raise up their eyes to heaven on account of the disgraceful offence for which they were judged.
7 Then I wrote a memorial of their prayer and supplications, for their spirits, for everything which they had done, and for the subject of their entreaty, that they might obtain remission and rest.

– Book of Enoch 13:5-7

The response Enoch gets from his vision with God on the Watcher’s plea is very telling:

Go, say to the Watchers of heaven, who have sent you to pray for them, You ought to pray for men, and not men for you.

– Book of Enoch 15:1

This is interesting in that it is taking a man, interceding on behalf of those who are supposed to be holy and the ones who are supposed to be the protectors of man; but the situation is reversed, with the man essentially trying to protect the fallen holy ones from the wrath of God. Even though these fallen angels have technically become the enemy of humankind by introducing all sorts of sin and iniquity and evil spirits unleashed upon the world, this man is still praying for them and showing mercy on them.

And these fallen angels, knowing God and the punishment they are about to receive, either due to fear and/or the repercussions of their misdeeds, are now begging for mercy. Is this “a change of heart” per se? Or simply concern over their own well-being? Do they truly repent of their actions? Or are they simply afraid of the retribution they’re about to behold?

If this account is true, have they taken steps to atone for their sins? And are they trying to right their wrongs? If they truly had a change of heart and actually repented, they would be working on a salvation that they know they might possibly not receive, just to try to make things right.

How many of us humans would forgive these fallen angels for “ruining” the world? How many of us could pray and intercede for them knowing that they’re the reason the world is in a state of despair?

2. Howard Storm (Ex-Atheist)

If you’ve read some of my other posts, I mention near death experiences as a catalyst for some of my beliefs because of a few experiences I had that led me to them. I wasn’t near death, but the messages between my experiences and the nde’s were eerily similar which is what steered me in that direction to begin with.

Howard Storm’s testimony is probably one of the most prominent accounts of this phenomena, since he has encountered not only demons and angels, but Jesus Christ Himself. And this is when he was an atheist.

He tells the story of how he was a very manipulative and prideful professor. He would scorn and deride people who believe in God. Anything he did, was usually for his own benefit.

During his near death experience, he first encountered beings who were leading him down a gray, foggy path and he eventually realized that these beings were demons, who turned on him and started torturing him. But soon a voice within him spoke up and told him to “pray to God”. He lamented that he didn’t know how to pray, but after a couple of more prompts he finally was able to speak whatever saying had God’s name in it. “God bless America.” “The Lord is my shepherd I shall not want…”, etc. To his surprise, this enraged the demons and they started yelling and cussing at him that God doesn’t exist. This only encouraged him even more.

Pretty soon, he was left alone in this dark, foggy mist; broken, torn and hopeless. After awhile, he again heard a voice within himself:

I heard very clearly, once again in my own voice, something that I had learned in nursery Sunday School. It was the little song, “Jesus loves me, yes I know …” and it kept repeating. I don’t know why, but all of a sudden I wanted to believe that. Not having anything left, I wanted to cling to that thought. And I, inside, screamed, “Jesus, please save me.”

– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

To his astonishment, Jesus did. In his testimony, he relays how Jesus Christ as a being of light came to him and took him out of this pit of despair and showed him many things, including his life review. He realized that he had been treating people the wrong way and was coached into how we should treat people – “love the one you’re with”.

A few other mentions of this guidance are the following that they told Howard Storm:

They explained to me that their concern was for all the people of the world. They weren’t interested in one group getting ahead of other groups. They want every person to consider every other person greater than their own flesh. They want everyone to love everyone else, completely; more, even, than they love themselves. If someone, someplace else in the world hurts, than we should hurt we should feel their pain. And we should help them.

– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

Howard Storm recorded how his light being friends told him, in 1985, that the Cold War would soon end, because, “God is changing the hearts of people to love around the world.”

– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

Due to this experience, Howard Storm himself had a change of heart. He went from an avowed atheist, scorning others and thinking he was above them, to a humble believer, even quitting his job as an art professor, and becoming a Christian minister. He has ministered to many others about Jesus Christ and to love others.

3. Ronald Bernard (ex-banker)

Ronald Bernard is a Dutch man who has told his story on various platforms including youtube, that you can watch here:

This video shows English subtitles and an English voice-over as well. There are other videos that are translated in other languages and just have subtitles if that is preferred. I put this video to start at 23:00 which, I feel, thrusts us into the culmination of his testimony and lasts for around 5-6 minutes, but I encourage the reader to watch the whole video for a better understanding of his history.

EDIT (November 29, 2020): This original article came out on November 17, 2020 when I posted this youtube video. However, it is now apparently set to private… very odd.

Here is a link of the same video from bitchute:
Ex Dutch Banker Ronald Bernard Exposes the Elite (Part 1,2,3)

His is an eye-opening and somber account of his days working with what many accuse of as the “elite”, or the “global leaders”, “zionists”, “illuminati”… there are many words that people attribute to this group, whether it is just speculation or true is still up for debate among the theorists. But one thing seems to be clear, a cabal certainly exists.

