All Roads Lead to the Same Destination: Two Ultimate Paths to Choose From

Which path are you on?

So now we come to the precipice.

Seeing all of the corrupt and outrageous actions taking place in our world today (or perhaps it’s always been there; for years/decades/centuries… and people wise up to it (or don’t) on their own time), we must ask ourselves what it all boils down to.

What is the end-game?

What do we do?

Now, I have made a list of some of the possible routes that people/individuals/humanity can go down. Assessing all of these paths, ultimately it culminates into TWO paths that one can choose from.

You’ve likely heard of the verse,  “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.”Matthew 7:13-14

Well, this idea fits in nicely here. A little too nicely. In fact, it fits in so well, that there’s little room to wonder if this may have been misconstrued in some way.

But, I will offer these paths for others to consider, for your reflection. This is based on what I have seen, my beliefs, and my opinion. To be clear, this is not meant to offend anyone. Only to present the separate groups that I see people dividing into.

What do you think? Do you agree/disagree? Is there a path I’m missing? While at first glance it may seem to be unfair to box people in these separate groups, I am merely trying to outline the different paths that I see people taking as things progress during our lives. And likely, many of these paths have been taken by us as individuals at some point. Until we finally settle into one that fits us.

Ultimately, we will all come to the same place – but what happens after that remains to be seen. And I would very much like it to see people on the right side of history.

1st Path – the 3 D’s – Destruction/Disruption/Disorder

There are those who live in chaos. They love drama – causing it, being involved it, watching it… Even if some will not admit to it and/or they will deny it, there are individuals who enjoy a crazy/hectic life.

This isn’t “evil” per se, but when we see the Bible verse above specifically mention that the wide gate leads to ‘destruction’ (in other versions, it is translated as: ‘hell’ – New Life Version / ‘death’ – The Voice / ‘perdition, damnation’ – Wycliffe Bible), one can make the correlation that to seek this lifestyle would lead to one’s destruction.

And then there are those, of course, who know full well the actions they are taking. Deliberately causing mayhem, wars, hatred, anger, violence… There are of course many references to the secret societies of the world, the “hidden hand”, whose motto “order out of chaos”, fits very well into this scenario.

Yet again, there will be those who, separate from the secret societies, follow this sinful lifestyle and revel in it. Perhaps they know no better. Or perhaps they know exactly who they’re following by going down this road. Perhaps they’re of the belief that nothing happens to us after we die and there will be no judgement. We just cease to exist.

Perhaps they’re of the belief that “life” is for us to enjoy it, sins and all, free will, do what thou wilt, etc. Perhaps they seek the worldly life and those of the world – riches, fame, power… which brings me to the next path.

2nd Path – The Ways of the World

“Do not love the world or the things in the world. If anyone loves the world, the love of the Father is not in him. For all that is in the world—the lust of the flesh, the lust of the eyes, and the pride of life—is not of the Father but is of the world. And the world is passing away, and the lust of it; but he who does the will of God abides forever. – 1 John 2:15-17

Sadly, there are many who seek this path. We have been so inured to seek the “successful” life – whatever “successful” means in a normal social setting – high-paying career, family, 3 story house, promotion, Maserati, the most friends/followers on tiktok, the greenest yard in the neighborhood, winning the Nobel Prize, etc., etc., etc. that we end up losing sight of what really matters.

It is not just the most famous of celebrities, or the highest-bribed paid politicians, or the corrupted healthcare workers and scientists keeping their silence for money and to maintain their reputation… these are also everyday ordinary citizens that prize money, recognition, their status, other people, etc. that they will literally choose the ways of the world over their salvation.

Even if they consider that it is not the best route for them spiritually, they will be tempted by the allure of what the world can offer them. The physical/materialistic aspects are tangible, pleasing to the eye; monetary wealth/fame can boost one’s image/ego. Even if they plan to follow the RIGHT path at some point, they put that on hold until they decide if and when it’s right. If they even ever make this choice (or have the chance to…).

This group also, in my opinion, includes the Lukewarm Christians. Those who may proclaim with their mouth that they follow Jesus Christ, but in their heart they are still tied into the worldly system – debts/mortgages to pay, the safety net of a job/career, the need to attend a prestigious college, going to church only to fulfill obligation or because of habit, the desires to adhere to a strict set of rules for the illusion of temporary granted freedoms…

When push comes to shove, the lukewarm Christians sit on the fence until they are finally forced to make a choice – and sadly, many of them will choose the wide/easy path.

