Hawaiian Whistleblower Claims of Massive Corruption Inside COVID/Nursing Units | “I’ve seen more people pass away from the vaccine than I have on COVID units.”

Faulty PCR tests, mislabeling COVID, and withholding treatment.

With so much uncertainty and censorship going on currently, especially with the COVID/vaccine narrative, it’s incredibly important to allow people’s experiences to be heard. What some may be dealing with in one arena, may not fully encompass what everyone else is going through. Yet the obvious and intrusive manipulation of suppressing people’s testimonies and first-hand accounts has reached an alarming height.

Those who engage themselves in social media and the tech platforms, such as youtube, twitter, facebook, instagram, etc. may find that certain information they’re trying to share is deleted, or shadow-banned, and/or their whole account targeted for “misinformation”.

It’s during these times that it’s more crucial than ever to spread awareness and let these people’s voices be heard.

Mr. Abrien Aguirre shares his experiences and what he sees as what can only be described as malfeasance and misconduct going on at the nursing facility that he works at. I would be willing to bet that he’s not the only one who sees all this corruption. But it takes honesty and compassion to break the silence and admit the truth, even at the risk of one’s career to go against the status quo.

The below video is a transcript of the incredibly important information that Abrien Aguirre shares with an HFSN reporter. Thank you to both HFSN and Mr. Aguirre for bringing this to attention.

All text below is from Abrien Aguirre unless otherwise stated. Some embellishment has been added for emphasis.

Source: bitchute | Hawaii Free Speech News | Abrien Aguirre Hawaii Covid Whistleblower

“My name is Abrien Aguirre, and I’m a board certified, occupational therapy practitioner. And I’m here because I have experience on COVID units. I’ve worked on 3 COVID units, 2 isolation COVID unit, and 1 step down unit. And um, so I’ve witnessed a lot of what I guess the media’s been talking about. And I see how they misrepresented the truth on COVID. The truth on the testing.

For instance, at my facility, I work at the biggest skilled nursing facility here in Oahu, and I work with the geriatric population. The people that were moved to the COVID unit, didn’t have COVID. They tested positive with the PCR test, but most of them were asymptomatic and only suffering from their preexisting conditions. None of them had exacerbated symptoms. Most of them weren’t sick, other than what they were already dealing with. End stage renal failure, diabetes, COPD, congestive heart failure, things of that nature.

I also saw how some of the hospice patients that were moved to the COVID unit, that died of terminal illness were actually put on the COVID death list. Which is complete fraud. And facilities were facilitating this, and doing this the whole time.

More people survived and had no issues and were asymptomatic that were well into their 80’s and 90’s, then that passed away. My entire experience on these COVID units, I think there were… 12 deaths? And none of those deaths could fully be attributed to COVID. It was all preexisting conditions or terminal illness.

Since the rollout of the vaccine, at my facility, Moderna was the vaccine that they administered, I’ve seen 32 elderly people pass away immediately after taking the Moderna vaccine.

None of that is being talked about on the news. None of that is being spoken about, you know, on the media. It doesn’t fit their narrative. I’ve seen more people pass away from the vaccine than I have on COVID units; which is really weird. Seeing that, supposedly we have really high COVID case numbers.

A lot of the patients that I treat are suffering from stroke, and heart attack, hip replacement, knee replacement, things of that nature. So when these people get admitted to the hospital, they have to take a PCR test first. So someone experiencing a heart attack will be picked up by the ambulance, taken to the hospital, the hospital will administer the PCR test; if the PCR test comes back positive, they admit this patient as a COVID patient. They don’t admit them as a heart attack patient. They don’t admit them for myocardial infarction. That’s kind of weird.

I’ve had stroke patients that I’ve treated that were admitted to – or taken to the hospital for stroke but when they get there, PCR test says ‘positive’ so they’re labeled as a COVID admission. Even though when they were there they were never treated for COVID, they were asymptomatic, and they were only treated for their stroke.

So there’s just this huge misrepresentation. Just a complete fraud with this system, with the healthcare system. I worked as a director of rehab for 5 months at another skilled nursing facility here in Kalihi, on Oahu, and at that facility, during my time as being the director of rehab, I’ve seen where the billing department would have my therapist change the ICD-10 medical diagnosis billing code from a pulmonary disorder or COPD, to COVID. Because of higher reimbursement.

Now these people were asymptomatic, some of them may have had a positive PCR, and some of them didn’t have a positive PCR test. But we were still forced to change those ICD-10 diagnosis codes to a COVID code because we get higher reimbursement for those patients.

So it’s just fraud on every level. Just higher reimbursement at medical facilities for someone that’s labeled COVID, whether you treat them for COVID or not. You’re gonna get higher reimbursement. I know this for a fact.

Reporter @4:16: “There’s an ambulance coming, right now.”