As he tells it, he used to work for this group and even seemed to have the same personality and belief (or non-belief) structures as them. That they were the ones in power with the money and authority, and everyone else was just pawns and beneath them. He would laugh and scorn with the others when someone lost their livelihood and he didn’t care about other’s terrible plight.

One example he gave was when an owner went bankrupt due to their handling of a financial situation, and the owner committed suicide, leaving a family behind. Ronald admits that he and his comrades laughed at this tragic misfortune. In his own words, “We looked down on people, mocked them, it was just a product, waste, everything was worthless trash.”

In fact, he even knew of the dark, corrupted agendas behind a lot of the twisted organizations that were within his entrepreneurial circle. He knew about human trafficking, drugs, creating wars and financial crisis – since he was the one handling some of the monetary situations it called for him to basically turn a blind eye to all of this depravity and deception.

And eventually, it would all culminate and lead him into a change of heart.

The tipping point, he says, happened during an event that he was invited to. At first he was invited to the smaller parties and some of the activities they participated in even amused him. Since he didn’t believe in God or the devil, he was mostly entertained with their debauched revelry. It wasn’t until they asked of him a very serious initiation rite, did he finally crack and his conscience broke through.

They asked him to sacrifice a child.

It was this that finally reached through to Ronald Bernard’s cold heart and he realized that the spiritual battle between good and evil is true.

For those that don’t think this is happening in today’s society, Ronald’s testimony brings us back to the biblical accounts and reminds us that these sacrificial practices and immorality never stopped. These certain factions have continued their depraved lifestyle and still work behind the veil to “honor” their false idols and “gods”.

If someone like Ronald Bernard could have a change of heart while being in the midst of these wicked and depraved individuals, we can only hope and pray that others will follow suit and turn towards the love and light instead of remaining in the evil and darkness that threatens to corrupt their soul. As long as you are still living, you have the chance at redemption but you must start NOW. We don’t know when Jesus will return, but I pray that you (and us all) will be ready when He does.

4. Howard Pittman (Christian minister)

Howard Pittman is another person who has had a near death experience which has enlightened him to the reality of the life he was really living.

At first, when he was taken to God and approached Him with a plea to return to his physical life, he truly felt as if everything he had done in his life was for God. He had ministered about Him, testified about Jesus Christ, and earnestly thought he had lived a life pleasing to God.

However, upon hearing God’s awesome voice about the truth of the matter, Howard Pittman was faced with the condemning fact that everything he had done, was really only for himself. He took pride in his own ministry and gave himself credit for doing such great work, although God revealed to him that he was doing all of this “work” solely to save himself and soothe his own conscience, instead of for the genuine love he has for God and Jesus and humankind.

The sound of His voice came down on me from over the Gates even before the words hit me. The tone of His anger knocked me on my face as God proceeded to tell me just what kind of life I had really lived. He told me what He really thought of me and even others who did as I had. He pointed out that my faith was DEAD, that my works were NOT ACCEPTABLE, and that I had labored in VAIN. He told me that it was an abomination for me to live such a life and then dare call it a life of worship. Furthermore, He said to those who do it, they are in danger of experiencing His everlasting wrath. As God dealt with me, He displayed His wrath to me. Notice, it was not His everlasting wrath. He did say there are some who will experience His everlasting wrath.
I could not believe He was talking to me in this manner! I had served Him for years! I thought I had lived a life pleasing to Him! As He was enumerating my wrongs, I was sure He had me confused with someone else. There was no strength left in me to even move, let alone protest, yet I was panicking within myself. No way He could be talking about me! All of these years I thought I was doing those works for God! Now He was telling me that what I did, I did for myself. Even as I preached and testified about the saving grace of Jesus Christ, I was doing that only for myself in order that my conscience might be soothed. In essence, my first love and first works were for myself. After MY needs and wants were met or satisfied, in order to soothe my conscience I would set out to do the Lord’s work. This made my priorities out of order and unacceptable. Actually, I had become my own false God.

– Howard Pittman (near-death.com)

It is a startling, chilling revelation made even starker by Pittman’s surety all through his life that he was doing the right thing. Imagine how many more Christians and believers have the same mentality. That they are saved and doing God’s good work, only to realize that deep inside, they are doing these things for show and to clear their own conscience.

God knows what’s inside our hearts. He knows if we are sincere in our actions and who are just going through the motions and speaking with their lips that they are believers, but not truly having faith and living a holy life that they should be. Howard Pittman was hit with this bleak epiphany that perfectly embodies the following verse:

22 Many will say to Me on that day, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in Your name, and in Your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?’ 23 Then I will tell them plainly, ‘I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness!

Matthew 7:22-23

Thanks to his experience, he was able to recognize and witness this prime example of his self-idolization and turned his life around to preaching about God and Jesus Christ with his heart, and implored others to do the same.