3rd Path – The Clueless / Deniers

As much evidence and proof there is of heinous agendas by those in positions that they shouldn’t be in, there will be a group of people that are either utterly clueless to these kinds of activities, and/or they will outright deny that this is even happening. Even as the atrocities pile up all around them, the bubble they live in will not allow them to see/admit when things have gotten out of hand.

Their refusal or blissful ignorance keeps them from seeing the truth of the ways of the world,

“My people perish for lack of knowledge.” – Hosea 4:6

They are darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their hardness of heart. – Ephesians 4:18

From this group, the efforts to debunk, ridicule, scorn those who do believe that the world is excessively heading towards a bleak, dark future and who are trying to alert others, will give rise to a form of indifference/passiveness that influence others into the belief that the “conspiracy theories” of our time are just that. Fruitless conspiracy theories that have no basis in reality.

So even if the evidence is there, it will be ignored and bypassed as just coincidental, weird occurrences that have no affect in the ways we live our lives. Letting the wickedness run rampant freely with little to no opposition, or even acknowledgement from the people on this path.

4th Path – The Follower

A saying that I, for one, have gotten morosely too familiar with these last couple of years, is, “Everyone else was doing it. So I followed along.”

The need to “fit in”, to not be “left out”, to “follow the group”… Regardless if they were for or against the ideologies set forth by the so-called majority… once they see their friends, families, co-workers, strangers, people around them following a set-up paradigm, they will accept it as a part of their normal lifestyle. They will let it integrate into their life, either without so much as a single thought, or even just silently going along with the motions.

This leads to a very severe upset in the way that a society is run.

Imagine the very same tyrannical forces that enjoy disruption and chaos from the 1st path, employing their dictatorship and anarchy on to the rest of the world, and enforcing their beliefs on to the rest of the world. Now imagine the population, even if hesitant or resistant to it at first, slowly becoming indoctrinated, habituated, desensitized – to the initially outrageous and preposterous proposals set forth by these establishments?

This is exactly what’s going on in the world right now, with such escalating force and alarming speed, that if one isn’t paying attention, they will easily be swept into this immoral culture without a clue how they got there. And will they stand up against it? The people in this group will not. They will go along with it. Because even by the time they notice it is happening (if they even do), the majority has already accepted it. And they will follow, if only for the sole reason to not be ostracized.

5th Path – The Lost Sheep

Sadly, while not necessarily under the “follower” path, the lost sheep are the ones who have been led astray and deceived/manipulated into believing that certain systems/structures being set in place are what’s right.

Whether they are being indoctrinated by “educators”, taught their ideologies from their parents, misled by their pastors, outrightly lied to by “experts” or authority figures… the people that fall in this group have been tricked, scammed and misguided.

I have a level of sympathy for the people in this group. They are doing what they believe is right by listening to the people that they were taught to trust. Throughout our youth, who were we taught to trust? Our parents, our teachers, law enforcement, doctors, pastors… we are taught exclusively not to trust strangers – even if those strangers are simply concerned citizens on the internet.

It should make sense. However, for those in authority, it’s quite easy for people in those positions to abuse their authority. “Absolute power corrupts absolutely.” This can be construed in a couple of ways. The original meaning: those in power end up being corrupted, OR, one can look at it as: those in power corrupt others.

This could fall under a cult-like inclination, perhaps a vicious cycle that perpetuates unorthodox teachings, misled belief structures in certain institutions and agendas… and, in some cases, this is by very strategic and deliberate design. 

6th Path – Give Up / Give In

In this path, there will either be those who have given up on humanity and leave them to their own devices, doom, demise… what have you, although they themselves are fully aware of what’s going on. Perhaps they are of the mentality that nothing they can do or say will amount to anything, so they choose not to do anything. Or perhaps they simply don’t care. They are not necessarily for the immoralities going on in the world – but rather they see no way to stop it, and so have sat back to let the world do what it will.

Then there are those who have tried to set things right; bring attention to certain topics/subjects that people should address and change. They will try to tell others and spread awareness. But they will not be met with much luck and will realize that their attempts are futile.

While at first those in the second group were attempting a noble effort, the lack of the response they were hoping for gives rise to a certain apathy and will conclude, much like that of the first group, that nothing they say or do will change humanity for the better. So they essentially give up.

Even more tragic, there will be those who not only give up, but will give in. It’s one thing to remain resistant to immoral changes, but it’s an entirely different field to give in completely to the establishments that one was at first opposed against. This is not to imply that everyone will give in, because some will remain resistant. But there are some that will, sadly, cave in to the pressure – essentially joining the Followers of the 4th path.