Abrien Aguirre: “Oh yeah, so that person, whatever they’re experiencing as soon as they get there, they’re not going to be allowed to be triaged, or admitted, until they have PCR. And if that PCR comes back positive, that person, if they’re having a heart attack, a cerebral vascular accident, anything, it’s going to immediately be labeled COVID instead of what they’re truly experiencing. Absolutely. Yep.

I, I’ve treated patients with heart attack that told me, “Yeah! I had a heart attack. My neighbor found me. They called the ambulance, the ambulance picked me up, resuscitated me, brought me back to life. I went to the hospital; the hospital wouldn’t admit me until I had a PCR test, the PCR test came back positive. I was no longer considered ‘heart attack’ or ‘myocardial infarction’. I was considered “COVID” from that point on.”

Even though they were never treated for COVID, never administered any therapeutics for COVID; treated for their heart attack, sent to our facilities so we can rehab them for those, you know, the weakness and stuff caused by their heart attack. But on our, when they come in, on our medical history, we see them as a COVID admission.

So it’s, it’s just weird fraud on every level, man. And that’s how we’re getting these spike numbers in COVID. Is because, heart attack: “COVID”. Cerebral vascular accident/stroke? You know, bleed in the brain: “COVID”. Like, everything’s coming back COVID. Broken hip/positive PCR: “COVID”.

@5:51: So the funny thing is, I’ve reached out to these politicians. I’ve reached out to Ige, I’ve reached out to Governor Josh Green, I’ve reached out to Rick Blangiardi. I’ve e-mailed, I’ve messaged these people letting them know what’s going on, and it’s silence. None of them get back to me. None of them correspond with me whatsoever. I hear no feedback from them.

I’ve talked to Rick Blangiardi, and Governor Ige – or, I messaged them, and I messaged Josh Green about the hospice patients that were terminally ill that were labeled as COVID deaths; no one’s ever gotten back to me about it. No one’s ever investigated this.

When I worked on the COVID unit, you know who ran the COVID unit? There was no infectious disease nurse. There was no infectious disease doctor. There was no representative from the DOH, Department of Health, that met with us to tell us what the protocol was. It was two certified nurse assistants, two therapists, a physical therapist/occupational therapist, and a registered nurse. That’s who ran the COVID department at Oahu’s biggest skilled nursing facility with the geriatric patients.

I never corresponded or met with Governor, Lieutenant Governor Josh Green. He never assessed the situation. That’s very weird. Why wouldn’t you assess this situation? With this deadly virus? We had no representative from the DOH come down and speak with us. There was no protocol, other than “Move these patients to the COVID unit, isolate them for 14 days. Some of them will make it, some of them won’t.”

Treatment was withheld. They weren’t given treatment. Because they had a positive PCR test, if a person had pneumonia or a flu, there’s this thing called ‘off-labeling’. They’re no longer allowed to be treated for flu or pneumonia. So they weren’t given any antivirals and they weren’t given any antibiotics. Which would normally fight those things. They were moved to a unit, they were told there was no treatment for them; whoever made it, made it – whoever didn’t, you know, didn’t.”

@7:53: “- they are testing us. This one’s from August 25, 2020. Right here, it even states on the printout, it says, “A positive result does not rule out bacterial infection or co-infection with other viruses.The rt-PCR test can’t differentiate between any viruses. It’s in the fine print! In the printout of the rt-PCR test. The inventor of the PCR test admitted that it won’t differentiate between any viruses. Recently, the CDC has even admitted that the rt-PCR test doesn’t differentiate between viruses.

So you have three sources stating that it doesn’t differentiate between viruses. Yet, yet that’s the test we’re using for this case count. That’s the, that’s the test that we’re using; it’s a faulty test. And that’s the one that Governor Green, and all these medical facilities, and it’s my facilities too that I work at, are using to claim these, these COVID statistics. That’s just false. It’s false. It’s a faulty test, it doesn’t differentiate between anything, yet that’s the gold standard right now. And it’s sad. Because there’s so many false positives. There’s so many people that are asymptomatic because it doesn’t differentiate between anything.

@9:09: This is just an infringement on our medical freedom. This is an infringement on our kupuna’s [grandparent/elder/senior citizen] health. I mean, no one’s looking after the health of our kupuna. You know? I’ve seen more death come from the vaccine. 32 kupuna, immediately after taking the Moderna shot, either the 1st or 2nd shot, pass away from this. So who’s looking out for their care?

The people that try to speak up and look out for their care? It falls on deaf ears. No one – no one corresponds back with us. No one wants to hear it cause it doesn’t fit the current narrative. It’s horrible. And I think it’s just going to continue to get worse.

You know, my advice to people, I work in a skilled nursing facility and my advice to people is, if your kupuna are sick, if your elderly are sick, your grandmother, your great-grandmother, your mom, don’t send them to a skilled nursing facility. They’re not going to receive adequate care. Treatment is going to be withheld from them. They’re going to be forced to wear a mask all day. And social distance. They’re going to become depressed and want to commit suicide, because that’s what I’m seeing in our facilities. That’s what’s been going on.”