As long as their hearts remain in the world, they will be in danger of everlasting punishment. From the scriptures we clearly understand that wherever a man’s heart is, there his treasure is also: and that anyone whose heart is in the world will not even have his own soul to treasure.

– Howard Pittman (near-death.com)

Yes, having a change of heart is possible. Praying for people, whether they are our enemies or a loved one, is important and something that is asked of us to remain walking with the Lord. His commandment is: “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.” – John 13:34

We are also asked to forgive one another. When people display a true, honest change of heart, how cruel would it be if we were to turn our backs on them and deny them any sort of mercy or understanding? Yes, some crimes and sins are absolutely deplorable and heartbreaking, but we must realize as well, are some of these actions being directed by an outside source that we are cannot yet comprehend? The testimonies from the above accounts mention fallen angels, demons, luciferian worship, etc. Perhaps us unsuspecting humans are susceptible to these evil spirits and this is what leads us to growing a cold, uncaring heart…

Of course, we should not simply blame these evil spirits for our misdeeds. After all, we have the choice to follow through with the actions or not due to our free will. It would be a damaging oversight to attribute all of our sins to outside forces especially since God knows what’s in our hearts and who would be genuinely misguided, and who is using this as an excuse to deny any kind of accountability.

As I’ve mentioned before, as long as you’re still breathing, you have the chance at redemption should you have a change of heart and seek love and truth. And if you are already on the “right path”, then I would ask of you to pray for others as well, that they may see the truth and seek forgiveness.

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These are real experiences I’ve had that I’ve written down and shared on 2016. The original testimony appeared here – reprinted with some slight alterations/additions.

What I’m about to share, are three experiences I’ve had that I can only describe as being near death-like. I have wondered and struggled with the thoughts of ‘Why did I have these experiences? What am I supposed to do with this knowledge? Why me? What do you want me to do?’ So I have finally decided to get the word out and share this with others.

(Let it be noted that I am a completely sane and rational person. 😛 And if truth be told, I am sure many people have gone through similar things as I have, but feel lost as to what to do or who to share it with, at the risk of sounding crazy or ridiculed. Luckily I have very little shame, but a lot of emotion, so needed to get this message out. And I have carefully thought about others dismissing my stories outright because it is not a ‘true’ NDE, but rather near death-like, and I am okay with that. I just wanted to share these instances in the hopes that it might reach someone who needs it.)

1. A Glimpse Into the Omniscience

This first event, happened in 1995. I was riding in the back of my parent’s car looking out the window, just contemplating, when I wondered to myself with an innocent curiosity, ‘Hm… I wonder why that sign is red and white… Why did the owners choose those colors?’ Then suddenly it HIT me! Everything! The answers to everything. I KNEW everything. I knew why the signs were that color, I knew why fish swam, I knew why we do the things we do, I knew why we were here, I knew everything there was to know. It was so instantaneous; like a split second. And obviously I couldn’t contain all the knowledge. It happened so fast, and so much information all at once, that it was just a huge flash of insight.

Unfortunately, because of the vast information afforded to me, I couldn’t retain any of it. It was almost like a swift gust of wind that just blows past you. You know it happened, but you have no evidence of it. I’ve asked family and friends if they’ve ever had anything similar happen to them, but was always answered with a ‘no’. …Which is what later in life prompted me to research up on this subject and see if anyone else has experienced something like it. And that is what led me to NDEs. A lot of their stories seem to include a huge download of information, as if everything is already known… ‘we’ just ‘forget’ because we WANT TO for the sake of learning and growing spiritually, or simply because with our human mind, we can’t comprehend all of it.

2. Hearing Voices

Now this event I was significantly more hesitant in telling people… I have only told two people as I’m typing this up…

This incident happened in 2010. So it’s been about 5-6 years since this happened. And again, I didn’t get into NDEs until later. Not until around 2014-now.

Well, I was lying in bed and I had just woken up. As in, my mind woke up. I was still laying peacefully in bed, my eyelids haven’t even had a chance to open. Well, out of nowhere (in my head?) I heard this voice speaking to me.

Now, I know what dreams are. (Well, not REALLY, but I AM familiar with them. Written down 2,000+.. not to mention the many, MANY dreams I haven’t written down.) I am also familiar with hypnagogic/hypnopompic hallucinations and have experienced several different dream states (lucid dreams/OBEs/false awakenings/consciously entered a dream, etc.).

THIS didn’t seem like a dream to me.

Again, I was very conscious. But before I could even open my eyes, I heard the voice. Clearly a male voice. It couldn’t have been my own thoughts in my head. I could also feel vibrations along with his voice. (I’m also familiar with the vibrations when trying to induce OBEs/lucid dreams. Had a few, but not nearly as many as I’d like.) And this event was very clear, concise, and not hallucinatory at all.