7th Path – The 3 R’s: Resist/Rebel/Retaliate

While seeing all of the corruption and wickedness taking hold of the world may lead one to consider a “revolution” of some sort, initially, it would seem that this is the only path that one could take in order to “fight the establishment”; in order to stand up against dictatorship and tryanny.

And certainly, there will be people attempting to join this path – if not already on it.

However, while Resisting should most definitely be followed, as well as Rebelling to a certain degree, the last R – Retaliate, should be reconsidered. I would imagine most people in this group would Resist and Rebel, yet fall short of Retaliating.

Peaceful protests are fine, violently rioting/opposing is not. Openly declaring/discussing our beliefs, stances, disagreements are fine. Or it should be; however, as those who have been speaking out are finding out, censorship and the labeling of people who speak out as “dangerous dissenters” have taken a center stage by tptsb – involving everything and everyone from politicians, celebrities, mainstream media/social media, government agencies, educational/medical institutions, etc.

Physical retaliation, on the other hand, will give those on the 1st Path the Destruction/Disruption and Disorder that they desire. It brings us back full circle to perpetuate/perpetrate the chaos that those who want to initiate this kind of lifestyle on the population, and gives them the ammo to continue their agenda.

Having an aggressive, violent force opposing them will justify their own retaliative actions and will give them the vindication (at least in their own mind) that they were right in considering others as a danger to their own livelihood; even if they, themselves are naturally wicked, immoral, and destructive.

Again, this is only speaking of my own observations and theologies.

So while Resisting and Rebelling (peacefully) should be followed, the last R – Retaliation, would, in my opinion, give the globalists exactly what they want.

So, this brings me to the last path that I believe people can take; and most certainly SHOULD take. Even if it doesn’t make sense. Even if it sounds too easy. Too ridiculous. After studying the many different paths, this is the only one that I can see will make the best difference, or even the ONLY difference. Even if we don’t realize it, or don’t see it manifesting in the world… We have to wonder, what will it do to our own spirituality and enlightenment?

8th Path – The RIGHT Path

I have named this the “RIGHT” path, not only for its double entendre, but also as an acronym for the following:

Return Individually to God’s Heavenly Teachings

What is God’s teachings? Well, there are always debates surrounding the subject of religion, theology, philosophy, the mysteries of the Universe, the meaning of life, the Creator, God, etc. So people will have different answers for this type of question.

So again, I have to reiterate, based upon my experiences, Forgiveness and Love are the two key principles that I have gained in my personal life and what I have gleaned from the Bible.

Now, I have to be crystal clear, Forgiving and Loving does not mean to accept wrong teachings or ideologies. One can forgive and love someone without absolving them of their crime, sin or wrongdoing. This is ultimately up to God/Jesus Christ to pass judgement. But we can grow in Love and Forgiveness and see them as a soul/consciousness who is on their own path and will face the truth of themselves when the time is ready for them.

With that being said, for those on the RIGHT path, we’d also want to spread this message for others to seek the truth and help them/us along our road to the narrow gate.

But can we change the world? Can we change other people? Some people believe so. Some people believe this is an unachievable endeavor.

But realistically, what can we change? Well, that’s obvious. We can change ourselves. Even if we don’t believe on the outset that we can change others, by changing our own way of thinking, by developing ourselves to follow the path set forth for us by Jesus Christ, his message of:

“You have heard that it was said, ‘You shall love your neighbor and hate your enemy.’ But I say to you, love your enemies, bless those who curse you, do good to those who hate you, and pray for those who spitefully use you and persecute you,” – Matthew 5:43-44

then we can, even if in a small measure, plant a seed in the “enemy”, that their opposition towards us is unheeded and unneeded. They are loved, and even if they believe that “love” is for the weak and they prefer power and subjugation, their consciousness – all of which is from God – will show them the Truth and will show them the futility of what they once held in such esteem. They will come to realize, just the same as all of us, that Love is the only thing that matters, and that this simple notion is what will ultimately change the world, one individual at a time.

Now, there are people who are already on this path. They see the wickedness taking hold all around them, all around us, and it is waking them up – or they are just naturally aware of what is going on. People are realizing that the answers they seek lie in our vibration, our frequency, our fortitude to rise above the hatred, the division, the anger, the violence… Even if they are not of the religious/spiritual sense, if they turn towards the understanding that Love itself is a force, and understand its importance and initiate it into their lives, they are, for all intents and purposes, following the teachings of God/Jesus Christ.