Reporter: “Thank you so much.”

Abrien Aguirre: “You’re welcome, bro. You’re welcome.”

For more information on treatment, there are many doctors who vouch for the Ivermectin/nutraceutical bundle that may be beneficial in treating these respiratory issues. I am not a doctor, but would encourage more research on this as a possibility to help. One thing that I will say, while the FDA has approved Remdesivir as a treatment for COVID, I would HIGHLY encourage one to do research on this drug (and organization) as well before choosing this as a course…

As it stands currently, the FDA has been accused several times of engaging in corrupt practices, accepting bribes from drug companies, and approving drugs that do more harm than good.

CORRUPTION IN THE FDA
An FDA Whistleblower’s Documents: Commerce, Corruption, and Death

Another notice, seeing as how accurate information is highly suppressed, while only one side of the narrative is highly endorsed, I would suggest using this as a guideline in determining what may be “actual misinformation”, as opposed to “information they don’t want you to see”. Yet with any level of research, discernment and critical thinking is needed, so please keep this in mind.

With that being said, I don’t want to derail the topic too much, I appreciate Abrien Aguirre and the HFSN (Hawaii Free Speech News) for sharing his experience, but also wanted to point out the unnecessary and unhelpful judgements that some people make to try and delegitimize some people’s accounts because of their credentials, or some other strawman excuse to refute credibility.

For instance, because Abrien Aguirre doesn’t work in “infectious diseases” or isn’t a PhD medical doctor, some people will use that as an excuse to automatically dismiss this man’s claims.

However, one of the top leading voices in this whole “pandemic” drive is that of Bill Gates. And what are his credentials? …Well… he’s a college dropout, accused of stealing software tech, and, according to wikipedia: William Henry Gates III is an American business magnate, software developer, investor, author, and philanthropist. He is a co-founder of Microsoft Corporation, along with his late childhood friend Paul Allen.”

So why would these credentials make Bill Gates one of the biggest spokespersons for a mandatory vaccine?

Oh, I forgot to mention his dad, William Gates Sr. – who was head of Planned Parenthood – which is a company born from a history of eugenics and whose founder, Margaret Sanger, specifically aimed for taking out the black population and those deemed “unfit”.

But I’m sure that’s all just a misunderstanding and even though Mr. Bill Gates himself has talked about reducing the population, obviously he doesn’t really mean it that way, right? I mean, that’s just ridiculous. …

And while Abrien Aguirre has been taking care of hospital patients and seeing all of the corruption going on within, where has Bill Gates been? Has he been taking care of patients one on one? Has he been directly in the hospitals, seeing patients being shuffled back and forth; who are being sent in for heart attacks/stroke/leg surgery/kidney stones/etc., etc., etc. yet being labeled as a COVID specific patient if the PCR tests (which are fraudulent to begin with) come back positive? Has he seen the malfeasance and manipulation of data just to get higher reimbursement from the government?

(Oh wait. Who am I kidding? He’s well aware of all the corruption going on, because he’s a key part of it.)

Or has he been in another simulation event planning out the next big cyber/biologic attack? Or meeting with all of his billionaire friends to laugh about the gullible and foolish human beings that believe he’s doing all of this out of the kindness of his heart and that he truly, honestly cares about us all – or perhaps he’s discussing more “philanthropic” ventures that just so happen to make him and his cohorts even richer?

Maybe he’s been hiding in his bunker, hoping that more and more people will take this deadly vaccine so that he can roam free after the chaos dies down. Perhaps he’s working on finalizing his divorce and trying to shut down “rumors” about his connection with Jeffrey Epstein… Going on more news channels to declare that these vaccines are the holy grail and that everyone and their dog needs to get it…

So once again I have to bring up, why would Bill Gates’ words be more credible in relation to this vaccine push, than someone who has firsthand account and eye-witness testimony? Why are the people who are experiencing the horrors of vaccine side effects/deaths in person being silenced and ignored in the media, while a “tech mogul” is plastered all over the news?

My best common sense guess: $$$

I apologize. I derailed quite a bit.

Thank you again to Abrien Aguirre, HFSN, and everyone else who has been speaking out about the corruption going on with this narrative. Yours is the voice that needs to be heard, and I appreciate your courage and integrity to do so. God bless.

Why I Believe, What I Believe

Personal Experiences.

Have you ever asked yourself why you believe what you believe? (If you believe in anything at all?)

Why do I feel as if the metaphysical holds secrets (and answers!) important for the human being to seek?

Due to a few incredible and unexplainable events in my life, I wanted to make a list highlighting why I believe that this physical world should be working WITH the spiritual on our path to “enlightenment”, “bliss”, “peace”, etc. When we stray away from our naturally inclined spiritual side, we move further and further away from the truth of who really are.