Anyway, this voice was asking me a very specific question(s). He was asking me if I could forgive *insert name here*. Some of these people I knew, and some I didn’t (at least, I don’t believe I did..). Each name that the voice gave me, I automatically knew insights into them. As to what they have done – the sins they committed, what kind of person they were. I responded each time with my answer. Some I would forgive, some I wouldn’t. I had to contemplate on a couple.

Well, here’s the interesting part. Each time I replied with a forgiving answer, I would feel the vibrations getting stronger. When I wouldn’t forgive the person, the vibrations would fade away. Each time this happened. I would forgive a person, the vibrations would come back, and grow stronger with each forgiving answer. If I felt like ‘no, I wouldn’t forgive them’ these vibrations would fade, get weaker. He must have asked me at least 5 or 6 different people, and my answers were about 2/3 in favor of forgiveness. Maybe even half.

Flunking Grade?

Finally after the last person, the voice diminished/faded as well as the vibrations. My last answer must have been a negative. I realized after this experience that I was supposed to answer with all forgiveness. NO MATTER WHAT. It seems so inconceivable to me to forgive a murderer, rapist, etc. It’s against human morals, right? But this “test”, I call it, clearly wanted my answers to be all forgiving.

For some reason, I was being tested. This voice, whoever it was, seemed to be monitoring my answers and showing me, through vibrations, what path I was supposed to take. I’ve had to research further into what these vibrations mean. I mean, I don’t need “scientific evidence” to back all these claims up. I figure a multitude of people’s testimony is sufficient enough for me, especially when I’ve experienced first-hand similar things. So up until my research into vibrations, I figured it was only a prelude to lucid dreams/OBEs. It’s what our spirit bodies experience when exiting our physical one. Seemed plausible enough to me. But when reading more into it, come to realize that the higher vibration you are, the more spiritually sound you are. (Metaphysically speaking.) We should be striving for the highest vibration there is. Which essentially means bettering ourselves in our lifetime(s). Not with physical/materialistic needs. But how we treat each other, how forgiving we are.

3. Look Within

So this most recent incident happened in 2014/2015. I was at a really low point in my life, just dejected and feeling torn, shattered. I was up and getting ready to start the day, and at one point just paused and stood in the living room, sadly contemplating the meaning of life, etc. Thinking to myself, ‘there has to be a meaning to all this’. Then, out of nowhere, in the back of my mind, heard the word ‘love’.

I admit, I kind of scoffed at the idea. I was like, ‘Ok. Fine. I’ll bite. But ONLY if you give me a sign. Not just one. You show me the word ‘love’ three times today, and I’ll believe you. But it has to be TODAY. All three, TODAY.’ and kind of wished them good luck. (And I have no idea who I was requesting this to; a guardian, an angel, God, just whoever out there that may have implanted the word ‘love’ in my head. Or whether it was myself unknowingly answering the question. Regardless, I wanted my signs.)

So I went on my merry way, not really thinking anything about my prayer for signs. I did not want to go out of my way to *search* for the signs. That would’ve skewered my perception of it should it happen. It had to be something that would hit me without my influence.

Well, to make a very long story short, sure enough, it did.

The first sign I received was in the form of a bumper sticker:

“Love is the answer.” Straight away I saw it. I was impressed, but was still adamant that I see the sign two more times that day.

The second showed itself on a billboard: “Love heals.” and showed adult(s)/child(ren) smiling.

The third happened just 14 minutes before midnight, as if deliberately making me wait after I had all but given up hope of seeing it a third time. It was from an internet article ad saying “Meditate on Love.” I was a bit shaken up, because I was almost certain at that point that I wasn’t going to get the third sign. It had pretty much slipped my mind and my mentality was, ‘I knew I wasn’t going to see it.’ and left it at that. So the sign hitting me that late, was like a slap in the face. A huge wake-up call. (And a sweet friend that I have sadly lost touch with pointed out to me that the sign appeared when there was just 1% left of the day.)

It was also *fascinating* to me that ALL three signs not only contained the word ‘love’, but also used it in simple, yet significant messages. It wasn’t something like ‘I love my convertible mustang.’ Every single sign given to me had a meaning behind it, which just drove the point home further.

And you would think that’d be the end of that incident.

But no! I had another one, that deals with the same message. When most of us go through life, we tend to want to rationalize or think things through with a ‘logical’ perspective. So later, a year later perhaps, I was questioning the signs I received. What if it was all a fluke? What if it was one of those crazy coincidences? Or, what if I’m completely off my rocker and there’s nothing significant out there and I’m just reaching for straws? Would the universe *really* give me another sign if I asked for it again? Should I ask for it again? Wouldn’t that be selfish and annoying to ask for another sign even though I already received it? – All these things were going through my head that day.

Well, as I was taking my sister and son out to lunch that day, had ordered my food and something compelled me to read a single, solitary sign that was hanging up in the back of the restaurant. I had to physically get up out of my seat to read it. It was just curious to me that the one sign they had was back there and I felt pushed to read it.

I go up to read it, not expecting anything, and here’s what I was greeted with:

It managed to give me all 3 of my signs; the word ‘love’, 3 times, in one sign.