Lastly, I want to address some feedback that the 8th Path may inevitably bring up. And that is the subject of the belief that by being of a loving, forgiving nature – instead of one of forceful opposition, that will allow the evil to run even more rampant in the world.

Well… there’s a few different ways of looking at it. On one hand, while this assessment may be a likelihood, we have to ask ourselves, even if this is so, biblical teachings point us to the way to not hold onto things of the world as what we should strive for. In fact, it teaches us to rise above this mentality and seek God/Love/Jesus Christ above all things – especially over the world.

Another perspective is that by not physically enforcing a way of life that we have decided would be beneficial to us – such as physically rebelling and/or attacking those institutions who we would consider our “enemy”, is that we are more easily led like sheep to the slaughter. Or a sort of martyrdom, if you will.

This could also be true in a sense.

But one thing we should also consider, are the other teachings that Jesus has tried to tell his disciples. Namely, “He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it.” – Matthew 10:39

This is, obviously, not meant to be taken to run head first to be a martyr for Christ, but only to realize that if we truly want to follow the RIGHT path, we need to lay down any and all types of violence, aggression, vengeance, etc. and love our enemies even as they would persecute us. This would, obviously, leave them no recourse as justification for their actions, other than, “They allowed us to do it without putting up a fight…”

A peaceful and loving countenance is what Jesus would expect of us when addressing an adversary. So much so, that even as He was being crucified, He was imploring the Father to forgive them and forgive the crowds who were calling for His death.

With all of that being said, I have also considered the possibility that the Bible and its messages of Love and Forgiveness is one huge, giant psyop to get people to easily lay down their life for their enemy so that “evil” will, essentially, win. With the hopes of no opposing force except for a peaceful group that are pacifists, they would in turn be an easy resistance to wipe out.

However, after realizing how much the messages of Jesus Christ is hated by those who love to control the world, while that could be a fake guise in and of itself to further deceive people, I find this hard to believe. It would seem that they delight in turning people against this message and into one of hatred, division and violence. The last thing they want people to do is become loving and forgiving towards one another.

So, in essence, only 1 of these 8 paths is the narrow path we are tasked with walking down – but they all lead to one destination. Again, this is just from some of my observations of what I have seen going on in the world.

For me, personally, I have at some point in my life, walked 4 of these 8 paths. I am trying to walk on my 5th and final road: the RIGHT path. While sometimes we may stray and go off the intended path, I have faith that Jesus Christ will lead us right back to it.

*Featured image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay

Demoralization: What Happens When We Feel Like Giving Up

Sometimes the world seems so dark – it almost feels hopeless…

I don’t write opinionated reflections a lot. Most of the time I try to give readers real videos, transcripts, documents about what was said by either those in charge of certain projects, or whistleblowers exposing plans, or testimonies from others who describe their experience that people need to be aware about.

While I do have my opinions and share them throughout my posts, I very rarely spend a whole post describing my emotions as I go through them.

However, admittedly, the disheartening news all around us can sometimes be overwhelming and the future extremely bleak, which casts a dark shadow of pointlessness to even pursuing these subjects any longer. Sometimes, knowing all of the atrocities going on around us, it’s easy to get lost amid a sea of hopelessness.

We see those responsible for heinous crimes constantly getting away with it, and not only that, celebrating vacations, weddings, and get-togethers with their cohorts and their ilk; while the rest of us remain under the oppressive regime of mandates, vaccine/mask narratives, and constant scrutiny if we show the littlest bit of hesitancy towards these agendas.

Seeing the people who should be behind bars living it up and able to travel freely on their private yachts and/or jets, while those simply trying to make an honest living are left either quitting their jobs/careers to refuse the vaccine mandate, or getting fired for refusing to comply – or they cave into the demands of the system and get the vaccine unwillingly to keep their job or just so that they can travel – which has ultimately sadly led to many unnecessary and tragic adverse events.

Seeing pictures of the “elite” group gathering around in large festivities and celebrations/meetings without any social distancing or masks to speak of, while the workers and camera crew catering to them are wearing masks. Clearly indicating that the “elites” are not worried about contracting ANYTHING, much less COVID, but yet they demand that the useless eaterstheir slaves… their employees wear a mask around them.

Seeing countless videos of politicians, celebrities, diplomatic leaders faking a vaccine, while encouraging, bribing and/or berating others to get it. Calling those who refuse to get it a “selfish fool” who doesn’t care about grandma.

Watching as hundreds and thousands of doctors, nurses, healthcare workers, scientists, etc. speak up against the vaccine – yet people are still refusing to listen to them, and instead continue to listen to the mainstream media and government funded doctors – like Anthony Fauci.