I propose, that to search for the spiritual (as long as one does it carefully and prayerfully) will lead us closer to the answer that we seek (even if we don’t think we’re seeking anything) and fill the void that seems to be pervading a lot of society.

People regularly turn to alcohol, drugs, porn, video games, drama, social media, etc., etc., etc., perhaps because it gives them a momentary reprieve from their everyday life. It’s a form of imagined comfort/solace, because afterwards some of these vices gives people a sense of guilt/shame… and then they turn back to the very thing that caused these negative emotions to begin with, to drown it back out – and the tragic cycle continues.

If you’re one of those that turn to physical gratification – food, drugs, companionship, alcohol, etc. – please keep in mind that this is part of the system to try and keep us trapped in our endlessly seeking for that fill in the hole of ourselves. We feel empty, hollow, and these substances and hobbies may temporarily fill it, but it doesn’t last, and then we’re back to feeling incomplete and lost again.

People may scoff at this idea, but this power structure has been implemented for several millennia. When people start to realize that the world is composed of “energy”, “vibration”, “consciousness”, we may be on the right path to turning this world around and focusing on what really matters.

Which brings me to the experiences I’ve had that have led me to this conclusion.

I’ve written before about some of them, but I wanted to put most of the significant events all in one post to show the timeline and development of the spiritual thought process that I, personally have gone through, and believe anyone and everyone can attain. All it requires is a seeking mind.

If some still remain hard-hearted, it may have been due to their own stubbornness – and God knows what’s inside our hearts.

Therefore judge nothing before the appointed time; wait until the Lord comes. He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of the heart.
1 Corinthians 4:5
The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel that displays the glory of Christ, who is the image of God.
2 Corinthians 4:4

While some people may seem closed-off and highly skeptical (I was one of them), God ultimately knows who will come around and He will lead the way – as long as you are earnest and sincere in your heart. Those that will continuously refuse to seek the truth (or perhaps they KNOW the truth and still turn their back to it), and remain in their sinful lifestyle, will face the repercussions when their time comes. This isn’t meant to fear-monger, but just a simple statement of one’s own decision to reject the Life they could have had. And we have to be aware, as the verse above states, some people may never come around and believe in the Truth – so some may be lost to their own fates.

Whether that is true or not, my efforts are to keep trying to bring people around and let them know that there’s so much to look to other than the physical aspect of things.

Thankfully, although I was a closed-off skeptic and scoffed at the Bible at one stage in my life, my heart was in the right place, and I believe because of that, I had help to lead me to keep searching.

Here is an ascending list (not exhaustive, as there were several others that have led me here) that gave me a huge wake-up call and made me realize that we’re not alone – and that there’s so much more to life than what we’ve been led to believe.

First: The Answer to Everything

One of the most major events in my life gave me a kickstart into believing that the physical Earth isn’t all there is in the world. I was a kid during this time. This was during the beginning of me experimenting with out of body experiences / astral projection – so I am unsure if the obe’s came first, or if this particular event happened first. But I remember a moment when I was asking a particular question in my head, a really innocuous one at that, and before I knew it, I had a HUGE flash of insight. EVERYTHING came to me all at once. The answers to EVERYTHING.

I can’t even explain how incredible this event was. This flash of insight only lasted a split-second, and then it was gone – but during it I literally had the answer to anything and everything. It was fascinating. Unfortunately, I couldn’t retain any of the information since it was so quick, but it left an ever-lasting impression on me. And that was the first major event for me that led me to keep searching for the Truth.

I wish I could remember if this incident came before or after my attempts at obe’s, but alas, I cannot. I think it would help paint a clearer picture of how my mind became open to the possibilities of the spiritual side. And I also wonder if I may have had a very quick glimpse into the Akashic records, but cannot say for certain what it was.

(You can read more about this experience here, which details this and some of the other accounts on this list in more detail.)

Second: A Polite Ghost?

This happened at a friend’s house; I was sleeping over. I was in the guest bedroom, getting ready to go to sleep. I had not yet crossed that threshold between wakefulness and sleep, so this was not a hallucination or hypnagogic imagery of any kind. I was fully awake at this point and quite lucid.

As I was laying on one side of the bed, as is my custom, I could not get comfortable. I was shifting, turning, laying on one of my sides to the next, trying to get into a comfortable position. Again I want to reiterate that I was only on one side of the bed, just twisting and turning on that same side.

Well, after a couple more minutes of shifting myself, I suddenly heard a voice right next to me say, “Fine, I’ll move, okay?” and as I looked to the other side of the bed, where I hadn’t been at all, I could see an indent on the pillow right next to where I was laying my own head.

I have to be clear. The indent was not from myself. I was only using up one side of the bed/one side of the pillow. Wherever this other voice came from, I could quite plainly see another indent where “he/it” was laying. I was shocked and almost terrified, but after the voice said he would move, I instantly felt comfortable and more at ease. Whatever this presence was, didn’t feel malevolent, and in fact I was probably honing in on his space since I had never slept in that room before. I was the one invading his space, apparently.