I struggled to hold back tears as I was with my sister and son and didn’t want to confuse them as to why I was crying. It’s been something I kept to myself because… who would believe something like this? That I ‘heard’ a voice telling me that ‘love’ is why we’re here…? And that I questioned the universe (or whoever/whatever) and they’re responding?

So I have to get this out because why else would I be getting these ‘messages’? I feel as if I need to share this with others, even if people might not believe me, as long as I get the word out, maybe they’ll keep it in the back of their head and let the thought grow that it is a possibility that there’s something more to this world than we originally thought.

And thank you so much for reading. I’ve noticed in an abundant number of NDEs that ‘love and forgiveness’ are a running theme, and my experiences are what led me to looking up NDEs in the first place, and that they were eerily similar. Felt like it was important that I share these.

Thank you again for reading and I hope this resonates with you. If there are any stories or testimonies that you’d like to share, please let me know. I would love to be able to spread these messages and get others on the same wavelength. Love and blessings to you all.

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What is “Being Successful”?

The answer may surprise you.

What does “success” mean to you?

Perhaps getting a promotion at your job? Rising to the top of the ranks? Getting good grades in school? Scoring a perfect game? Having a large family with a nice big house, perfect yard, white picket fence? Owning your own business?

All of these are very ambitious goals to have.

And, ultimately, don’t matter.

The Key to Success

If you’re familiar with this site, you’ll know that I cover a wide range of different topics to spread awareness. Some are more of a guideline into becoming more kind and compassionate – to change the world for the better; and some take a trip down the dark side – going into awful, depraved things that are going on that the world NEEDS to know.

Both of these go hand in hand because how do we improve our future, if the darkness remains and is allowed to run rampant while we all turn a blind eye?

“Why is all of this relevant to my success?” you may ask?

It has EVERYTHING to do with it.

Let me explain.

I already know I will get doubters and naysayers thinking that this site is just another woo-woo site. And I’m perfectly okay with that. After all, who said the universe had to be anything but “natural”? It most certainly isn’t. Or is it? Perhaps the “supernatural” simply doesn’t exist, and everything is, at it’s core, “natural”.

With that being said, I am also a huge proponent of near death experiences. Why? Because I have personally had a few experiences that I could not simply explain away as “natural”. And they were eerily similar to nde’s. Let me be clear. I was not near death. I don’t drink or do drugs. I wasn’t dreaming or hallucinating. How else could I explain it?

Oh, right. I must be crazy!

That’s obviously the only other rational explanation here. Right? Even more obvious than there really is something more going on than meets the eye, and we’re all just full of our own pride and hubris to admit it. Because, after all, it’s been admitted by scientists and researchers all over the world that we know absolutely everything there is to know about the universe. Case closed, everyone. No more mysteries. Everything’s been solved!

Oh. That’s right. That’s never been said in the history of ever.

(Yes, I may show a slight sarcasm at times. My apologies.)

Getting back into it, my own experiences forced me to take a look outside of my own scope of understanding. Now for those who have never had an unusual experience? I cannot say. If I had never had this happen to me, would I be the person I am today? Most likely not. I was heading down the WRONG path. And I actually surmise that ALL of us go through these unusual experiences at least once in our life, but we explain it away with a “logical” explanation. Therefore diminishing the actual impact it may have had on our life.

I know the topic of near death experiences is a controversial one. But isn’t it interesting that SO many people come back with a message that contradicts the way they were living life on Earth? Let’s take a look at one of the more prominent examples of Howard Storm.

His idea of success was like most people. Do well in school. Have a great career. Make a lot of money. Be respected and revered in his community and among his colleagues.

But during his near death experience, he was met with a HUGE wake-up call:

Howard Storm

My life was shown in a way that I had never thought of before. All of the things that I had worked to achieve, the recognition that I had worked for, in elementary school, in high school, in college, and in my career, they meant nothing in this setting.

I could feel their feelings of sorrow and suffering, or joy, as my life’s review unfolded. They didn’t say that something was bad or good, but I could feel it. And I could sense all those things they were indifferent to. They didn’t, for example, look down on my high school shot-put record. They just didn’t feel anything towards it, nor towards other things which I had taken so much pride in.

What they responded to was how I had interacted with other people. That was the long and short of it. Unfortunately, most of my interactions with other people didn’t measure up with how I should have interacted, which was in a loving way. Whenever I did react during my life in a loving way they rejoiced.

Most of the time I found that my interactions with other people had been manipulative. During my professional career, for example, I saw myself sitting in my office, playing the college professor, while a student came to me with a personal problem. I sat there looking compassionate, and patient, and loving, while inside I was bored to death. I would check my watch under my desk as I anxiously waited for the student to finish.

I got to go through all those kinds of experiences in the company of these magnificent beings.