Seeing doctors and heads of the vaccine group (NIH, CDC, FDA, Pfizer, etc.) continuously lie to the public about the vaccine’s efficacy, or lack thereof, and the completely inane push to administer even more of the vaccine that didn’t work the first, second or third time around.

Learning about the terrible situation involving the suppression of Ivermectin – meanwhile hundreds of those in Congress are allegedly secretly getting treated with this medication – while those in charge of the coronavirus task force prevent its use in pharmacies worldwide and hospitals refuse to treat patients with it, at the same time the MSM continues to ridicule the concept by labeling it a “horsepaste”…

All of this outrageous deception and manipulation and utter clown show – within the span of less than 2 years – because a large group of people still can’t wake up to the obvious lies and endless dictatorship that’s edging ever closer to becoming a normality because people would rather continue to believe the lie and a modicum of comfort, compared to opening their eyes and seeing the huge, dystopian overhaul that tptsb have planned for us.

All of it is not only discouraging, it’s also downright depressing.

So sometimes I find myself sitting down in exhaustion, hard to find myself even moving because that would mean the reality around us is still in full effect, so by choosing to not move perhaps I can take myself out of this reality for a little bit and just exist without participating in the world that I have grown increasingly more disappointed in.

I just sit there, contemplating life, or even not thinking at all – wondering how no matter how much proof is around us, some people will still refuse to see it. It doesn’t mean it’s not there, it’s that people will refuse to connect the dots and insist that it’s just happenstance, a coincidence, nothing to be alarmed about, and so on and so forth. Their refusal to believe it doesn’t mean that it’s a ridiculous concept, but it’s more that they can’t handle it if they were to find out what the world is REALLY about, because it would mean their whole lives (all of ours) is one giant lie built on a foundation of horror and wickedness.

Or, they simply don’t care. They are so comfortable in the system, that to question it would upset their whole way of life and they rather enjoy living under governmental rule, because it allows someone else to think for them. They are indoctrinated into the system so badly that anyone resisting this type of regime is automatically seen as the “bad guy”. The plot to The Matrix playing out in real time.

So once in a while, I catch myself in utter despair, not wanting to continue on in my attempts at waking others up. They will either see the truth for what it is, or they will continue to ignore the “world” for what it really is. The Lord will call on those He chooses, while those who remain in the dark may forever be lost.

But then I remember how God did indeed call me out of this world. He led me to Him, because I was not the most pristine of followers – or a follower at all, at that point. I was a lost soul like so many others. I did not pray. I did not go to church. I did not read the Bible. As a matter of fact, I shunned the Bible. So to say that He literally called me out of this world would not be an exaggeration.

And who was there when I was questioning what was happening to me? When I went to search for an answer as to what these signs and synchronicities were, how did I finally find my answer that I wasn’t just a crazy person who heard God’s voice – but actually heard Him and He’s the one we are supposed to seek if we want to find Truth?

I found this out by other people, on their own journey, and reading/listening about their own testimonies, and their walk that brought them to the same conclusion. Even though they were at risk of ridicule, scorn, derision, etc., they still came forth to share their experiences on how they got called out of this world – perhaps on their own quest to also wake up others and help them when they choose to seek these answers out for themselves.

And so I am utterly grateful for these people who went against the grain and spoke up to help others who are on their own individual journey – those who may be slowly waking up out of this stupor created solely to keep us from seeking our true purpose – and it reminds me that even if people do not wake up NOW, then the trajectory that we are heading – with God at the helm, will indeed slowly but surely reach out to others, waking them up in their own time, until every single one of us experiences a conscious awakening – and we collectively realize who we really are and take the necessary steps to ensure a future of peace and happiness, instead of the chaos and panic that the “global elites” are trying to dictate upon the world.

I remind myself that I was as lost as many others not so long ago – and I wonder at how those who were already awake at the time felt about people like me. Perhaps growing frustrated that while they could see the evil overtaking the world, people like me at the time were still blissfully unaware in our own little bubble – happily going on about our own lives without a care in the world. Enjoying movies, hanging out with friends, gossiping, going to work, etc., etc., etc. Fully asleep, fully ignorant to the wickedness growing increasingly more brazen as time rolls on.