Well, after this presence left, since I didn’t feel any malignant energy from it, I laid back down and went to sleep. It was fascinating to me though that while I was essentially the unwelcome visitor, the “ghost” was pleasant enough to allow me to sleep there peacefully. I didn’t ask my friend about it because she was already a high-strung person and I didn’t want to alarm her with what seemed to be a relatively benign presence. Not sure if she would have believed me anyway.

Third: Outside Influence

During this time, although I have already some interesting, unexplainable experiences under my belt, I was still incredibly cynical and angry at God and other people. All I could see around me were injustices, selfishness, contradictions, hypocrites – I was fed up.

This experience helped to completely turn my life around.

I was working in a retail store, and getting really frustrated with a customer. She was not understanding a single word I was telling her, and she kept repeating the same questions over and over and over again. I was reaching my limit. After telling her probably around 15 times the answer to her question, I was getting extremely abrupt and rude to her and was just about to walk away from her. But then, a clear, concise, non-judgmental voice entered my head:

“She has early Alzheimer’s.”

That’s all the voice told me. I KNOW for a fact it didn’t come from me, because I was so set in my bitter thoughts and irritation at this lady that there was no place for “rational” thoughts. All my thoughts were anger and annoyance. After I heard this voice and understood the situation, I treated the lady much better and patiently and was able to help her through her purchase. Then she thanked me for being so kind to her (although just a few minutes ago I was quite rude and condescending), which made me feel worse and more aware of the way I was treating her.

After she left, I went into the backroom and cried for a good 15 minutes. It was my first encounter with a “voice” that did not come from me (or maybe it my Higher self?) leading me to choosing the right path. As I wrote here:

“I probably cried and sobbed for a good fifteen minutes just wondering what it was that happened to me and how I became the way I was. I was ashamed at the way I treated the lady; I was ashamed that it took a voice from an unknown being telling me the situation because I was too dense to figure it out myself. It shook me to the core.”

It was the moment that really cemented the notion that there was so much more to life and that there really were other “beings”, “guides” that were trying to help us navigate this life. And it also made me retrospect on myself and the way I handled things in the past.

Fourth: Is Remote Viewing Real?

I was at the same company and bored out of my mind. So I imagined myself at a popular tourist spot just to get away from the mundane, plain area I was in at the moment. It was more of a daydream trying to imagine what it would be like to be outside, in the fresh air, under the sun, taking in the sights, etc.

I thought nothing of it, until about a couple of hours later a lady came in and asked me, “You look familiar. Didn’t I just see you?” I said, “I don’t think so. I’ve been here all day.” and she was like, “No, I could’ve sworn I just saw you. Weren’t you at “Popular Tourist Spot?”

While I knew I was just imagining myself there earlier, obviously I wasn’t there in person, so I had no idea what to say. I was astounded. Maybe this lady saw someone who looked eerily similar to me, or maybe she could see an imprint of my energy focusing in that exact area or something. But the eerie coincidence and the timing of it blew me away. She even said the person she saw was dressed exactly like me. Could she possibly be more intuned than she thought, and could I have unknowingly sent my astral body out there to escape my physical confinement?

I can’t say for sure, I just know that it was another incident which made me question our worldly life and the possibilities that lay within.

Fifth: To Forgive, or Not To Forgive

This happened in 2010. And is another incident that I related in another post.

I won’t go into much detail here, since I’ve already outlined what I experienced (What is the Universe Trying to Tell Us?), but it was such a turning point for me and was one of the main messages that I always try to adhere to (much harder to do than to just say…).

For a quick rundown, while waking – I could feel the vibrations that I’m familiar with in order to attempt obe’s, lucid dreams, astral projection, etc. Well, along with these vibrations I could also hear, telepathically, a man’s voice asking me who I would forgive. If I responded with a “yes”, I could feel my vibrations getting stronger. If I responded with a “no”, then the vibrations would fade and get weaker.

After the “test” it occurred to me that I was supposed to reply back with all ‘yeses’. But as a moral human being, it’s hard for me to really feel that I have that capacity. I’m still trying to learn that it’s not my place to judge and that I don’t understand each individual case, so I am trying to leave my personal biases behind and become more of a compassionate and unconditional soul. (Again, much harder than it sounds, but I am trying.)

It makes me wonder why I was being tested in this way. And the feeling that I took away from it is that I could have done better. I wish I could say I have evolved significantly since then, but the truth is it’s still hard for my heart to truly forgive someone who knows that they are doing wrong, and won’t stop. I keep praying and asking for more help in this regard, also questioning what this entity wants from me, and the only takeaways I have is “forgive” and “love”.

Sixth: Inner Battle

This experience was also recounted here, same as the third event on this list.