When I was a teenager my father’s career put him into a high-stress, twelve-hour-a-day job. Out of my resentment because of his neglect of me, when he came home from work, I would be cold and indifferent toward him. This made him angry, and it gave me further excuse to feel hatred toward him. He and I fought, and my mother would get upset. Most of my life I had felt that my father was the villain and I was the victim. When we reviewed my life I got to see how I had precipitated so much of that, myself. Instead of greeting him happily at the end of a day, I was continually putting thorns in him in order to justify my hurt.

I got to see when my sister had a bad night one night, how I went into her bedroom and put my arms around her. Not saying anything, I just lay there with my arms around her. As it turned out that experience was one of the biggest triumphs of my life.
– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

In his testimony, Howard Storm is basically admitting his shortcomings of what was expected of him. He realized that his idea of success was met with indifference and did not matter in the grand scheme of things. What actually mattered was how he treated others. Which begs the questions, “What does “success” really mean for us?”

My friends then said, “Do you think that we expect you to be perfect, after all the love we feel for you, even after you were on Earth blaspheming God, and treating everyone around you like dirt? And this, despite the fact that we were sending people to try and help you, to teach you the truth? Do you really think we would be apart from you now?”

– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

It’s also interesting how Howard Storm refers to himself and how he treated people. He acknowledges that he “treated them like dirt”. It takes a humble and insightful person to come to this realization. (Or a person who has been enlightened by a divine encounter…)

When he [Jesus] told me that I had to come back to the world and I was trying to convince him not to send me back to this world, I asked him what would I do if I came back… Before he had a chance to answer, I said, you know I am an artist and I would like to build you a shrine… I would make this shrine so big and beautiful and bizarre that people would come from all over the world out of curiosity to see what it was about. And what they would find was it would be about you. And that would make them think about you. That’s what I would like to do if I came back.
He said, I would rather you didn’t do that.
And I said, WHAT?!! People have been building shrines to you forever. There are lots of shrines. Why can’t I build a shrine? I would like to build a shrine.
He said you spent so much of your life hiding out in the studio, avoiding people, I would prefer it if you didn’t avoid people by building this big shrine… I don’t really care about shrines. People like to build shrines. I understand that. It makes them feel good. It does absolutely nothing for me or for God. We don’t have any use for them whatsoever. If that’s what amuses you, I guess that’s what you gotta do. But don’t do it for me. Don’t deceive yourself into thinking it’s something I want or need, because I don’t.
I’m like, OK, you shot down my idea, what’s you’re idea of what would I do?
And he said, love the person that you’re with.
And I said, OK, great, I’ll do that. No problem. What do you want me to do?
He said, I just told you what I want you to do: love the person that you’re with.
And I said, Yeah, but after I do that, what do you really want me to do?
No, that is what I want you to do: love the person that you’re with.
I said well, that’s simple enough, that’s easy, I can do that.
And he said, oh really. Well, that’s what I want you to do. That’s enough.
And I said, how is it enough?
He said, if you do that, you’ll change the world.
– Howard Storm (near-death.com)

Again, Howard Storm admits that his idea of how he wanted to honor God/Jesus was shot down. Instead, he was given a very direct task. That didn’t have anything to do with Howard’s profession or what he actually wanted to do – what he thought was the best way to honor God. No, he was simply told to “love the person you’re with”.

Dr. Dianne Morrissey

Dianne Morrissey has also experienced a life review in which her acts of unselfish kindness overrode anything else she did in life.

“At the same time, to my amazement, I was re-living my entire twenty-eight years simultaneously! The best experiences brought me feelings of great joy, as if God were talking to me through the angelic being, sharing the highest moments of my life. I felt as if every spirit in Heaven was watching with me, applauding me and letting me know that God approved of my caring, unselfish deeds. It was then that I asked myself, ‘Am I dead? Am I really dead?’
“As the life review continued, I was shown two very special deeds I had performed. As these scenes were displayed before me, every emotion I had originally felt returned in full force. I also felt as if God and the angelic being were honoring me for having performed those deeds.
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“The first deed I witnessed had occurred the day I stopped my car to help push a woman’s stalled station wagon out of mainstream traffic and into a supermarket driveway. The driver had been struggling to push the car by herself, and I felt compelled to give her a helping hand. After I had helped push her vehicle to safety, I rushed back to my car, afraid of getting a ticket for being double-parked. In my haste, I hadn’t given her a chance to thank me. While reviewing this scene, I was filled with indescribable feelings of love, which seemed to be directed to me from angelic beings high above me.

“Then, my angel showed me a second vision, a scene I’d forgotten. I now saw myself at seventeen, when I’d worked at a convalescent hospital after school. I had grown fond of a toothless old woman who was no longer able to speak clearly, and who never had visitors. She liked to suck on graham crackers before going to bed, but no one wanted to serve her because when she had finished, she would drool as she kissed the entire length of the arm of the person feeding her. While others avoided her, I willingly fed her the cookies she adored, seeing how happy this made her.