Perhaps this is part of the “plan”. As the depravity grows, those who are even deep asleep have no choice but to wake up, otherwise they are knowingly participating in the corruption and immorality that has been surrounding us and deceptively trying to get the population to be an active part of. Trying to normalize mandatory drugs/vaccines, transgenderism, transhumanism, pedophilia, critical race theory, satanism, abortions, genetically modifying everything – including humans, reverse aging by transfusing “young blood”, etc., etc., etc…

There is no doubt in my mind that evil has a stranglehold in the world. And time is running out for people to wake up. Perhaps this is why I sometimes have fear strike in my heart – seeing the amount of godlessness pervading practically every aspect of our society – but then I remember that God IS ultimately in control, and I remember my faith, and I remember how lost and clueless I was before waking up to this depravity, and I remember all of the people who have helped me along the way to make sense of our reality and who were awake for years and years and years before I was.

And all I can say is, thank GOD for them.

So when I feel like giving up, and find myself asking, “What’s the point?”, I remember God and all those who were awake long before I was, who had the patience and endurance to continue on, planting the seeds and graciously helping others who haven’t quite woken up out of the matrix yet. While they may have had similar feelings of hopelessness at points, their love for God and for humanity kept them going. I remember Jesus Christ, who literally spread the gospel of love and forgiveness, even up to the point of his persecution and death, by the very same people He was trying to save.

And so knowing all of this, there’s no way I can give up. While despair sometimes strikes, I am reminded of the many good people in the world, working hard to wake others and/or planting the seed for those who were lost but are now seeking the right path. I am reminded of my own shortcomings and my own dismissal of certain “conspiracy theories”, that after an honest look at it objectively, found myself to be completely in the wrong.

I take heart knowing that just because someone is lost now, that doesn’t mean that they aren’t on their own journey into waking up; and I take heart knowing that there are brave and caring souls speaking up on others behalf, helping to spread awareness to reach others.

And I am thankful for all of my readers, whether they have stumbled across here by accident, or are actively seeking the truth as well. You are a blessing, whether you realize it or not. We are all in this together, and try as the corrupt establishment might to demoralize us, I have faith in God and humanity’s will to persevere.

I love you all. God bless.

Confronting My Sanity, My Religion, and My Innocence

(or rather, the loss of all 3)

If you had asked me 10 years ago, ‘where would you be in 10 years’, I never would have thought it’d involve me developing a website dedicated to exposing corruption and preaching about Love and Forgiveness, and speaking about Jesus Christ.

I was off in my own blissful bubble; appreciating the life around me, raising my child, enjoying my job, delving into my hobbies – not a care in the world.

I was happy.

Now don’t get me wrong, I still appreciate my life. I feel happiness during certain times. I enjoy those little moments that we shouldn’t take advantage of but some do anyway.

But there is a stark difference between how I used to fall asleep at night – with what used to be a peaceful slight small smile on my lips, to praying every single night for Jesus Christ to return, sometimes crying myself to sleep.

Recently I’ve had to confront the fact that my life is not the way it used to be before. Not just from a normal part of aging, or growing up, or experience… but from the realization that everything I once thought was real/true, may not be true after all. And the fact that my eyes have been opened into seeing all of the atrocities going on in the world, and it has forced me to come to terms that I need to question everything – even things that were so deeply ingrained in me, but now I realize that it may be at the heart of the matter after all.

Questioning my sanity

As I go deep into some of these rabbit holes – CIA’s Operation Mockingbird, the vaccine/pharma agenda, religion vs. atheism vs. spirituality, freemasons/illuminati, Bilderberg group, the Holocaust, the “great reset”, nwo, etc., etc., etc., it’s made me address the very real possibility that most of what I “KNOW”, is merely all lies and falsehoods.

With a governmental agenda to literally get all Americans to believe that everything is a lie, how do we know, FOR SURE, what is real and what is propagandized?

Whether it’s due to hyper-paranoidism, or perhaps just a better understanding now of how “the world” works, I have come to the point where I actually don’t know what to believe anymore, and I doubt that most of what we are taught through history, in schools, etc. is true. I have come to the point where I honestly think that most of our lives is built on lies – ESPECIALLY when it comes to the government, religion, economics, wars, education…

As I have dug deeper into several institutions and what I DO believe is our actual history, there is only one thing really that connects everything.

And that’s our origins, our beginnings, our belief systems, religion, spirituality, the idea of a God or several gods. This is, as it seems, the core of all of our struggles today.

We may not realize it. In fact, I think billions of people DON’T realize it. They are still in the blissful, and/or unacknowledged matrix that I found myself in 10 years ago. They may know, instinctively, that something is wrong. But they can’t put their finger on it and they dismiss this feeling as an uncomfortable sensation that is better to just tune out than to confront it.