It was literally a battle between good and evil. …Well, not really. But it was a battle of wits, between the “good” angel, and the “devil” on the shoulder.

I was at an atm machine, and realized that 60$ was still in the machine. There was literally an inner battle within me as to whether to take the money, or turn it in. (I already knew which decision I was going to make straight off the bat, so it made it even more interesting that I could hear these inner “voices” – consciousness, maybe? – trying to lead me to the wrong or right choice.)

I also had my son with me at the time, and I wanted to set a good example for him. Of course, that’s not the only or main reason, because I was already morally ethically inclined to return the money, but because I was so aware of the fact that I could actually hear these two voices, it made me pause for a second at the fascinating debate going on that was relatively outside of me, but within me at the same time.

And I do want to note, the “good” angel was a much quieter voice, so the “evil” one was more forceful, aggressive and loud. That voice could be heard loud and clear. The quieter voice was still, calm and in the background – as if trying to guide carefully and not wanting to put pressure on the final choice.

This was an enlightening experience to me, because it was the first (and only, at the moment) that I could actually hear an inner debate going on in my head between the right and wrong path. This dichotomy of good and evil warring for one’s very soul has been depicted throughout the ages, but to actually hear it going on within me, was an amazing revelation.

Seventh: The Meaning of Life

– Love is the Answer.
– Love Heals.
– Meditate on Love.

These were the signs I received after I heard an inner voice within me giving me the answer to the question I was contemplating earlier that day.

I was at a really low point in my life, and I remember just standing in the living room, and asking myself, “What’s the point? What’s the meaning of all of this?”

And that’s when this voice, whether it was my Higher Self, a different being, etc., simply say, “Love.” That’s all this voice said.

I scoffed at the time and challenged this voice, basically saying, “Prove it. If “Love” is the meaning to life, then give me a sign. Not just one sign. I want to see the word ‘love’, three times, TODAY.”

And sure enough, I got my signs. This was another account which I related here (What is the Universe Trying to Tell Us?) in more detail.

Now I know some people may say that because I was basically looking out for the signs, I made a specific effort to come across it. But I did not. As a matter of fact, I was almost in a stubborn mindset trying to deliberately be blasé about the whole ordeal. I was not looking for the sign, and I was not hiding from it. I was just letting whatever happen, happen. I figure if it was a real sign, then I wouldn’t need to actively look for it, which would obviously skewer my outlook on life.

But these signs came on unexpectedly, and the last one threw me for a loop, and really made me face the music that I really did hear this voice tell me that ‘love’ is the answer. Which is why my main key messages throughout this website is devoted to ‘forgiveness’ and ‘love’. Whoever, whatever this/these entities are, it has been leading me to the “right” path, and thankfully it has reached out to me, and thankfully I was receptive to these messages.

Eighth: Dream Guide

While I have had more experiences that have led me to my current lifestyle and belief system, I wanted to add this one last event that happened recently to help expand upon what is possible when we open up our mind and thoughts to getting insights from other avenues.

Not too long ago, I wrote this post: Is the Dome/Firmament Over Earth Real? to touch upon the interesting theory that no one has ever left Earth. (Despite what NASA and other space programs may have us believe.) There are some possible connections to Antarctica, and the huge ice wall that allegedly surrounds us.

Now, the dream I had the other night (3/25/2021) actually proposed an idea that hadn’t even occurred to me.

In the dream, at first there was a man in a jail cell. The cell surrounded him with metal bars on all four sides and above. I’ll call this gentleman a “dream guide” – I’ve had dreams of him before, and am reluctant to call him a dream guide, but have settled on that terminology for now.

I was there too, on the outside of the jail and asking him questions. Before I knew it, he had teleported me into the jail cell with him. Now I knew that he could get out if he wanted, and he could get me back out if he wanted, but I was stuck there without his help. Unless I could somehow dig under the cell.

Then the dream changed and now I’m in an extensively icy field, snow and ice all around, perhaps Antarctica, and I could see some people digging into the snow/ice. I realize that they are the researchers/scientists trying to study this place. Well, then my “guide” asks me, “What do you think they’re doing there?” and it occurs to me, at least in my dream, that they’re trying to dig under the dome/firmament. Since they couldn’t leave Earth from the sky, they were going to try and dig underneath.

The jail cell dream, and the Antarctica/firmament one, were both connected – and my dream guide was connecting these two ideas to present a different outlook as to what may be happening.

I found it fascinating, that I hadn’t even considered digging under the dome, until these dreams led me to this conclusion. Whether it’s real or not, the possibility that this may very well be what’s being attempted in real life, is a very interesting theory to consider.

All of these different experiences I’ve had have helped shaped myself and my own beliefs, and opened my eyes and led me to this journey of searching for the Truth. I have to say, it is an ongoing effort, as it seems that when I come across one possible key to finding the truth, it actually leads me into a rabbit hole so deep, that it ultimately becomes too confusing for words and I actually have to step away to gather my bearings and come back to it at a later time.