“When that scene was replayed for me, I felt as if every loving spirit in God’s kingdom was thanking me in unison. I was amazed that such an act could have meant so much to God – and to me. I felt humbled and very honored.
Dr. Dianne Morrissey – (near-death.com)

During her return to her body, Dianne comes to the revelation that the “American dream” she had attained no longer mattered. And she regretted not living more meaningfully by reaching out to others:

“I finally found myself back in my house, once again looking down at my physical body. This time, I realized that my physical body had the potential to live again. I had begun to care less and less whether I returned to my physical body, but at this moment, looking down at my body, my attitude underwent a change. I thought, ‘How sad; she has done so very little.’ I realized ‘Dianne’ hadn’t touched as many people as she could have while alive. And I realized how life could be enriched by touching others lives more deeply and meaningfully.

“While alive, as Dianne, I had always known that my life was full of certain pleasures: a beautiful home, a good job, a nice car, warm friends, a wonderful family, a beloved best friend, and a musical career I loved. ‘But none of these matter any more,’ I thought, reversing myself again. Only the Light mattered. Only God mattered.
Dr. Dianne Morrissey – (near-death.com)

Daniel Rosenblit

Daniel explains how he felt towards his fellow man before he had his near death experience. He admits how condescending, inconsiderate, and rude he was to those he felt were “inferior”. He also explains how easily “success” came to him.

After my spiritual self died, I was neither interested in God, nor concerned about spiritual matters whatsoever. As I grew older it appeared to me that religious people were weak and used religion as their crutch. I considered myself to be a strong, self-reliant person who did not need any crutch, so I felt superior to them. I grew into puberty a purely carnal creature. Pretty girls and squeezing the gusto out of life became everything to me.
I was the type of person who was successful in everything I did. I was a good student and an excellent athlete – as a wrestler and football player. Though I was short in stature (5’6″), I won awards as a wrestler and was an exceptional running back in football. God blessed me with being an excellent football player and many of my classmates admired me for this. But instead of acknowledging God’s hand for my skills, I was becoming puffed-up with pride. I was not grateful to God, nor did I give Him any credit for anything (At this time in my life I doubted whether a Higher Power even existed).
I considered my friends and myself to be upper crust people, and I looked down with contempt on people in school who I viewed as physically weak. Additionally, I considered ugly or fat girls to be utterly useless. A few of my classmates would regularly make jokes directed at the mentally retarded and physically handicapped kids, or racist jokes directed against blacks or Puerto Ricans. I grew up in an all-white school. But I never laughed to their faces, but I laughed along with the crowd behind their backs. One exception was that I belittled a black fellow who was in my troop when I was a boy scout. I believed that there were a few winners and mostly losers in life, and I considered myself one of the winners.
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Note: At the time of my death experience, I was your typical narcissistic college student who was solely seeking personal pleasure and personal goals. Like most middle class young people in America, I had no responsibilities. With all my spare time and energy, I desperately tried to squeeze the most fun and pleasure out of life than I possibly could. Spiritual matters meant nothing to me.
Daniel Rosenblist – (near-death.com)

Here Daniel realizes that everything he strived for, everything he thought that mattered, was actually completely contradictory to what he was shown. And that he was doing everything wrong!

In this new divine light, I saw more Reality. The Reality was this:
My entire life had been one huge test and I was now being graded on literally everything! Every word, deed, and even thought!
Interestingly enough, my judge was not some immense being on a great white throne. Something had emerged from within myself which I believe was my soul, and “It” sat in judgment of me. I had never recalled ever being in touch with this part of myself before. My soul showed absolutely no partiality towards me, even though “It” had resided within me my entire life.
My own soul sat in Judgment of my entire life. It assumed a totally objective and impartial role. At this time I was fully aware that this soul of mine would just as soon plunge me into Hell rather than offend God. “It” knew perfection, which is God’s standard, and all of my actions were compared to this standard. By “perfection,” I mean pure, untainted Love.
Also, because I was living contrary to God’s ways, I learned that all of creation considered me their enemy and was poised to persecute me! I learned that all of creation serves God except for human beings. This is because we are the only creatures with free will. But most of us choose to misuse it!
I was shown that pure love was serving God and others without any self-centered motives. Even if one was motivated to perform a good deed in order to feel good about one’s own self or to attain future treasures in heaven, this would be considered to be a tainted act; totally unacceptable to God. I was shown that God only accepts selfless acts of love. God is Love. Love only recognizes love.
Daniel Rosenblist – (near-death.com)

So what are we striving for? What is the REAL definition of “being successful”?