But due to certain circumstances that was actually out of my control, I ended up choosing to confront this uncomfortable awareness. Or rather, I was FORCED to do it.

Thus it led me on a downward spiral that revealed what may be the truth of the matter after all. And as such, my mind has a hard time comprehending it all and sometimes I even question myself on what if everything I’m researching is false. What if my own thoughts is false and I’m feeding into the misinformation campaign? I have actually been GASLIGHTING myself that what I am now coming to believe may not be true after all.

I think it’s an attempt at trying to rationalize all of this information away. What if I’M the one being misled and the world isn’t the way I have come to understand it? But I know that this is just a cop-out and a way of trying to lead me back “into the world”.

And this, ladies and gentlemen, is the source of our problems.

Losing (changing?) my religion…

“18 If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you.”John 15:18-19

This verse seems to be the core of what’s going on in the world. “The world” in this context, I believe, is referring to the worldly system set up – not the world as in the planet Earth. It is the whole societal structure that has been set up in an attempt to keep us all in line, and chasing the all-mighty dollar.

It involves the educational institutions, the medical/health industries, politics, economics, financial institutions, trade, stock market… and yes, most of all, RELIGION.

To understand this in better context, you HAVE to come to terms with the idea that there are, indeed, secret societies that exist. Once you can understand this concept, this notion not only becomes believable, but it practically leads all roads down this path and everything starts making sense.

I have touched upon this subject before, but imagine our beginnings, our ancestors, our ACTUAL history. Where did we come from? Imagine if there was a group of people that retained their knowledge of our actual heritage… And what if some of these very same people described in these texts, are still deadset in their ways – and refuse to acknowledge The One, True, Supreme Creator? What if, they are exactly what the Bible describes as those “of the world”?

“23 And He said to them, “You are from beneath; I am from above. You are of this world; I am not of this world. 24 Therefore I said to you that you will die in your sins; for if you do not believe that I am He, you will die in your sins.”John 8:23-24

“43 Why do you not understand My speech? Because you are not able to listen to My word. 44 You are of your father the devil, and the desires of your father you want to do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and does not stand in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaks a lie, he speaks from his own resources, for he is a liar and the father of it. 45 But because I tell the truth, you do not believe Me. 46 Which of you convicts Me of sin? And if I tell the truth, why do you not believe Me? 47 He who is of God hears God’s words; therefore you do not hear, because you are not of God.” – John 8:43-47

Now, this is where things get tricky. I usually say something like the following, “I am not religious. But I am spiritual.”

And it’s been something that I’ve actually come to terms with that I don’t belong to one set religion. And that the battle we’re facing is a spiritual warfare. I still hold to that mindset. I also subscribe to the belief that the things of the material world are meant to lead us astray. The “world” that we should be following is Jesus Christ and the teachings of Love and Forgiveness; a divine/holy way of living. Not of things “of the world”. And that includes this whole societal construct most of us are living in right now.

And during my studies through Genesis, couldn’t help but notice the focus that the Lord is making towards wealth, land, nations, kingdoms, etc. …In my view of God, this does not fit. Now, I don’t want to be presumptuous and say that I know who/what God is, but in my heart, I feel as if the God that I am familiar with would not care about material wealth/possessions. It has rather been hard for me to get through this doctrine. So after doing some more research on this matter, came across a group known as the Cathars.

“Of themselves they say: “We are the poor of Christ, who have no fixed abode and flee from city to city like sheep amidst wolves, are persecuted as were the apostles and the martyrs, despite the fact that we lead a most strict and holy life, persevering day and night in fasts and abstinence, in prayers, and in labour from which we seek only the necessities of life. We undergo this because we are not of this world. But you, lovers of the world, have peace with it because you are of the world. False apostles, who pollute the word of Christ, who seek after their own interest, have led you and your fathers astray from the true path. We and our fathers, of apostolic descent, have continued in the Grace of God and shall so remain to the end of time. To distinguish between us and you Christ said “By their fruits you shall know them”. Our fruits consist in following the footsteps of Christ.”

– Source: Cathars and Cathar Beliefs in the Languedoc | Cathar Beliefs

“Cathar theology was essentially Gnostic in nature. They believed that there were two “gods”—one malevolent and one good. The former was in charge of all visible and material things and was held responsible for all the atrocities in the Old Testament. The benevolent god, on the other hand, was the one the Cathars worshipped and was responsible for the message of Jesus. Accordingly, they made every effort to follow the teachings of Jesus as closely as possible.”

– Source: Cathars & Albigenses: What Was Catharism?