It is an ever-growing pursuit, and even though so many roads lead to so many different places, the point is to keep searching and keep an open mind and heart to finding the answer. All I know for sure is that ‘love’ and ‘forgiveness’ are two of the most important aspects to aspire to. Anything beyond that, as long as it is being done with a sincere and open heart – even if one is misled – will eventually bring them back on track and help them find more of their spirituality instead of leaving one focusing too much on the physical. Our purpose here has been tainted by materialism and division. We need to look, not only beyond our physical form, but within our spiritual form.

Those who refuse to believe there is anything more than the physical life, if they are too set in their ways, will sadly be lost to their own conscious beliefs – something that I was close to becoming. If it weren’t for all the help I received and myself finally shedding my rebellious and stubborn side, I would more than likely still be a skeptical, negative, cynical human being. Because of the outside help and the help I’ve received from within, I have now been on this incredible exploration and fully realize that there is much more to “life” than what it seems.

If anyone has any questions and would like to know more, please contact me or leave a comment. I would be happy to address any questions or concerns you may have. Thanks for reading!

Fact checking is extremely important. I want to reiterate not to take everything at face value; no matter what you read, where you read it from, or who you hear it from. And to be clear, do not rely on “fact checking” websites to give you accurate information either. These are just as likely, (if not even more likely…), to feed false information and false debunking accounts to manipulate the reader. Please take everything into consideration before adhering to a certain narrative – and always keep your mind open to other possibilities.

Fair use disclaimer: Some of the links from this article are provided from different sources/sites to give the reader extra information and cite the sources, but does not necessarily mean that I endorse the contents of the site itself. Additionally, I have tried to provide links to the contents that I used from other sites as an educational and/or entertainment means only; if you feel that any information deserves further citation or request to be clarified, please let me know through the contact page.

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Did You Know?: There are some people that don’t have an inner dialogue.

And some can’t see images in their mind.

This is news to me. I just found this out about a week ago, and it’s been at the top of my mind ever since. So much so, that I felt compelled to write a whole post about it.

There are many reasons why I find this fascinating. I didn’t even know this was possible. All throughout my life I’ve been able to think to myself and could hear my own thoughts in verbal form. I could visualize pictures. If someone told me to picture an apple, I could see an image of a ruby red, juicy shiny apple. I could expand upon that and put the apple in a large, straw basket if I wanted. Or in a fancy fruit bowl. Or hanging from a tree. I could visualize an adorable pony eating the apple.

Image by lumix2004 from Pixabay

I thought everyone could do this. I now realize that some people don’t have that ability. And it blows my mind. (literally)

I’m sure most of you have heard these expressions, or at least some form of it:

“Just imagine counting sheep to help you sleep.”

“Picture yourself on a beautiful, pristine beach.”

“I daydream about winning the lottery.”

“If I tell you to think of a pink elephant, do you instantly visualize a pink elephant?”

And while many people might be able to do these things, it’s been known that not everyone is able to. They always thought it was a figure of speech. And they are equally as shocked to learn that people do indeed have these visualization techniques. One youtuber, Quiet Mind Inside, claims, “I thought it was a hoax.” when she first heard that people can actually imagine these things in their head.

The inability to picture things in their head, even people – that they’ve known their whole life and even live with, including themselves! – is called aphantasia. According to the studies, this phenomena is believed to occur in about 2-3% of the population, although the research is still ongoing. And some that have it, may not even know it. If they are like Quiet Mind Inside and countless others, they could have gone throughout their whole life thinking their thought process was no different than anyone else’s. And vice versa.

This is another reason why having patience and compassion for others is such a huge deal to me, and something that I focus on bringing to light with these types of subjects. Because we may never know what’s going on inside someone else’s mind. Something that I thought was common for everyone just threw a wrench in my whole way of thinking just last week! Imagine all of the things we don’t know about the human mind and thus each other if we’re still learning new things every day about how the world and consciousness works.

Along with aphantasia, some people report that they have no inner dialogue. It’s fascinating to hear people relate that as they’re watching movies depicting someone speaking inside their own head, they had no idea that this was an actual thing and wished it was real.

For an entertaining account of someone trying to come to terms with finding out about people that have no internal dialogue, check out the below post by Ryan Langdon which includes a youtube video where he interviews one of his friends who doesn’t have an inner dialogue.

Today I Learned That Not Everyone Has An Internal Monologue And It Has Ruined My Day.

The topic also intrigued Langdon enough for him to conduct an interview with clinical psychologist Dr. Russell T. Hurlburt, who has been studying the human mind for over 5 decades.