Since most of our neighbors – the entire human race – live their lives in darkness and are headed for very great sorrow at the time of death, we are real fools if we compare ourselves to them! God showed me the wise alternative is to compare ourselves to the holy ones … the saintly – people such as the eastern mystics, Mother Teresa, etc. Truly, God expects us all to become like these holy ones! I’m not kidding!! Indeed, God’s expectations of our character are far, far higher than most realize or want to admit! Jesus taught people to ”be perfect as your Father is in Heaven.” My friends, this is not an opinion. It is a commandment! He fully expects us to sincerely strive for it!
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The Holy One showed me that throughout my entire life, my ego had occupied the center-stage of my life. I had lived solely for gratifying myself. I was motivated by self-interest in everything that I did; though, I had never consciously thought about this before. The foundation of my life was myself and all of my actions were performed to obtain some type of reward for myself; either tangible or intangible. Either I wanted money, sex, a pat on the back, a wink, a smile, someone to think well of me, etc. Thus, all of my acts had been polluted by selfish motives in varying degrees. Thus, until this point all of my life’s deeds had been totally unacceptable to God!
Actually, I was shown that I had not even performed one deed that was acceptable to God my entire life; not even one! I was shattered, speechless, and panic stricken all at the same time. I cried, “I cannot believe it, I have wasted my entire life!” I had absolutely nothing to show for all my entire time spent on Earth.
Fun and pleasure, which were once everything to me, were not in my mind anymore. At this point, all that mattered to me was to find pure acts of love to offer up to God so that He would accept them. I feverishly searched, but to my dismay I could not find any!
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If I would have attained the kingdom of God, I would have passed the most important test one will ever encounter. Compared to this test, all other tests are worth less than nothing. Only if you pass this test has your life been successful. This is the test of your character or the “Test of Life.” Believe me, whether we like it or not, the Lord is testing us all! Having an impeccable character is far more valuable than winning the Powerball Lotto! It is the absolute prerequisite to attaining God consciousness.
Daniel Rosenblist – (near-death.com)

I highly encourage you to check out these testimonies in full, as well as research these in general. Another informative and enlightening account is by Howard Pittman, a Christian minister who actually realized that all of his preaching meant nothing in the eyes of God, simply because he was doing it as a self-preservation. Very detailed and harrowing look into what we think makes a good, successful person, as opposed to the reality.

Even if one is an atheist and doesn’t believe in God, these are still key lessons to live in life. Although, in my humble opinion, the “belief in God” should at least be considered. After all, perhaps “God” as we assume the term to mean, isn’t correct. Perhaps “God” simply means “Love”. If you know and live in love, even if you’re an atheist, then you still believe in God, whether you realize it or not.

The below links also gives us an insight into what a lot of people thought on their deathbed without having a near death experience. Taking into account the way they lived their life and the things they wished they would have done differently.

Hint: None of them ever say, “I wish I had worked harder.”

Top 7 Life Regrets and Lessons Taught by People on Deathbed – (trendsnhealth.com)
The Top 5 Regrets People Have on Their Deathbed – (thenextweb.com)

Notice how none of these life reviews ever mention how well they did on those tests in school. Or “congratulations on getting that promotion”. Or, “Wow! All that money you made was great!”

Same with the deathbed confessions.

Most of the insights from both of these avenues is that it’s all about how we treat each other. Or how little time we spent with each other and the regret that arises from that.

It reminds me of this incredibly sad, but relatable song:

Lyrics: Harry Chapin “Cats in the Cradle” – metrolyrics.com

My child arrived just the other day
He came to the world in the usual way
But there were planes to catch and bills to pay
He learned to walk while I was away
And he was talkin’ ‘fore I knew it, and as he grew
He’d say, “I’m gonna be like you, dad
You know I’m gonna be like you”

And the cat’s in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin’ home dad?
I don’t know when, but we’ll get together then son
You know we’ll have a good time then

My son turned ten just the other day
He said, “Thanks for the ball, dad, come on let’s play
Can you teach me to throw”, I said, “Not today
I got a lot to do”, he said, “That’s okay”
And he walked away but his smile never dimmed
And said, “I’m gonna be like him, yeah
You know I’m gonna be like him”

And the cat’s in the cradle and the silver spoon
Little boy blue and the man on the moon
When you comin’ home son?
I don’t know when, but we’ll get together then, son
You know we’ll have a good time then

Well, he came home from college just the other day
So much like a man I just had to say
“Son, I’m proud of you, can you sit for a while?”
He shook his head and said with a smile
“What I’d really like, dad, is to borrow the car keys
See you later, can I have them please?”

I’ve long since retired, my son’s moved away
I called him up just the other day
I said, “I’d like to see you if you don’t mind”
He said, “I’d love to, dad, if I can find the time
You see my new job’s a hassle and kids have the flu
But it’s sure nice talking to you, dad
It’s been sure nice talking to you”

And as I hung up the phone it occurred to me
He’d grown up just like me
My boy was just like me

Yes, at the moment, we are tied to societal rules of having a job in order to “make a living”. At least until we step away from this man-made (“man-made”? Some people would refute that…) heirarchy and start working together.

Until then, our main purpose is clear. The way to success, the only success that matters, is to treat each other with love and compassion. Everyday that we strive to become better, kinder people, no matter what arena of life we’re in, we will be successful. And we will be building an even more successful future for the Earth and humankind.

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