This is fascinating to me. While I was researching Genesis, the incredible focus on land, wealth, material possessions, the aroma of burnt offerings pleasing the Lord… just did not resonate with me. I entertained the idea, “What if the God of the Old Testament is different than the God of the New Testament?” I know this is seen as highly blasphemous by a lot of those following Christianity, and again, I am not Christian, per se, but I do whole-heartedly believe in and love Jesus Christ.

So seeing a group known as the Cathars – who were “all” wiped out, incidently – referring to the Old Testament as having a God different than that of the New Testament, blew my mind. And that their stance about the material world being one of evil inclinations and temptations, and the way to divinity is to live in pure, kind compassion with each other and nature – COMPLETELY resonated with me.

Am I a Cathar and am just now learning about it?

Even more interesting, is coming across a prophecy that the very last Cathar made before he was burned alive (since all the Cathars were considered heretics – albeit, to cover up a different reason why they were genocided…)

“In 700 years, when the laurel grows green again” – Guilhem de Belibaste

Historical documentations point to Guilhem de Belibaste being burned allegedy on August 21, 1321 – although that specific date has been debated. But 1321 has been widely accepted and not contested. So if this date is correct, then of course the prophecy points to the year 2021 as being “when the laurel grows green again”.

But what does that mean, exactly? Again, that is up for debate. And no one really knows if this prophecy will come true as it is, and even if it does, what it will entail. So perhaps it is an obscure statement that could apply to a wide variety of possibilities, and it may not even be noticeable at the moment. But if it means what many people think it does, then it would seem a worldwide revival of the Cathar belief system, whether they consciously realize it or not, may be in effect.

Once you lose your innocence, you can’t get it back.

(Or can you?)

When I went down the rabbit hole and started questioning my own sanity and my religion, I realized something that really struck me at what was wrong with how I intrinsically felt inside.

It was the dawning awareness that my naivete, my innocence, my open-eyed wonder of the world, had come to an abrupt halt, and I was now looking at the grim reality around me. The reality that the world that most people strive to be a part of, one that I used to want to be a part of, is one full of traps, pitfalls, wicked deeds that are now being passed off as “good”, and a systematic powerhouse of leading us away from our true purpose.

Once my eyes opened to all of this deception, the lies, the fraud – most of it pointing to a huge spiritual upset – the sorrow that I felt since I knew that my life would never be the same and I would never get back that child-like innocence, swallowed me and left me feeling alone and desolate, and a yearning for the ways that it used to be.

But then, after struggling with this inner turmoil, I came to the resolution that I wouldn’t have it any other way. Now, at least, I am awakening to the horrible atrocities that are committed just to keep the rest of us in the dark. I can step off of this worldly platform and fully dedicate myself to Jesus Christ and His teachings, knowing that I’m doing the right thing. Perhaps this is what must be done in order to raise people’s awareness and spread the message that the spiritual warfare is real, and goes deeper and darker than we think.

Maybe by putting aside this naive gullibility and innocent outlook towards the world, thinking that all of these material enhancements are for our benefit, we can shift our focus onto nature and our true roots – our soul and connection to the Creator.

Although I lost my innocence as a blissfully unaware human, just living my life as best as I can, I have gained an understanding and desire to strive for the Truth, and step out of this harmful paradigm of perpetuating division and materialistic pursuits.

I have asked myself, even though my innocence has been shattered, is there a way I can piece it back together? Not by ignoring all of the situations around us, but by slowly picking up all of these pieces and acknowledging that I can still enjoy the small things in life? The soothing sound of rain falling… A genuine smile from a loved one or stranger… A sweet video of a random act of kindness – or especially initiating the act of kindness ourself…

Maybe I’ve lost my sanity 😛 , maybe even changed my “religion” (although I’m not sure about that yet), and lost my innocence, but I do still have hope and the belief that things will work out in the end anyway. My motto, besides “Love and Forgive”, is “Jesus wins”. So no matter how much darkness seems to surround us, I have faith that “the world” will come to terms to its reality eventually and get back on the right track.

With that being said, my life may not be the same as it was before. And I may miss it at times, but to me, this just means that I’m heading in the right direction.

“20 That, however, is not the way of life you learned 21 when you heard about Christ and were taught in him in accordance with the truth that is in Jesus. 22 You were taught, with regard to your former way of life, to put off your old self, which is being corrupted by its deceitful desires; 23 to be made new in the attitude of your minds; 24 and to put on the new self, created to be like God in true righteousness and holiness.” – Ephesians 4:20-24

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