I wonder if this boils down to brain development and perhaps nature vs. nurture, in a way. Some studies indicate that an inner dialogue begins to show when we’re young children, perhaps when we’re playing alone and making up fantastic stories and adventures to ourselves. It would be interesting to see a correlation between those with an inner monologue and those without due to home/family/upbringing lifestyle. How many siblings do they have? If any? Are both parents present? Adopted/foster care? Lots of friends, or not that many? Etc., etc., etc. The variables are endless.

Could it also be genetic? There is research being done on gene manipulation that can help (or interfere, if we’re being completely honest with this technology) with our mind.

Another interesting prospect to consider is if it could also be due to the different wiring in our brains, pure and simple. Along with the gene manipulation mentioned above, one has to wonder that with all the scientific progress (or regression… if one chooses to look at it in a different way…), it could be possible to block or allow certain neurological pathways that enable or disable this ability (and who knows what else) due to surgery or drugs/medication. There are also incredible accounts of people who have suffered brain damage from an accident, who then took on new talents they never knew they had; some even became a completely different person!

10 True Stories of how Brain Damage Changed People

Mad in America: Bad Science, Bad Medicine, and the Enduring Mistreatment of the Mentally Ill

Losing My Internal Monologue

So I’m typing this out without even needing to really think. I’m just typing words as fast as I can without stopping to think in between. The words are just coming to me and since I’m a pretty fast typer, it’s pretty much just trickling out as I’m typing. I’m not thinking beforehand in complete sentences, although I can definitely hear out the words in my head as I’m typing. No forethought. Just bing, bing, bing. One right after the other.

Have you ever stopped to consider the way that you think? Did you know that we all think in many different ways? Does it give you a better outlook as to why some people may be more analytical/logical, as opposed to someone who’s more predisposed to feelings/emotions?

Some other reading source material to help get a broader idea of this inner thought state and to understand it better can be found here:

What’s going on in your head?: The science behind our inner voice

Do You Have an Inner Voice? Not Everyone Does

People With No Internal Monologue Explain What It’s Like In Their Head

It’s very enlightening to hear of other people’s experiences as well. While it may all be anecdotal and hard to prove or discount, it just may give a wider glimpse into the different types of thought processes we all have to further cement the idea that, although collectively we’re all the same, we still have our own individuality and unique perspectives that we are still in the process of understanding. Once we realize that we all think differently and have our own creativity, ideas and experiences, it can help us to learn to be more tolerant and compassionate with each other, instead of holding so much bitterness and resentment and/or judgement, simply for “thinking differently”.

I do want to say I was touched and heartbroken when listening to Quiet Mind Inside lamenting how she could not recall her children’s faces if she’s away from them. I can’t even imagine how that would feel. And although we are waking up to the fact that other people think differently than each other, and there might be some forms of jealousy/envy and/or sympathy depending on the situation, it doesn’t mean that one particular way of thinking is better or more appropriate. And while some without an inner visualization may envy those who do, sometimes having an internal dialogue or visualization can be detrimental and have more harmful effects than good.

When the Voice Inside Your Head Turns Bad: Empowering yourself to challenge your inner critic.

Why Can’t I Get Gross Images Out Of My Head?

There are times where people wish they didn’t have constant chatter and visuals in their mind so that they can feel more at peace; and on the flip side, there are people who wish they could visualize images in their mind. Perhaps there’s a way we can train ourselves to think in a myriad of ways. For those who want to quiet the constant thoughts and emotions going on in their head – maybe some practice in meditation would help. And for those who wish to visualize things and have that inner monologue, perhaps they can practice different material/games to increase their imagination.

The world’s a fascinating place. And so is our mind. There are many things still left to explore. And learning more about our own self-awareness and conscious (and unconscious) thought processes would be a wonderful place to start.

Fact checking is extremely important. I want to reiterate not to take everything at face value; no matter what you read, where you read it from, or who you hear it from. And to be clear, do not rely on “fact checking” websites to give you accurate information either. These are just as likely, (if not even more likely…), to feed false information and false debunking accounts to manipulate the reader. Please take everything into consideration before adhering to a certain narrative – and always keep your mind open to other possibilities.

Fair use disclaimer: Some of the links from this article are provided from different sources/sites to give the reader extra information and cite the sources, but does not necessarily mean that I endorse the contents of the site itself. Additionally, I have tried to provide links to the contents that I used from other sites as an educational and/or entertainment means only; if you feel that any information deserves further citation or request to be clarified, please let me know through the contact page.

Featured image by Gordon Johnson from Pixabay

Crystal Clear Learning

Demoralization: What Happens When We Feel Like Giving Up - Sometimes the world seems so dark - it almost feels hopeless...
You Are Much More Than You Realize | But You Need to Believe It - What do you believe in? Do you REALLY believe it?
The Other Virus: Learned Helplessness - Compliance leading to our downfall.
Why I Believe, What I Believe - Personal Experiences.
Is God calling out to you? | If not, are you SURE? - And if so, are you heeding His call?
Is Unconditional Love Enabling “Wrong” Behavior? - Can we be loving, yet judge at the same time?